memorable

It's been a while since I've written in my DJ, since 2011 to be precise. The reason being that I lost the fire, and a series of failure led to me giving up since the efforts I put in didn't seem to be worth it. However, I have decided to reprise my role as an intermediate-level oneironaut. I actually waited before I start to write in my DJ again to see if I get any results, and I sure did.

For the last few days, I have had increasingly better dream recall, but it was last night that I got a full LD.

It all started when I left my house to go to the library. I recall being in a building made out of rocks similar to the ones in Star Wars. I encounter a girl from my school then find myself inside a mix of a library and Archambault (bookstore). My mom texts me to find out where I am. The dream begins to crumble and I become lucid in the process. Lucky me, I get an FA but I am not fooled for a second. I quickly RC, stabilize the dream and leave my house by the back door. As I walk through the door I feel spider webs on my face. I am briefly frightened but soon they disappear and I regain control. This is where my memory gets a bit foggy. I decide the fastest way to leave my house is to fly away and I manage to do so. I see a small cartoonish bird in the sky and land at my school. There I decide to fly around and to try transforming into a cat. While I feel I did manage to transform in a decent way, I am not quite sure since I was in 1rst person. I slowly start losing lucidity and wake up shortly after.

I am very satisfied as it had been a while since I had LDed. Now my goal would be to try to achieve better dream control because I sometimes feel even though I am lucid, the dream decides what I do and not the other way around. But for a start this was very good

This night was the greatest LD night I ever lived since I started lucid dreaming. I had 5 LDs (which of course I chained, I love DEILD) but in each of them I demonstrated dream control like I had never experienced before.

Dream 1: I start my lucid dream by doing a random reality check in my living room while my mom is watching me. As soon as I realise I am dreaming I decide to go outside. It's night. I open the door and jump in the snow (even though its summer in RL). Then I go on the street and see a lot of cars passing by with many pedestrians. I see a hockey net from afar. I decide to fly by using a special technique specifically designed for my inability to fly (made by Loaf). I sit down as if I'm in a car, use the invisible gas to go forward and tilt up to fly. Once high enough I am able to let go and fly away, but I end up in a big horizontal vortex talking to Nick Cannon. I talk to him about how he is black.

I try to DEILD but fail since I had lost a little lucidity near the end. I go back to sleep.

Dream 2: I have a big non-lucid about me using a teleporting machine, only to find myself with 7 fingers on each hand. I am pissed and decide to try to sue the company who made it, for no success. I never realise that unusual hands is a reality check lol. I talked to my uncle in the middle of that dream, which leads to the 3rd one.

Dream 3: False Awakening. I wake up in my bed and my cell phone rings. It says someone sent me two pictures. I think that its my uncle who sent me pictures of his dog (could have happened). I get up and go in the living room. ALL of my family is there, including my uncle. It takes me awhile to understand but I do a reality check as the dream fades out. I now begin my chain of LDs. I DEILD back into a dream. I am now back in my living room and everyone tells me that the pool is weird. I go to check it and they tell me anyone who goes on the pool floats on the surface. I take a dip myself and float on top of the water. I want to impress my DC family, so I tell them that when I snap my fingers the water will be normal again. I do and they are impressed. I proceed to flying around in my house and my mom asks me how the hell I do that. I tell her I'm just lucid dreaming and she says my brother and sister should try it too. Id rather not, they should go find their own amazing hobby!

Dream 4: As I DEILD in the next dream, I remember that youre not supposed to chain too much or you will start forgetting your first dreams (and I dont want that) which is why when my dream starts off with 2 santa claus puppet, I wake myself up to start off on a clean slate with a better dream.

Dream 5: I am in a restaurant with my family once again, but as soon as the dream starts I completely abandon the plotline to go have fun outside. I have an aversion against doors, so I go through the window of the restaurant even though the door is right next to it. I bump on the window a couple of times before passing through, but I dont care since who can see me right? I dont remember much after that, except that I walked on the street and saw my friend Sandy. Im turned on and want to have sex, so I try to make a Playmate appear I tell myself that when I look behind me, she will be there (and naked). However the Dreamworld has a way of somehow preventing me from having dream sex, maybe because there are so many better things to do. So I fail to make her appear.

