lucid

I got a couple small Lds this morning with my lucid tea blend of mugwort wormwood and peppermint.

#303 - DILD - 3:18AM

I am looking at the night sky. I see many stars but they are dim. I think I need to let the light absorb longer so I begin to stare. I tell myself that if anything odd happens I'll know it's a dream. At that thought I have strange vision problems and the stars look really odd. I wonder if I am seeing a dream sign or if my eyes are really messed up. My vision goes black.

I hear a doorbell. I am now in my living room. I open the door hoping it not those Jehovah witnesses from the other day. I answer the door and see Neil Tysons and George Noory are here . George has a book that looks like a Bible in his hand. Surely this pair isn't here for that. I am too shocked about them being here and I allow them to push past me and sit on the couch. George points to the shelves or books and movies and says to Niel, "Oh they like Noah we should sell them that." I am shocked to see the new Noah movie prominently displayed on the shelf. It must be my wife's. With that thought she says to the men, "I'm interested."

I wake up and try to DEILD but fail miserably. I have the thought "Mr. Cosmos and Mr. Coast To Coast AM were in my house."

I am in a class room taught by Neil. I can recall the lesson but I think that I should ask him something that I really want to know about. I draw a blank and space off in thought.

I am deep in me forest trying various wild dream herbs. I am following a historical man's foot steps researching tracing his research. I see him like some residual apparition. I see something like a stick or root in the ground. I call it... Tigeris root? I use another stick shaped like a pipe to smoke the herb. I wonder if I should be asleep for this to induce a lucid dream. I begin to feel odd as I inhale and soon my eyes close and I feel like I am floating. I am surprised to have found such a psychoactive herb just lying around. I begin to hear a narrative in Niel's voice about native Americans using this herb along side peyote for dream work and divination. The narrative spoke of struggling tribesman navigating through the void.

I am now lucid. I hear myself gasp heavily and loudly. It feels like an OBE transition and I struggle. I'm starting to see and look around and I realize I'm in my house and the fact the herb was all a dream. I am about to break free when my stomach rumbles and I wake up.

#302 - DEILD - 5:55AM

I intend to have a natural WBTB but I wake a bit late around 5AM. The dream I was having was about my company's wifi was recording everyone's Google searches. I found out the IT dept was actually going through all the records and I become worried that I should have been more careful what I research. I was certain that I always make sure I stay logged out of Google for this very reason as I wake.

It's too late for an actual WBTB so I use the restroom and do mantra's while focusing on my body, hoping for the best outcome.

I find myself sitting in some sort of outdoor amphitheater with my wife and her sister. We seem to be watching a movie on a big screen that looks like some lame chick flick. I become bored and remember there is a bar in the back. I wonder if they serve Absinthe. I remember I had been researching it (True) and really want to try a shot. I tell my wife I'll be right back.

The scene skips to an indoor and dimly lit bar with lots of neon lights. I walk to the bartender and see some random bottles that might be Absinthe but I can't read it. Then I clearly see a bottle marked, "LUCID". It's a real brand of Absinthe so I don't think too much other than, "Yes. They have it." Although, I am a bit bummed that it is this brand since I had read so much negative remarks about it online.



I ask the bartender to pour me a shot. There was some conversation that I can't recall. Then, a young, good looking black man comes from the back that I take to be the owner. He has a white tall-boy can in one hand and says something like, "If you just want to a taste then try this." I explain to him that from what I read, American Absinthe doesn't contain any Thujone. It's like a coffee drinker trying to enjoy decafe. (BTW I have no idea if this is actually the case, but I have read that as well as other conflicting articles.) I was hoping for some imported stuff, but I decide to take a sip. I force myself to get past the fact that I am drinking after a complete stranger. Worse still it seems to be the off of it. Gross. The liquid is ice cold and tastes exactly like mugwort tea with a hint of wormwood. I lie to the man and tell him, "It's good", as I walk away. I stop after a few steps and already feel pleasantly intoxicated. I see some mild hallucinations and then all my senses, especially my vision, becomes super sharp and Hi-Def. I marvel at this for a second and then remember that I need to get back to my wife.

I am in the amphitheater again but everyone has left. My pocket buzzes and I read a text from my wife. "WE ARE IN THE HIGH TOWER" I'm not sure what that means but I remember there's a round ziggurat in the parking lot. I rush over there as fast as I can. I just get a glimpse of something that resembles a small Tower Of Babel when I either half wake or have a false awakening.



