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#317 - DEILD Chain - 5:00AM

I awaken from a dream where I am at a high school basketball game. I try to find a seat in the bleachers but I see no familiar faces. I feel lonely.

I DEILD by focusing on relaxing every muscle in my body. The vibrations start quickly and transition just as easy. I focus on seeing my pregnant stomach. It seems to have grown but feels like I am just pooching it out. Its dark in the room but moonlight is filtering through the blinds as it usually does in waking life. As I walk out I see my shadow on the wall. I look really pregnant now. I'm not sure why I leave the bedroom. Maybe its just habit but I want to find a place to give birth.

The living room is just as dark and the dream seems just slightly unstable. I rub my hands and clap while focusing on what the house looks like in the daytime. This usually works but not this time. I try the light switch several times but it doesn't work either.I see a light coming from my sons room. I am now on my hands and knees feeling the floor for stabilization. I start to go in there but feel the dream slip.

I'm not sure if I wake or just dream that I am back in my bed but I go through the DEILD processes. I remember the OBEs seems to be more literal so this time I focus on visually entering the dream.
I think I hear my wife talking and I become irritated that she is waking me up. I say, "Alysha, what the fuck?" I feel like I actually spoke in my sleep and woke myself a little. My wife turns over and mumbles something. I'm not sure if this was dream or waking life.

I go into DEILD mode anyway and accidentally let my awareness slip a little. Fortunately, I come to full lucidity again when a scene materializes before me.

I am standing just outside the bedroom. Its still dark but this time the bedroom light is on. I return to bed for the birthing process. My wife is laying awake. I ask for her help as I lay down. I take a second to look for my double. My side is clear and I'm glad.

My wife gets up and starts cleaning or doing some task. I am focused on my stomach. Its flat again and I have to will myself to look pregnant. Once satisfied, I start pushing but if feels like going to the bathroom. I let out a few dream farts making me wonder about my physical body. This isn't working. I feel my crotch and clothing. I get naked and try to imagine a vagina while pushing. No good. I feel normal down there. Ok its C-Section time.

I ask my wife to cut me open and she gives me that look that I get when I'm being a dork. I use expectation to get her to cooperate while I focus on my belly again. I begin to use some emotion and think of this a little differently. Unfortunately, sci-fi movies enter my mind. I think of the Shit Weasel from Dreamcatcher and the Chestburster from Alien. My stomach starts churning and I see something with a long slender face pushing out against my flesh. I moan the words, "It's an alien."

My wife appears with an x-acto knife and begins to make a cut. My skin seems extra tough and the blade catches a bit then flicks off making a gross sound. It reminds me of trying to cut up a whole chicken with a dull knife. I see that even-though she hasn't really cut me, there is a nice scoring on my skin. I push and press trying to open it up but it doesn't work. I tell Alysha that she will have to cut really deep this time. She makes another cut and this time she opens me up.

I have a open cavity just above my bellybutton about six inches long with very little blood. Inside, I see something like a thick, congealed blood clot to the left and the other side has white-ish looking flesh like a part of my intestine or stomach. I don't see anything else in there and I assume that I will have to go deeper to reach the Alien inside me. I realize this has gone horribly wrong and I wish that I had never attempted this task. This whole experience has become too much for me to handle and I begin to feel really sick and woozy. I want out. My vision begins to fade and I frantically pull myself out of the dream.

#316 - DILD - 6:00AM

I have a sex dream about my wife that turns into a false awakening. I am in some unfamiliar bedroom with a large mirror above the nightstand. I notice that I am fully dressed and assume that I must have sleepwalked while dreaming the sex dream. The thing that gets my attention is how oddly I am dressed. I am wearing a white lab coat with a really short, blue windbreaker. The windbreaker has button straps on the shoulders, but the left side has a small stuffed monkey attached to it. I completely crack up at this. I laugh so hard that my stomach hurts and my eyes look red and watery. I tell my wife how funny this all is and Then my sister in law comes in the room and I tell her all about it still laughing. They both seem uninterested.

I decide that I absolutely have to take a picture of myself and pull out my phone. The phone doesn't seem to be working properly but I manage. When I take the picture, I notice the monkey has vanished. All of this makes me realize that I am dreaming. I remember that I have been trying to study faces more in waking life to make better dream characters. This makes me suddenly curious to study my own face in the mirror, but my sister in law starts talking really loud and I find it so annoying that I can't concentrate. (She would) I will her to be silent but I must have tried too hard because now both Dcs have left. I feel that I am alone in the room and that's fine; it's quite. My reflection dream character looks completely normal and legit. I'm really impressed with the vividness but decide to move on.

I leave the mirror and head down a hallway but the dream starts to fade out. I am not ready to let the dream go so I do some mad hand rubbing. Sadly, Its not working and I slowly wake up.

I'm still trying to hold on to the dream so I don't move a muscle and focus on relaxing my body. This allows me to DEILD right away into the void. I have a falling sensation, then feel myself floating and slowing spinning as if in zero G. My back has been hurting in waking life and I am pleased that it feels light and painless. I let out and exaggerated sigh of relief. I worry that my wife will hear, but let that go since I am obviously dreaming again. I sigh loudly once more to prove the point to myself. Then I have other curious thoughts like wondering if I am in Tonic REM or NREM. I tell myself I just need to wait it out. I have a memory gap after this and find myself in another false awakening.