Dream 6: I DEILD with the firm intention of having dream sex. I am in a big school filled with people my age. As I am walking the hall I say out loud que jai le gout de fourrer. The girl next to me tells me she does too but shes ugly so I tell her that shes just a DC and im the dreamer here. I choose . I am roaming for a place in the school to have sex "privately" if you will until I end up in a big dark room with shelves. I decide to try to make sandy appear this time and it works. As I'm walking up to her I'm already taking of my shoes and coat but she walks away from me. I follow her and she seems to agree but as she says that we should go in the corner a bunch of girls from the school come into the room looking for costumes for a dance show (wearing makeup and everything). Then theres guys too. Once again, im prevented from having sex. He he

Dream 7: I'm back in the restaurant. For a brief moment I seem to have lost all my superpowers. I cant seem to levitate or fly or anything. I push my finger through my palm to make sure that I am dreaming. Fade out.....again

Dream 8: Had a non-lucid dream about doing homework secretly in school with my friends.

It had been awhie since I had an EPIC night, but last night was one of them. I had a shitload of dreams that im not even sure I remember them all. New milestones reached, too. For the first time, I ALMOST had sex. The closest ive been by far. I also morphed into an Enforcer from Combat arms and into a bird.

Dream 1: Before I get lucid, the beginning is very hard to find. Anyway, there are two naked chicks in a house. When I see the brunette's vagina open up before me, the shock is so powerful that lucidity is instant. You have to understand nudity used to be impossible for me to reach in my dreams. I did RC though. I start fucking her, but I dont "feel" anything at all. To be honest, I didnt really put myself into it since obviously I lack real experience Im talking to her as I turn her around and start doing her the other way . No pleasure at all, none. One of my friends, a guy named Zheng, is obviously having a lot of fun though. In a big brown room, hes screwing the girl I was with not long ago while the another one is also having with a mysterious, unnamed man. At this point, im only half lucid and cant quite think for myself. I want to be him really bad. Lucid again, I am downstairs looking for Zheng. I wonder if hel be in the room I am right as im writing . Then I remember im in a dream and if I imagine him he will be there. When I get in he is on the floor fixing something on my drum. He looks at me and I ask: "Tsé la fille de tantot? Tu mla prête tu apres pour que je puisse la fourrer?" The dream fades before I get an answer.
To give an idea about how this dream was a punch in the face, I relived (or redreamed) the first scene with the vagina about 3-4 times.

Dream 2: Still lucid and for no particular reason, I decide to shapeshift into an Enforcer, this big blue zombie in a game thats really hard to kill. I think hard about transforming and look at my arms. They start getting bigger and "bumpy", like in the movies. Its fair success for a beginner. Since im epicly strong now, I kick the wall in front of me and it blows up in pieces. Fade out.

Dream 3: DEILD back without any SP. In what looks like a Paris cafe. I only have the time to look at my surroundings when I fade out again.

Dream 4: This was so short I dont even recall what it was. As I was DEILDing, my dreams were getting sloppy. That is my thought back in my bed.

Dream 5: I want to turn into a small bird this time. After a few tries I do, but a cartoon cat in front of me is very interested I fly away to the top of my school.

Dream 6: Im not sure where this dream was situated in the night. It was stressful and is obviously because of all those projects at school. I have to do work today and dreamed the day ended and I hadnt done nothing. Freaked me out.

Dream 7: X Just Remembered! X I drove a car for the first time in my life and proved to be a fairly good driver. In a hazy day, my mom and my sis apparently are out of the car. I take the wheel and just drive. I am not lucid, and somewhat fear being caught by the police. Had I known I was dreaming, I probably would have went crazy with it. But I had no accident and drove very well before my mom popped back up and I woke up.

You heard me. It took 70 DJ entries and 15 lucid entries, but my goal of levitation aka flying was finally done this morning

As I am walking down the street of Brossard, an asian guy walks past me. He goes to meet his friends. When I get close to them, one of them asks me what is my "clan". I say I have no clan since im not out very often. They tell me if I dont join their clan I could get attacked. I question if they do like criminal stuff. Mostly they play hockey but also do some small crimes along with stupidities. The leader, a 10 yr old boy, explains all the details to me. Back at my house, a quick search on the internet tells me they are called the BlueBloods and are competing with various gangs from the region. Next, out of nowhere, I am in the middle of a hockey game with them. I even score

Then I become lucid, once again without reality check. I just am. In a big house, I simply decide to fly. I scream Levitate! and I do. It felt incredibly real, just as real as real life.