I am self aware but not really trying to LD at this point. I recall the dream I just had and realize the word "Lucid" and the thoughts of Thujone should have made me think of LD and RC.

I get a vivid flash of some dream scene, become excited, then renter darkness. I realize that I am basically dreaming now and the vibrations start. I wait a moment strengthening the vibes and telling myself to stay aware. I feel my heart pounding and force myself to calm down. After a moment I exit.

I am standing in the kitchen/dinning room of the old house in Luling. I move down the hallway to the front door but my vision blacks out again. I recall the living room in my mind and the lights come back on. I look around with eyes wide open to see better. I decide to stay inside but I can't seem to recall any goals. I head back to the kitchen and notice a large red toned mural on the wall in the hallway. I don't focus on it (I wish I had) but feel the edge of it. I wasn't sure if it was canvas or actually painted on the wall.

I move to the kitchen and recall all the crazy "demon" stories about this old church parsonage. It always frightened the hell out of me ask a kid so I decide to call them out. When I try to speak my voice is caught in my throat and I assume I was trying to talk in my sleep. I pause, make a humming noise, then in a loud and commanding voice, "IF THERE EVER WERE ANY DEMONS HERE. THEN COME FORTH AND SHOW YOURSELF." Once I had spoken the words I feel mildly afraid, yet confident. Still, I think I should find a weapon. I turn and pull an extra large butcher knife from a wooden knife block on the counter. I think this isn't big enough and it becomes a Samurai sword with a handle matching Michonne's sword in TWD. I look around disappointed that there are no demons to attack. Not even zombies. I hack and swing in the air imagining invisible foe's but none materialize. It's at this point that I wake up minutes before the alarm clock.

#301 - DILD - 8:29AM

The alarm goes off at 8 and I realize I have had a fair amount of non lucid dreams. My wife gets up to shower and I does back off.

I am looking at my garden and am surprised that my radishes and snow peas have grown so much. It all looks like a dense bush of vegetation. I look around and see that my garden is in the middle of a pasture. I have a large blue Chevy 4x4 truck with off road tires next to me. I get in and do a little mudding.

When I stop, I look at the sky and see a tornado forming in the distance. Having no fear, I take my phone out and do a Snapchat video. I say, "Ooooh a tornado... OH SHIT!" I realize the tornado is doing massive damage on the ground. Worst of all, it heading my direction. Power lines are sparking and trees are being ripped out of the ground. I quickly save the video and run to the truck. When I look again the tornado has turned and passed.

I look at another less stormy part of the sky and see a bright daytime meteorite streaking past leaving a smoke trail. As I stare at it, it splits into three parts. I see a young preteen boy and girl wandering the field and I drive over to them. We have some dialogue and I give them a ride.

As we are driving, I tell them all about the tornado, my snapchatting and the meteorite. I say, "Two really amazing things happened to me today." I begin to wonder at the odds of this happening and notice that I the truck is not driving on a rode anymore. We are flying over a foggy lake with mountains in the distance. This triggers lucidity.

Even-though the view is amazing the dream goes dark and I feel that I am waking. This time I refuse to wake up and keep my eyes closes. I reach and grab and focus on seeing images. Some strong HI forms. For an instant I am in the clouds. Then I see a ring of brown M&M's in front of me. I reach for it. Now I am in an empty commercial airplane with purple seats. I play leap frog over each one until I face plant.

Now I am standing in some office building. The dream is stable but I can still hear the box fan. I do my best to ignore it and continue on. I remember that my goal this time was to be taken in a tornado. I realize I missed my chance and desperately look for a way outside. I make my way through amaze of rooms. At one point I come to a dead end and use TK to cleanly split open a yellow wall only to find a red wall behind it. I open several walls at a high speed until it looks like elevator doors opening. I suddenly enter void and stop for a second. My vision clears and I think that I must have gone too fast for the dream and sometimes slow is better. I turn left down a hallway and enter an office at the end. There is a man in a suit sitting in a desk. I ask him where the exit is. He points to a open door. When I get near it is half the size it should be. I stoop down and kick out a window only to enter another hallway. I down down a bit and find a door. This time I focus on it leading outside. There is only white void. I back out, close the door, and slowly try again. White void. The third time did it but I find myself in a familiar looking bathroom that ends with a tub and shower. I am completely frustrated now and my emotion carries out of the dream.

