WanderingGhost

So this morning my girlfriend called me around 5 am and woke me up. After talking for a few minutes she hung up and I went back to sleep. About 20 minutes later I had a natural awakening from a pretty vivid dream. I shifted in my bed some and began to fall back asleep. I could feel myself falling asleep very quickly so I decided to try to stay conscious while doing so. I could feel myself slowly losing touch with reality, I could no longer feel myself lying in my bed or hear my fan running. I repeated my mantra "this dream stabilizes" over and over and a dream scene began to form.

I was in my bedroom lying in my bed. I looked over and for some reason there was a mirror on my door and when I looked in the mirror I could see myself and it looked like there was a TV on the wall behind me. I looked over to the wall but there was no TV there and when I looked back at the door the mirror was gone. I tried to push my finger through my palm but it didn't work so I then tried to pinch my nose and breathe which I could. I got out of bed and went to my bedroom door and opened it. I was hoping it would open into something cool but it was just my normal hallway. I then walked over to my garage door and could see the light was on out there so I knew someone was out there. I opened the door and my dad was in the garage. I went out and said good morning or something similar to him and went up behind him. He began to turn around and I thought that he would probably look weird when he did since this was a dream and I was right. When he turned around he had a really thin long neck that hooked into a very tiny head. It was a little freaky but I knew I was dreaming so I wasn't really scared; in fact I found it kind of funny. Then I decided to go outside. It was morning and the sun was just beginning to rise so there were still stars in the sky. I tried to fly but couldn't get too far off the ground (just like the last time I tried), so I tried the superman method and was able to fly high into the sky. I flew for a few seconds before I woke up.

I'm not really sure if this technically counts as a WILD or not but this was the first time I've ever entered a dream directly. I have had to stabilize dreams before which brought on a new dream scene, but this was a little different. Also it was pretty weird feeling myself lose touch with reality as I fell asleep, but I'm glad I had this experience so I know (partially at least) what a WILD feels like.

So last night after waking up for a while and then going back to sleep I had another "natural" moment of lucidity. I was on a cruise ship for some reason and it had a concrete children's playground on it that looked a lot like a skate park. I thought to myself that it looked a lot like a liminal space and remembered I wanted to visit a liminal space in my dreams and wished I was dreaming so I could explore it. Then I realized I was dreaming. Everything went dark as it often does in these situations and I began to try stabilizing the dream by repeating "this dream stabilizes" which has worked for me multiple times before. I started feel a strong wind blowing me as I was lying in my bed and I thought I was about to get sucked out of my bed like the last time I did this but I got distracted because when I tried to swallow I couldn't. I was able to stay focused, but then I began to hear a noise which I thought was from my dream, but I soon realized was the music I had put on to try and help me sleep last night. This pushed me over the edge and I got too distracted and just woke up.

I am very disappointment, if the music hadn't been playing I may have finally had another lucid after weeks of trying for the competition, but whatever it happens. At least it's progress. I just now need to figure out how to properly harness this to do it more often instead of only once a month or so.