Best recall ever had since I started. For two days I took a break, but now this definitly sparked my interest again. I know its not beaten my record in terms of number of dreams, but each and every one of them is so... complete
UPDATE: Now 9 DREAMS(truly epic)
In other words: NEW RECORD

Dream 1: In a pokemon battle. The arena is brown. My opponent has two Primeapes. I appear to have a Ralts and a fire poke (?). Throughout the turns, my ennemy switches out his primeape for a Xatu, then the other one for a Fire Primeape (which doesnt even exist). Meanwhile, I continuously exploit flash fire of Ralts (who traced it from Primeape). I wonder if the Xatu could easily kick the Primeapes ass. I try to Psychic with my Ralts.

Dream 2: Just remembered. I get in the Physical Education class which is once again happening in class instead of in the gym.
I think to myself that we already had our time in class. I also see very clearly in my head the sheet where it says which period is taken by MITIC.

Dream 3: Playing Combat Arms, I am using my trusty RPG (rocket launcher) to just freakin own. I get a Ultra kill by shooting between four players, then I jump down and pull out my other gun to kill to other guys. At that moment, I think to myself this is great since I never had an unbelievable, and now I get and Unbelivable+. I also hoped they wouldnt think im a hacker and kick me. The map was Junk Flea BTW. Then, and this one is fun, one guys shoots me with an RPG while I am on the rooftop. I avoid the missile closely, but then it rebounds back and hits me on the head. I laugh and think I got owned right there. It felt very real.

Dream 4: All of my class, including girls, play Magic the Gathering in class. I dont play anymore, so I watch. They all have blue cards, each and everyone of them. Then a narrator explains to me some cards that are misunderstood. I ask Frederique the question I always asked myself, and he tells me they count as one mana and not another mana card. I knew it . After watching a little more, I almost hope I had my cards. I pick a card from the deck and try to understand how it works. Its a grey creature with -9 written on it. Weird.

Dream 5: Now this was very close to lucid. I dont quite remember how I got there, but I am practicing dream control. Thats right, its possible to practice DC without dreaming (in a dream of course). My excuse for it was that there is consequences in RL but not in dreams. I was aware and decided to practice, but I didnt know I was dreaming. In this, I managed to: Make something appear directly in my hand, pulling a thing out of a mirror and most importantly feel like I was getting bigger and bigger. This gave me a glimpse of what shapeshifting would be like, and it was awesome. It really felt like it, physically and mentally. To pull out from a mirror, I looked in the mirror and saw something in my hand while it wasnt in my real hand. I would put my hand in the mirror, and hold the thing when it got out. Just remembered, theres also a part where my sis can clone herself and I try to make a dance choreography with her, which fails.

Dream 6: In the schoolyard, Meg Griffin sends out Neil to find a 275 year old girl. Out of context. Then I talk to Frederique (again) and ask him how he got that cloning machine. He tells me his father made it and it works like a charm. After asking how it works, he tells me u just get in and bingo. Eric joins the conversation and says Colin talked about it to him and hes interested. Hes wearing brown pants and brown/white T-shirt. Just as im about to ask if theres any chance you get out with three arms, I wake up.

Dream 7: Got this from a homework. We had to draw circles, squares and triangles for a math work. Then, we had to scribble on a certain amount of them to make a "shadow". In my dream, I am watching a tutorial of Word saying if we want to put a shade behind an image, u just press X button. I think its easier that way.

Dream 8: This one is limited to a sound. Yeah. Just my dad saying we should think about my drumming classes. The rest is black, but this WAS a dream. And it counts

Dream 9: In my bus, I am sitting and looking around. I think to myself "am I really in the same bus?" since I dont recognize people around me and just because I happened to wonder. I guess it didnt occur to me that I could be dreaming though

Man is that kickass or what? Another one! Once again, its 3 LDs in 3 nights. And its not even over. But what really got me wondering is how I got a dream within a dream.