#300 - DILD - 6:22AM

I find myself wandering in an office. Something triggers lucidity. There is an extremely attractive brunette that looks a lot like my wife. I make out with her and have a fair amount of sexy time with her. I'll spare you the details.

I am fooled by a FA and realize I have been pelvic thrusting in my sleep. I worry that I woke my wife and I turn over to look. She is on her phone and is excited she got an email from her boss. Something about her being back in town and now she can get migraine meds from her. I try to guess the name of it. Adrafinil? Modafinil? Melatonin? She laughs and says something about those being drugs from my world.

#299 - DILD - 5:28

I am laying bed messaging Wurlman on my laptop. A random video of my talking pops up on screen and think its delayed because I just said this a few minutes ago. I am not sure how I set this up or what program I am using. I have a hard time telling what I am typing but the computer suddenly reboots. I text something to Wurlman on my phone. When the computer starts back up it is some hacked version of Windows. There is something like Japanese words and speech then some dubstep music interwoven with some meditation music. The effect is enjoyable. I opening something on laptop but the screen wont say up and when it closes it reboots and I have to watch the Japanese boot screen again. As I wait in-between reboots I look and see the bedroom door is open. A young version of my nephew Grant comes in the room and stares at me. I say hi but he just stares at me. I think something is wrong about his appearance. I see my sister and mom talking and am a little annoyed that my family is just walking in my house. As I mess with the laptop screen, I notice the screen is also pliable and wavy like paper. I try to text Wurlman again but my phone is now off. Frustrated, I turn it on and wait for it to boot up. I take a moment and close my eyes and think.

Suddenly, it dawns on me that I must be dreaming. I say it out loud believing it as I get up and wander into the living room. It's now dark and I have a hard time seeing. At one point I feel like I have my eyes physically wide open. I see some strange light lines on the floor but dismiss it as my physical eyes seeing something. I let it go and head outside.

The storm door hits something and I see a crazy wolf-man trying to get at me. I have no emotion about this and calmly step around him. He becomes interested in something on the porch and starts pawing and sniffing at it. Halfway into my front yard, I turn to look and he hasn't noticed me. I turn to the street and see two bicycles. One red and one black.

I hop on the black one and petal down the street. I see that light again on my shirt out of my bottom vision. I reach up and assuming it was my phone from earlier. Still confused that it might be a waking life image, I grab it thinking I am moving my physical body, and put the phone beside me. I still see a glow and have to move the phone behind me. All the while I feel a sense of duality. One version of me in bed and the other pedaling along on a bike. This seems to be too much and the dream goes completely dark now.

I continue on my bike still very much attached to physical sensation. After a moment my vision completely clears and I find myself on a new street in my neighborhood. As I ride along I notice the bike chain keeps hanging in a certain spot and it's slightly annoying. I see some other bikers up ahead and I try to go at a super speed to meet them but it doesn't work. Some of the cyclist turn off and when I get to the intersection there are multiple bicycles hanging like in a store but I can't see the racks. A woman passes by on the other side and I swoop under the bikes to meet her.

I become distracted by an older, yet attractive woman standing in the street examining a flowing bush. On a mischievous whim, I mess with her by touching her inner thigh and poking a finger into her butt. She's clothed in a pair of jeans and blouse and totally ignores me and has no reaction to what I am doing.

#298 - DILD - 4:20AM & 4:22AM

I had another good run with G and Menthol. 5 in a morning isn't bad at all, but the first LD was an immediate awakening so I'll only be counting 4. Still it was a whole lot of dreaming with multiple NLD's as well.

Someone from work is giving me a ride home. We talk about the house I live in (does not match waking life). We pass the house and have to turn around. I tell her there are two houses she could stop at but she chooses the first one. I get out of the car and feel funny. Actually, dizzy and sick (reflects wbtb). I wonder if the galantamine made me sick this time, but I think there's no way. I start wondering how long it has even been since I took it. I realize I must be dreaming but the dream crashes right away and I wake up.

I am a little confused looking at the time of DJ entry on my device. It seems that I either entered two dreams after a single awakening or I hit the next LD really quickly. Its also possible I opened the next entry right after I typed the first, giving it an incorrect time stamp. Surely, the next LD was longer than 2 minutes. Hmm.

