Xanous' Dream Journal

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 9PM-5AM

Apple Juice, Bedtime SSILD

No recall until after WBTB

WBTB around 3:30AM, Bathroom then straight to bed. No additional aids. SSILD/WILD

FA: Foiled Again!

I know I put this in RED but I am not adding it to my lucid count. I was so so close though. If I had not given in to the FA...

I had strong HH and entered what I call the half-dream. I am walking around waiting for the dream to form. I can feel my body in the bed. At some point it begins to feel more real. I can loudly hear my foot steps like I am walking on gravel on asphalt. I got this same sound once before. I feel like I am kicking my legs in the bed as I am walking. I am unsure if this is real so I stop. I think about the lucid task I want to do. I want to look at a playing card and see if it matches with the random one I have blindly tucked away in the bookcase in rl. Before I can even act on it I feel SP grip me. It is mild and I pause for a bit and then start my usual visualization of my feet going over the side and touching the floor. It feels real but then it disappears. I feel like I am laying in bed still so I roll. I only get to my side and stop. I think that I really woke up. I am half sitting up in bed on one elbow but I never moved that way. I notice later too that I moved way to easy. Not at all like real life.I did not realize any of this and I gave up. Then out of habit I did a half assed nose plug RC. I am pretty sure I blew through but didn't realize it at the time. I fell into non lucid dreams.
I was really disappointed because I should have enough experience that I really shouldn't be falling for this. How many times must I learn that ANYTHING after SP is probably not real?


The first one I was riding my bike in my old childhood neighborhood and I follow some kid down a trail.

Then I have some stupid sex dream about a bearded woman who keeps going on about being a virgin. I think that's probably because you have a beard.

Something about being at my ex inlaws house. I hear the ex MIL say how R got offered a CEO position. I think how she lies all the time and don't believe her.

I was in a room with strange technology. Someone was learning dream control with electricity. She was getting zapped by a box and some voice was instructing her. I walk by and touch the box and it shuts down. I say, "I believe you." And walk away smugly. I think how they should have made the electricity with insulation.