Dream 1: I am standing in the mirror and have super long hair. I ask my mom that we should be cutting them, but we have to wait until next weekend. I walk out of the room.

Dream 2: This is freakin weird. I am talking to my sister about lucid dreaming. Then we share a freakin dream. Inside a dream. In that dream, we are in our parking lot at night. There is also another girl. I tell both to take their top off, and they do. Now lets make something clear: The DC who is my sister in the dream is NOT REALLY my sis. Its a chick who I call my sister. Then we both wake up and talk about it.

Dream 3: I suddenly am in front of two girls that look alot like the girls from the Academy. This surprises me enough to snap out of it and become lucid. I ask them who the hell they are, and theyre not them at all. They just look like it. I say hello and while one of them hugs me I do a quick RC to be sure. Walking upstairs, they completely dissapear from the plot as I try to do stuff and wake up soon enough.

Dream 4: We go to Energie Cardio with Josée Lavigueur in bicycles. While inside, I put my shoes in the corner and think about how im gonna enjoy it here.

Oh yeah. Two nights. Two DILDs. Not DEILD like I would appreciate it, but two LDs nonetheless Not only that, in this one stuff HAPPENED! Not much, but STUFF! I dont remember much about my non-lucids, but who cares?

The DILD: It is unclear how I ended up in this dream. The time was 2:50, but I dunno if I checked my real or dream watch. Im unsure about wether I got up from a false awakening or woke up, fell asleep and THEN got up. Anyway, I get up, go in the living room. Gabriel is waiting for me there, on the couch. Apparently he stopped at our house on his bike. At 2:50. Ok. Then I suddenly realise that dreaming is pretty much over now. U can forget DEILD for today. I dont like that, and tell my mom that its 2:50. It is day outside though. We chat for awhile until he leaves to Gab's house with...an 8 year old version of me. Im kind of half aware that its me, but I still wonder about how I never met what appears to be my lil bro. I ask if I can go with them, and mom says yes. As I am walking in the hallway I go: Oh lemme guess this is a dream. Yup. I do various reality checks, like turning a light on and off. Then I try to fly thru my window, fail, and walk outside. Instantly its dark outside again. Damn it, I kinda wanted daylight. The cats stalking the door, but it doesnt matter.
Here is the place for lots of firsts. I encounter my first beautiful dreamscape. As I am walking outside, it starts to snow. Glowing, coloured snow. Its awesome. The trees are also covered and glitter in the night. If I could paint, I would paint it. Thats not my skill, though I am wearing a snow suit that seems to disappear and pop back up at times. I levitate for the first time. In the middle of the road, I do a backflip on my back and land floating two inches from the floor. Nice, but far from satisfying. Then as im floating I cant quite control it and get back on my feet a couple of times. So i give up and try the finger thru palm RC for the first time. I didnt know how it felt. So I remove my three pairs of gloves and push my finger. After a while, it pops right thru. Cool, but time's up. Already. I remember thinking: Awww, its over!

Other crap: FA where I push down a bunch of round candy thinking il pick them up in the morning.

I did it. Thats right. DEILD. My technique. I knew it. I always knew it. When I saw DEILD I was like: Thats the one for me. And it was. It is. This was no "lucky shot" like DILD. This was INDUCED. I have skills! Hell yeah. Before going through this epic night lets start with the two non-LDs I dont care about.

Dream 1: I am in my living room watching TV. My dad browses through the channel. The first thing we watch is America's Got Talent on CityTv. It is obvious that it is not in HD, as you see Howie Mandel in a real crappy image. We watch different groups on the show, mostly dancers. They are on the first stage with the red background, not the Hollywood one. There are also flashbacks of their course on the show, like they do in the real one. Next there's the tourism channel that my dad tells me talks about three cities: Montreal, Quebec and Vancouver. I remember seeing Cinderella (who represents Disney) in a big city at night. She is giving out pamphlets and talking about landmarks. Like a tourism booth. Later, we go to the parking lot (which brings me to think we were in a hotel room and not our living room). I make fun of a bunch of kids there. We get in the very small elevator, and suddenly everyone rushes in. The elevator makes a weird sounds, and I wonder if we got over the limit of people it can take. Since its my mind, of course we did. We crash down in the shaft.