I fail my WILD and have an FA. I hear the alarm go off. My wife jumps up and turns the alarm off. I see this around 2:30 in the morning. She says she's going to work at 3AM. This takes me by surprise and I know this has to be total BS. I become overly angry and we have a huge argument. I say some rude things that aren't worth mentioning.

I hear our son crying and suppose someone needs to check on him. As I start to get up, I hear thunder and strong wind outside. I look out the window and see all the siding has been ripped off the neighbor's house. I sit up a little more and see part of a tree branch has busted our storm window but hasn't penetrated the inner window. I say something about how I am surprised we never woke up from the noise. I tell my wife that I must be dreaming, but don't follow the thought through.

I decide to get up and take a look outside. When I get to the living room, I see several windows have busted. There is water and tree debris on the floor. I can' t understand how we slept through all of this so I do a quick nose plug. I become lucid when I blow through. I do a subtle dismissal gesture with my hand and step out of the destroyed living room into a restored version closer to waking life.

I see a small child about the age and size of my son running around. The only light in the room is coming from the TV. I play with the child some, but quickly realize it's not my son. I turn away and see some black and white mvoie on the screen. I remember my TV teleport goal.

I begin by pushing both hands into the screen. When both hands are to mid-forearm, I put my head in, and make a swimming motion to pull the rest of myself in. I become surrounded in a white void. I wait a moment, willing an image to form. When nothing happens, I back out for fear of crashing the dream. As I do, I keep a strong image of the living room in my mind.

I land on my back and stand up noting the feel of the hardwood on my hands. The child walks to me and I get an idea. I pick her up and decide to teleport her into the TV. I put both her feet in much the same way I did with my hands, then shove her all the way in.

The TV shows something like a commercial. The child is standing in the middle of a man and woman and holding both their hands. It's a close face shot of the child so I never see the faces of the other two dream characters. I notice she now has an old fashioned bonnet on that I find amusing. I wave at her and when she notices me, she begins crying. I feel bad so I quickly reach in and take her out. I briefly consider using this as a method of summoning in the future. When I set the child down again, she coos and laughs, looking content once again.

#297 - DILD - 7:35AM

I am at a bookstore like Hasting's or Books-A-Million. I have two books to purchase. I make my way to the registers, but all of them are closed. Frustrated, I look around and am surprised to see that there are two registers open behind me. I make my way to one feeling really dumb that I made such an obvious mistake. An attractive woman starts chatting with at the next register. I say something about how stupid I feel for not even seeing the open registers. She keeps talking and lightly flirting with me but I lose interest as it is now my turn to check out.

There's nice gray haired woman working the register. She scans my books. (I have no idea what the books looked like or what the titles were.) The little green display shows my total. The numbers are a little distorted but it reads $83 and some change. I stare closer at the display it seems blurry and I remind myself to get my eyes checked. I tell the lady that there must be some mistake. These books were on clearance and should have only totaled around $6. The lady looks the books over and agrees that I am right. I feel like the display is just broken so I ask her if I swipe my card, will it ask me to approve the total. She says it will so I fish in my wallet for my debit card. I become annoyed when I can't seem to find it. I pull out random fake looking cards and something like a library card. I even see my AutoZone Rewards card. I notice in my side vision that someone has walked up in line behind me. I apologize to the cashier and she assures me its not my fault. I tell her that I just can seem to get my stuff together.

Finally, I find my debit card and take it in hand. I look up at the total again and now it reads $90. I become a little suspicious that this could be a dream. I look down at my card and now it has changed into some other random card. I smile, and decide if this is a dream it will just work. When I swipe, The card reader displays an extremely long string of random numbers then, they all change counting up to nine the cycling back at zero again. Then, the entire screen scrolls lines of counting numbers at at such a high speed my eyes can't follow.

I laugh out loud at this totally convinced it's a dream. I look at the old cashier and say, "You know what? It's OK. I won't be needing these books after all. It's just a dream." She seems confused as I walk away to the glass doors. I notice she is following behind me so I stop and ask what she is doing. She says, "I'm getting your books."
I assume she's intending to give me some free books. I say, "No. You don't understand. It won't matter. I can't bring the books with me." She seems confused and looks away like she's not really listening. I take her face in both my hands so she has to look at me. "This is a dream. We are dreaming." She doesn't seem to understand but gives up on the books. I take her hand, shake it, and tell her I love her as a sort of apology.