Dream 2: After a failed attempt at DEILD, I fall asleep into another dream. This time, I am going to a shop. It is not very clear what it sells, were just there. She waits for me outside while I go buy whatever I need. I walk around the aisles (which look very much like a library) upstairs while constantly looking at my cellphone which is on a bench near. I go back to where my mom waits. My friend Émilie explains to me why Vampires Suck sucks while we are in a red boat that is parking in yet another parking lot. She says there is a scene where they are just on a boat and it cost a very low 500$. I agree. Then for some reason I go back to the store, except this time im handicapped. My right leg is covered in a big plaster. I go through the same entrance but this time I need the ramp to go upstairs. A woman that probably works there tells me to go on a small square on the ground. I do, and it lifts up very high. She tells me to close my eyes and I obey. I almost fall down since the square is so small. Before I know it im back in the library. In a completely different scenario, I see something (a video?) about how some of the Dragons from Dragon's Den (the rich ppl) succombed to temptation, which I believe is sex, since next is four naked women in a pool. I end up in that pool quickly enough and swim underwater. I notice my plaster has dissapeared.

Ok, now the good part

THE DEILD: After the dream that just ended, I dont move. Obviously, otherwise I wouldnt have managed to transition. Then I try something new: I rub the bottom of the pool I just got out of. You know, the bottom of the pool always had a weird feeling when you touch it. So I keep rubbing it until it feels real. Very real. And then BAM!
My first encounter with SP. It was incredible. Pow! HUGE vibrations. It felt like when your in an old rollercoaster or on a bumpy road. I have mild Tinnitus, but I got REALLY LOUD! On a very higher tone then normal. Then I see something: like an evil eye. You know, evil. Bloody veins, cat-like pupil, yellow. It was a rough ride, especially for a first SP. All this lasted for a few moments until Peeeewww. Black. Immediatly I know im in a dream and roll. I didnt want to roll in the first place, but something told me to. I feel like im falling in my bed and my first thought is: Okay, I did it. Now I gotta fly. Cus you see, thats my goal til school. But I am once again hit by exit blindness and eventually wake up. Damn it. But YEAH! Awsum!

Countdown: 9 nights
Goal: Fly

Ah, August 11/12 2010. A night I will remember for a long time. My first relatively long, satisfying, epic Lucid Dream. It is actually my second, but it means so much more to me as I discovered many things. I took my first steps as an oneironaut. I am a lucid dreamer. There's no stopping me now. Lets go back to the beginning of this great night with the non-lucid, shitty part.

I am on an action tele-series. Similar to 24. We are in front of a huge glass tower with big stairs and steps. There is a black car parked next to it which contains a mentaly troubled man. I engage in a conversation with his mother, who has short blonde hair. I ask her "Is he dangerous"? She answers no, or any other negative answer I cant quite recall. I sort of know im on a TV show since my sister is watching it in the living room. A big load of stairs is shown while different characters from the plotline chat about how hearing people talking yet not seeing them in a tv show adds to the effect. Weird.

Thn somehow I end up in a rollercoaster ride with the mother. The rails are blue and white, and it is only a few feet from the floor.. As we ride, the cart suddenly derails and we end up on the pavement. I yell to the other passengers that we are fine then ask the manager if it happens frequently. He says that this stuff happens regularly. I remember thinking "Nice and im going back to LaRonde with Alex soon. Now im too scared to ride stuff". I talk to a man on the front of his door and ask him why he doesnt like the crazy guy. I am having a red slush and I go yuck, hopefully its not cherry. It was actually strawberry. The man is having a Frosty (Wendie's) with a chocolate and peach flavour. I consider taking some. Then I turn around and see his wife with another Frosty.

Could have went in details but thats not the interesting part. Noone cares about Non-Lucids.