I step outside and I looks like the same area that the old Hasting's was. I see a silver car sitting idle but I walk past it. I recall my goal to do the Jack and the Beanstalk task. I see a patch of earth near the sidewalk and asphalt and make my way to it. I reach into my pocket for beans but don't really feel anything. I decide to just fake it. With my other hand I dig a small hole in the ground. It's really wet and muddy making it really easy. I put the pretend beans in the mud and quickly cover it up.

I get close to the ground and look at the spot from a level side view. Right away I see three spouts. (Guess I thought Jack had 3 beans.) I chant grow grow grow and the sprouts quickly begin to get larger. I am amazed to see something grow so fast but knowing how big this is supposed to get I worry that it's taking way too long. I shout, "GROW FASTER!". It just continues at the same rate and is now only about 3 or 4 inches tall. I wait patiently hoping the bean stalk will get larger. Suddenly, I hear my son cry out in his sleep jerking me out of the dream.

#296 - DILD - 7:04AM

I am driving out of the parking lot in my car. There are a lot of people in the way I decide to lightly bump MJ with my car. I wave and sarcastically mouth, "Sorry." I decide to take the prank further and pull over waiting for her to pass by. I get out of my car looking for hers. I decide I will use TK to make a wheel fall off. I realize this is dream control and become lucid.

I lightly drum on my car waiting for MJ still intent on a little TK prank. Several cars pass by and marvel at how vivid and clear the dream is. I worry being idle too long will destabilize the dream. I decide go ahead and do my goal. I think what it was for a second. When I recall I shout, "Bean!" I reach into my pocket and pull out something solid and small. The sensation is dull but, it vaguely feels like three beans. I quickly press them into the grass and immediately wake up.

#295 - DILD - 6:05AM

I am sitting at work with a rifle at my desk. I have some shells and I am trying to determine if they are the right type. It seems to be a single loader with some oddities.

I suddenly feel extremely dizzy and sleepy with blurry, distorted vision and feel the need to lay down. I recognize this as dream sign and become lucid. I decide to go ahead and lay down to WILD hoping that I can jumpstart a new scene. As I lay down, I see a blurry watery vision of my co-worker, Joyce, looking down at me. I ignore her.

I quickly decide this tactic could backfire on me so I get up and rub my hands while I stomp around. Soon my vision clears up and I take walk looking around at the strange version of work. I think hard to recall my goal and I remember. I want to try the Jake and the Beanstalk TOTY. I decide not to bother with going outside to plant beans. I'll plant it into the floor instead.

I prep myself for a blind summon by chanting, "Beans, Beans, Beans, I got beans in my pocket. Beans in my pocket. Beans Beans Beans." I look around and see a nice open space in the building and head for it.

Unfortunately, I wake at this moment. I settle in to DEILD and get some mild vibes but I quickly fall into a non lucid dream about my mom nearly falling down concrete steps holding an infant.

#294 - DILD - 4:50AM

I fail my WILD and have several FAs were I was trying to WILD and got mild vibes but fell into non lucid dreams. Or did I actually have DEILD moments? Not sure, but this is what I recall.

I have some vibes but FA. There is some light outside and I wonder how so much time passed since my WBTB. I try WILD again and have another FA with vibes. I try to focus on visuals to avoid the OBE sensation.

I am playing hide and seek with my daughters in my old house. I know they went to the back yard so I run out the front and around the side to meet them in the back. I am bare foot and have to side step multiple piles of dog poo.

On the side of the house I see something like a Doberman chained up. It barks at my and I speak to it so it can recognize me in the dark. It calms down and I pet it. Its head feels like ice and I have some guilt for leaving a dog in the cold. I decide my cover is blown so I leave to sneak around the other side. When I reach the side gate I look back at the dog. I am shocked to see a naked woman with a collar and chain instead of a dog. She has her back to me gives me a sad look over her shoulder. I stumble away feeling like I am losing my mind. I wonder why I am hallucinating such odd things.

I have another FA or time passes and its a totally different dream. I have some vibe sensation again and find my self FA in a library. A librarian is looking for a book that is lost. I jokingly tell the librarian that someone stole the book and now it will come out of his check. I look to my left and see a beer bottle on a book shelf. Something reminds me that I was trying to get lucid. Maybe I chose the wrong place for it and I should go home where there are less distractions.

I see Sharon from work and she kisses my bye and tells me she loves me. I walk away feeling confused about this. In some random area of the building I see a hand sanitizer above a doorway with my name on it and "Murder 2007". I have no idea that is about adding to my confusion. I go back to thinking about the large black woman I am supposed to be married to. I recall my actual wife and wonder how I have two wives. I worry about the legality of it all. I realize I don't remember marrying Sharon and I certainly can't recall ever having sex with her. The thought makes me shutter.

I come to a half door and see Amanda from work sitting at a small desk. There is an electrical outlet on the door with two plugs and cords coming off it. I unplug whatever was plugged to it so I can open the door to get out. I wonder if Amanda had something there for a reason, but I couldn't help it. I look down and now realize I am in my underwear. I recall that this happens a lot because that actually all I am really wearing.

Now I understand that this is all a dream. I feel a little insecure stepping out into the parking lot in just my underwear but I ignore it. For some reason it helps me to think that I am in a music video. I bust open the door in a silent scream as some music begins to play as I run in slow motion.

Everything halts when I see some crazy looking man made of balloons tumbling toward me in the wind. I slap at the balloon man and I swirls into the air. I look into an unfamiliar parking lot and see a truck. I think it must have been for me to drive home and I head for it, but before I can even get close it disappears.

I begin to fly low to the ground rather than walk or run. I come to a park and see some people dressed in animal suits running around chasing each other. I say, "Oh cool! A Where The Wild Things Are Dream." I look down and visualize a costume of my own. Fake brown fur seems to materialize over my bare skin. I suddenly remember I had a goal but I can't seem to recall it. I don't want to collapse the dream so I put it aside for now. I zoom fly to the nearest "wild thing" and tackle it. My tackle turns into a dog pile and I quickly realize that this is just a normal person in a suit. I think, "Oh no, these are Furries!" and quickly get sucked into an orgy. I try to resist but I feel turned on and latch onto an anonymous woman.

I look away and see one of them just standing there. I ask, "What are you doing?"
The person replies, "I only want one."
When I ask which one, the person says, "The most submissive."

Mercifully, I wake up at this point.

#292 - DILD - Time?

I blew past my WBTB and woke some time later. I didn't check the clock but it was turning light outside. I decided to focus on lucidity not really sure what tech to use. I fell asleep almost instantly but still managed a DILD. It was short and I almost forgot it but I was pleased I didn't need supplements for once.

I am in some building that looks like a mixture of my house and some office building with huge open windows. There are several levels and I make my way to ground floor. I am with some people discussing business and I find myself wishing I was in a dream. I look out the glass and see a serene view of a vast lake. I think how nice it would be to phase out and fly away from this boring conversation.

Slowly, I convince myself that I am, in fact, dreaming right now. I feel attached my obligations of the moment and almost have to lie to myself that it was all a dream and the men in suits no longer matter. I force myself to just let go and believe. I feel unsure as I risk looking crazy heading for the large wall of glass. I easily float up, phase through the window, and rise into the sky. Fully believing now, I become giddy and dive back into the room past the people and out through the window on the other side of the building. I do this several times until I decide to really go flying. Once up a ways, I lose my scene of direction and find myself lost in a type or blurry void. I wonder if I should go back into the building and interact with someone to stabilize but the dream collapses and I settle in to DEILD. Unfortunately, I fail and only remember a few vivid non lucid fragments for rest of the morning.

#292 - DILD - Time Unknown

I don't remember the beginning of this dream but I know I am caught up in the emotion of it. I enter a public bathroom and see 3 or 4 large burly men enter behind me. I recognize them and know them. There is bad blood between us and I know why they followed me.

Suddenly, I realize I am dreaming and feel invincible. I decide to get this over with and fly straight into attack mode. I punch one in the jaw and then punch the side of his face with the other fist, slamming him hard to the floor. I upper cut the next guy and slam the palms of both my hands into his midsection causing him to fly hard into a tiled wall. I think all this is too easy and unrealistic so I allow the next guy to get some hits. There is no pain but my vision becomes jumbled and I feel like someone has my hands restricted behind me. OK thats enough. I blindly throw some punches connecting with ease. The fight is now over and I have to focus to see again.

I am looking at a large wall mirror. My appearance changes several times into people I do not recognize. I don't worry too much about it and feel more interested in summoning a gun. I never get to shoot in dreams. I blind summon an Uzi and shoot at the glass. I get the effect of blasting holes and shattering glass but the mirror also stays in tact as if there is a impenetrable second layer underneath.