False Awakening. I am in my bed and next to me is one of moms shirts. It has a very special texture, which is why its a memorable shirt. I pick it up and try to find a spot to put it. Then it hit me. But much more softly then the first time. I wasnt like OH SHIT DREAM! It was more of a: I think im dreaming. Then, so I dont wake up from excitement, I pinch my nose and confirm my doubt. Instinctively, I feel like my eyes and my "Dream" eyes are still fragile. Im afraid I will wake up if I open them. So I get up, with my eyes closed, and spin. Then I disconnect enough to open and look around. Im convinced had I not done that, I would have messed it up. So im in my room. Yeah. Now what? Im gonna try flying! Yay! Jump, jump, jump...no liftoff. Damn it. I keep trying to jump until I can jump to the ceiling. But I fall back down. Then I remember about a thing where you would jump from something high. I jump off my bed. No luck. I consider jumping down the window but im too scared. So then I go "Wait a minute...Il just go through the wall, then outside, and then il have tons of space!" So I kinda feel with my hand if thats possible. The wall becomes gooey and covers the edge of my fingertips. I have just enough time to be amazed that I open my eyes and its over. Already . Next time I wil fly. For sure.

So let me walk you through what I did yesterday night. (End of streak to 6 )

I decided to try the technique that gave me my first and only LD: The Yell And Be Mad At Yourself technique. Basicly I go in my room and start talking about how I cant seem to LD and telling myself to RC and such. It worked the first time

So I go to sleep and try to stay pissed off so its my last though before sleeping. I still try to relax and, without even wanting it, I start seeing blue in my eyes. It starts as blue, then there's a voice that is saying stuff in my head. Not just a whisper; a very clear, solid, manly voice. Also there appears to be a creepy music in the back. My first though is that my parents are watching the TV too loud. But then patterns start appearing. The form was some kind of spiky circle. I dont know what the name of the shape is. So im starting to realize I may be in SP. My heartbeat starts racing. I also felt something in my eye, some kind of tingle. Although the voice is creepy, im not scared. Hell ive been trying so hard to SP im not chickening out anytime soon. Then I stopped, because I know its impossible to dream before going to bedand im tired. Besides, I never wanted to WILD in the first place! But before sleeping, I get up and go around the house. Both parents sleeping, NO TV, NO COMPUTER. HELL YEAH! Im hallucinating! Yipee! And even if the TV was on, you cant ignore patterns and colors.

Note: This is really weird. To keep my mind awake, I started singing the song by The AA Rejects, Gives you hell. And for like a splitsecond, it felt real. It was loud, and I could hear it as clear if I was listening for real. Is that common?

Now this morning, I noticed something: My YABMAY technique not only did nothing, but completely fucked up my recall. I remember absolutely nothing, but it was to be expected. Stress and nervouseness decreases recall, I heard. I tried to see if I could go in SP again at 7 and saw blue, but no voice or pattern.

Now heres my questions:
Was I really in SP? Im used to thinking it is sleep paralysis while it is only numbness.

The first time, I was sleeping on my stomach (my reg position) but in the morning I tried on my back. Any impact?

7 is the time when Im simply not tired enough to fall asleep. At that time, I know going back to sleep is not an option. But if I try WILD in the morning, maybe my body couldnt fall asleep? After all, my mind cant.

Can YABMAY do any good? Is there a "right" way to do it so it doesnt mess up my recall?

Im thinking of turning more of my attention on WILD. I dont like going to bed not knowing wether I will have an LD or not. Luck isnt a big friend of mine. Is spending more time on WILD a mistake?

TY

BTW: Im gonna see Adam Lambert in person backstage this weekend! Wish me luck

First Double Dream that i remember last night, wich I guess is a small consolation for the epic lucids I missed this morning. I had TWO dreams with the same theme: Lucid dreaming. Could it BE more blatant? Here they come:

Number 1: Me and my father go to some sort of party and have a picnic on the grass. My dad says we should change spots and sit somewhere else. We sit with Adam, Edward, Thierry and Oliver. Edward is nice with me and trades his carrots for my cucumbers. But then it turns into a fight as me and Adam start beating each others. He throws me way up in the sky and I do a backflip before landing on my feet. Then I grab his neck and give him a facewash before trying to squeeze his skull. Noone wins, and im mad. I walk away thinking (watch this): If I was dreaming, I would have kicked your ass! How could i miss that? Dont ask me.

Now the next one is WAY worse. The whole storyline is centered on it.