I decide I want to burn the place down to hide the evidence and any possible fingerprints. (Why do I always worry about fingerprints in LDs? ) I think, flamethrower, and begin shooting unrealistic and unconvincing flames all over the restroom. I feel as if I have to pretend as I go but push through until I feel satisfied.

I move to the exit and look outside. Peeking around the brick, I see a small and empty lot surrounded by chainlink fence and thick forest beyond. To the left, I see the begining of a street. I hear police sirens in the distance and imagine several cop cars racing toward my location from a nearby highway. I exit right across some pavement, summon something like a bolt cutter, slice a rip in the fence, and jump into the thicket. I slide down a muddy hillside feet first and begin running along a path in the forest. I enjoy the feeling of effortless running. The muscles in my legs stretch and tense with each pounding stride but I feel no fatigue. It's a nice feeling.

During my run, I lose lucidity. I begin thinking about how I could live off the land and stay here for an extended period. I see a dying skunk in a vegetation pile and consider eating it. I have some internal dialogue and quickly decide it's a bad idea. I come to a burned out old brick building with parts of the wall missing. I decide to make camp here and lay down on a soft bed of dried leaves. I am suddenly exhausted and try to sleep.

I think about how I should call my mom and let her know where I'll be for awhile. I imagine what I will tell her as I rehearse my conversation with her. I think I will tell her that I am in the state forest and I can live off the land. I'll probably stay for about 4 years like Tom Hanks on Castaway. I don't have a job anyway so it's really probably best this way but it's going to get so lonely here. I think I could probably steal a cow from a nearby farmer but figure that's a lot of meat all at once. I think that if I steal any livestock I should get a goat for milk. I see all of this in my mind like a vivid daydream.

I briefly wake and fall back to sleep before I can DJ.

#291 - WILD - Time Unknown

I wake from a failed WILD attempt, roll over, adjust, then watch HI. After a few moments I get a vivid image of being in Best Buy. I say to myself, "This is a dream." Suddenly the scene goes from being just a static image to an actual subversive environment. The feeling was like stepping to a painting. As always I am filled with and intense sense of awe and wonder.

I begin walking and realize I have a sledge hammer in each hand. I hear and feel then hit the floor with each step like I am using them for canes or walking sticks. The situation feels awkward and let it go.

Unfortunately, my vision is far too blurry and I try different techniques to clear things up. First I shout, "Clarity now!" as I clap my hands. Nothing improves so I try a technique that I have been pondering over for a while. I blind summon some glasses and put them on. I get spots of clear vision but it doesn't last. Not wanting to waste too much time on this, I decide to just move on and not worry too much about my vision. As I walk around taking in the dream, I begin to feel euphoria as I enjoy just being lucid in a dream. It has been way too long.

I remember my goal to try some ice magic but decide I should wait for the dream to clear up. I wander around looking a different displays and items. I come to a section that starts to look like a clothing section at Wal-Mart. Something about this feels unstable so I turn back. I come to an open laptop with a strange symbol and a space to enter a password. I begin striking random keys believing that whatever I type will be correct but nothing seems to be working. I feel some instability and think I should move on. At that thought, the laptop vanishes.

I continue on and see many flat screen TVs on a wall. Some begin to look like super large tablets. I say, "Hey. Those are tablets." I think that if I turn can turn one on I could enter into a new scene. Before I can do anything the dream fades out and I wake slightly.

I try to enter my dream into my DJ but quickly realize this is still a dream. I decide not to worry to much about forgetting and try to relax into a new scene. Unfortunately, I lose lucidity and don't remember much else.

#290 - DILD - 7:18AM

After a long bout of insomnia I finally get lucid again. I totally wasn't myself in this one.

The first thing I recall is sitting in the back seat of a car. There are two hot women up front looking back at me. Somehow I become lucid and order the women to give me oral. The older one goes right to it as the other turns away. For some reason I think they are mother and daughter. The awkwardness fades with the pleasure and I close my eyes.

I have an FA where I am in bed doing pelvic thrusts into the air. I still feel pleasure so just let it happen. I begin to feel like someone is watching me so I stop. I look around and see that I am in my old bedroom at my parents old house in WC. The door is cracked and I assume someone is there. My mother walks in saying something and takes my son who must have been sleeping next to me. I begin to feel really embarrassed now and hope that no one noticed what I was doing in my sleep.

She leaves and now I am in bed alone. I still feel really tired and roll over to go back to sleep. I decide to check the time and see its 9:06AM. I feel like I still have some sleep time and decide to WILD laying on my stomach with my face over the edge of the bed. I never do this in waking life. I reflect on the other LD I had and laugh that I totally thought I was sleeping in my own house. I decide this is proof that OBEs are just based on expectations. I was confused here.

Suddenly, I feel like I am lying on my back and decide this is a sign that the dream has started. I'm lucid but I totally don't get that I had an FA or the fact that my parents don't even live here anymore. I get up and exit the room.

A very young version of my oldest niece has come up the stairs to go to the bathroom. I feel amped up and crazy and I play with her roughly by play fighting with her. I end up beating her up and kicking her down the stairs. As she falls I fly past her kicking her on more time. It was accidental but I don't worry about it since none of this is even really happening.

Downstairs, I see my younger sister sitting at a computer desk. I yell and make crazy noises but she doesn't see or hear me. I think maybe I am like a ghost and decide to try to scare everyone. My dad is sitting on the cough with my son. I slap him on the stomach three times. He doesn't see me but he feels it. He just looks at my son with a really shocked expression. I run around screaming and "spiderman" up a wall by the front door. I leap off and grab at the ceiling fan. It's on full speed and I slip off one of the blades landing next to my mom. I shout in her face. She sees me but instead of reacting negatively, she looks deep into my eyes and says, "Son, I love you so much."
I immediately calm down. I notice right away that something is off with her appearance. Her eyes are all black with no white, but I blow it off as dream weirdness. I just doesn't bother me , but perhaps it should have. I reply, "I love you too, mom." I kiss her on the cheek and walk away.

I head toward the back door to go exploring but I suddenly wake up before I get there.

#289 - WILD - 4:37AM

I watch the visuals until I notice mild vibes. I focus on it and it become a little stronger. I begin to feel like my body was in a awkward position so I slowly try to adjust while maintaining the vibes. It was probably all my dream body but all I could think was, "Oh great. I'll have to endure the whole dream being uncomfortable."

Suddenly, my wife gets up stopping the vibes. I think at this point she has woke me up. She comes to my side of the bed and starts washing her hands with some sort of paint thinner. I notice I have something like dried glue on my hand and start peeling it off. I comment something about why we have glue on our hands, then I realize This is fake.

My wife disappears and the dream goes visually dark. I try to do my normal transition but it feels like I am moving my physical body. I'm afraid of waking myself up because I feel like I am very lightly sleeping and I can hear the box fan clearly. No worries I'll just visualize. I think about walking in the living room and I am suddenly there with all the lights in the house on.

I pace around still feeling like I need to get more in the dream, but looking back I think I was too worried about it. I wander to the kids room and see the door is open. A lot of the furniture is missing and I see a green beanbag and some clothes scattered around. There's a small tabby kitten pouncing around. I reach to pet it as I look away and back. Now the kitten is calico. I begin to hear my daughters laughing like they do when they are up to no good. I look around for them as I pick the up the kitten that is now pure white. After a moment of searching I think they must be hiding in the closet. I open the door and toss in the kitten fully expecting one of my daughters to appear. The closet is dark and mostly empty with no little girls. I still hear the laughing and now It's starting to creep my out. I decide it's best to leave. I walk into the next room and use TK to close the bedroom door and lock it. The kitten squeezes under the tiny crack under the door and pads next to me. It's still white.

I suddenly remember my goal and forget about the kitten. I look around and see some partially painted pictures on the wall. I float up intending to finish one but it disappears. I pause a moment listening. I can still hear the box fan and feel that I am still barely in the dream. I try not to worry about it too much and go back to painting. I chose to just paint directly on the blank space on the wall. I blind summon a brush without much effort and begin painting a mountain scene. Unfortunately, the paint isn't cooperating and I have trouble getting anything to stay on the wall. I eventually get a basic mountain painted and realize its red and orange. I kind of like the look of it and decide to call it done as the void over takes me.

I am not ready to wake and decide to wait it out until the next dream forms. I decide to entertain myself by turning upside down and swinging back and forth by my feet. The swings are exaggeratedly huge and I can hear the wind in my ears on each pass. After a moment, I decide that I better try to visualize something.

Something forms but I begin to feel really confused and worry that my lucidity is slipping. I force myself to wake up.