Number 2: It starts with me watching some kind of kids show with my dad. It is about an entire family that teaches to kids lucid dreaming (geez) while keeping it educational and fun. They are wearing pink, but when they start dreaming the background turns to white. While going up some kind of tower, the brother in the family breathes fire then starts educating kids about it. I think I made my dad watch it to realize that Inception was real. My mom kicks me out of the house, and I have nowhere else to go but to my uncles LD camp (sigh). I go back inside to pack my stuff and find a flute in the back of my garage. I bring it with me, and play the Song of Healing on it (LoZ OoT). On the front of the house, I see a hot women with my mom. I ask my mother: "Whos this?"
She says she will take care of my brother and sis while she takes me to the camp. We make a stop to what appears to be the place you go to renew your license. While not my mom but my dad sits on a chair to wait, I go to the counter. There is a person in front of me. I go and pull out my health insurance card (im canadian )


She charges it and ask me why im doing it. My reply: In case I ever break a dream leg (GODDAMN IT) Then she gives me a tiny watermelon piece that I start to eat before stopping, thinking I will need it later to fall asleep. I tell my dad: Alright im done with my errand, lets go!
Thats the end of it.

A dream about dreaming. Now thats a first. What is really amazing is that through the entire dream I was anxious about wether or not I could have an LD. Now thats a fail.

Hi ppl of Dreamviews im Ray
Listen to this, my experience so far.

I just joined a three days ago and since ive been trying like hell to get lucid. My nose is all red from being constantly pinched and my mini notebook/journal is all scribbled.

The first day it took me like 2 hours to sleep but I managed to remember my dream although i was not lucid.

The second day I couldnt sleep. Took me over 2 and a half hours to sleep and i just couldnt focus. Real pain. The next morning I have NOTHING. TAB..NAK! Absolutly nothing! Im frustrated because i was sure being so tired and checking constantly that i had one and simply didnt remember.
Wich brings me to this morning:

No problem sleeping thats good. I wake up at 5:30 with nothing. Again. Now im really P...ED OFF. I do a reality check like every day, get up to drink juice because im really thirsty then go back to bed. I am just fuming. Plus im sure my last though was NOT my mantra since i stopped at some point. So im trying again for a while and just decide to try and sleep a lil before getting up.

And then: I dream that im in the car with my family. I notice a thing that looks like a square spider web on my right window. I open and close it a couple of times to see wether its inside or outside. Its outside. I look over my head and see a spider. Not a huge one; just a normal, real life spider. Brown, wich i dont like. I sit in the backseat so theres an empty seat next to me at my left. I tell my mom and she says shel take care of it later. So i do what i would do in reality and change seats while constantly keeping my eye on it . Were back home and park on the side of the road on our street. While my family goes home, I stay near the car for my bug. I slip my head in the front window and look at the backseat. The radio is playing my fav band Billy Talent. Diamond on a Landmine. I remember the sound. Then (first thing out of the ordinary) I see the small tv screen in our car on some kind of pole...thing. For a couple seconds i look at it and see it start to jump to the beat. Like boing boing like in a cartoon.

Splitsecond. Im dreaming. First though in my mind. I pinch my nose and breathe right through. Oh. Shit. Then the dream becomes all blurry and pow. Flash of white. I wake up. Or not. I did my homework and i know sometimes it seems like u wake up and u dont. False awakening. Yup. Still dreamin. As soon as i realise that its a false awakening I wake up for real. Now i have something to write in my journal! Those last events happened in a blink of an eye. Literally. But i know it wasnt a "real" lucid. First of all, i had very little control. Second, it was not as real as the real world. At least not after i realised i was dreaming. Third, I woke up almost instantly. Fourth, I didnt feel that excitement, exhilaration ur supposed to feel when u find out. Its like i didnt have the time and i was too pushed around to feel in control.

So yeah any tips? Comments? Id like tips since im just a noob Is there a reason why i woke up like that? Maybe i just wasnt tired anymore and woke up like every morning. My dream ended at 7:30. Also take note that my brother and sister are awake at 7 and they get noisy when i sleep in. Maybe they woke me up? Or just distracted me enough to lose focus?

Ray