I hear the break buzzer at work. I sit up and look at a clock. Its 2:00. When I stand up, I see that I was sleeping on a pallet on the floor in my old department. I find it shocking that I actually got away with this. I stagger to the break room feeling really groggy and sleepy. Something is not right... Not only do I recognize this dream sign, but I also remember that I left this department not long ago and my vision is really distorted. I fall to the floor looking around for some visual stability. My eyes lock on a face. The more I stare the more clear and vivid is gets. It's a young attractive blond woman. I don't feel any desire for her, but I lock my eyes on her because shes all I've got. As I watch her walk past, I notice I have tunnel vision, but can clearly see that she is wearing a white lab coat that reads “photo”. We are in Wal-Mart and I assume she works at the photo lab. Our eyes meet and she gives me a bland expression and continues walking past not bothering to talk to me. I need some interaction so I say something flirty to her. She turns to look at me over her shoulder but is still not interested. It's almost as if she seems to sense my presence but doesn't hear or see me. I say, “What? Are you just going to ignore me?” Then, the dream is suddenly interrupted by my alarm clock.

#315 - DEILD/OBE - 4:14AM

I wake and go to DEILD mode. I focus on relaxing my body and soon vibrations start. They are really weak at first but the more I relax and focus the deeper I get. I feel my body fade away as I focus on lifting up and out. As I transition I feel forces pull and turn me this way and that. There is some fear that astral beings are attacking me but I remember that the cause of this is that I have been reading too much nonsense in search of a more consistent technique for WILD. I tell myself that this is all in my mind and focus on seeing. I have the sensation of slowly opening my eyes and find myself standing over my night stand. I look at my hands as they rest there. I begin hand rubbing as I make my way out of the house. Darkness returns and I try voice commands. In a rich, velvety radio voice I loudly say, "Stabilization now. Visualization now." as I peer into the darkness.

I am now standing on my front porch. It seems to be a bright sunny day and I take a look around. I notice that though my vision has cleared I am still a little nearsighted. I turn to explore and see the neighbors north of me now have a larger house made of brick. I see a man in the yard doing some type of work. He looks a little like CL but I don't think I know him. I walk over to him and shake his hand. I say, "Hi. How are you?"
He responds something pleasant but I am not listening. I am focused on how solid and real his hand feels in mine. I see something like a short square sliding glass patio door on the side of his house. I tell the man, "I am going to phase through your window now." The man seems really nervous and afraid as he follows as I dive, phasing through the glass. I look behind me. He has to physically open the small window/door and climb in.

I notice that I am standing on hardwood flooring that is in the process of being refinished. The fresh stain feels wet on my bare feet. The man seems upset about it so I tell him, "It's okay. I'm a ghost." I feel that should explain everything and wonder off to explore the house.

In the next room I see something like an open dumbwaiter. There's a little girl in an old fashioned dress playing in it. I feel like I should say something to her but all I think of is, "Give me a high five, nigga." I put my hand out and the girl tries to slap it but she goes right through me. I decide not to get caught up on this so I move on. I come to something like a kitchen/dining area. There's a weird spot were there is not enough room to walk past the oven without falling into a low section of the living room. I barely get past and suddenly feel mentally fatigued. I have a strange feeling like all of this is too hard to hold in my mind and I am forced to let it go as I wake up.

The Interview - NLD - 6ish

I later have a non lucid that the night shift lead, Lucy, is at the Joplin Globe having a job interview in the front lobby. I am sitting in a rocking chair feeling very sleepy. I close my eyes to dose off but shake myself awake. There is something on the TV. The interviewer seems very impressed with Lucy and hints that she is pretty much hired. "But first lets make this look good on paper." He gives her forms to fill out and asks her more questions. I do some visual awareness noticing Lucy's face. The details are very vivid with no abnormalities. The TV is demanding my attention now. I see Johnathan Taylor Thomas in a Santa suit. I find this odd but my wife walks up and explains it all. "Christmas in July." I wake to the alarm.

#314 – MILD – 4:32

I used a different version of MILD combined with a super quick WBTB and caffeine. This time instead of visualizing becoming lucid in a dream I visualized a stabilization technique of hand checks and rubbing. Basically its the same but I'm not doing tons of imagining. Usually I'm too tire or lazy to get very far with it but this was quick and simple.

I have a false awakening that I'm sleeping in the back yard. It seems that I have rolled in my sleep and ended up under the back deck. I see something like tent material and make the connection to camping. I remember that I was trying to get lucid and induce an in-dream-WILD.

I wander toward the alley doing long slow hulk jumps. I'm not quite sure if I am fully dreaming but after I easily clear the privacy fence I assume I am. I do another jump and land in Marvin's yard. He has a small dog that looks a lot like my mini dachshund tied to a stake. The dog keeps jumping on my leg and I find it very annoying. I try to fly away but I am stuck in long slow jumping mode. I try flapping my arms really fast but I only manage to hover slightly out of reach. I decide to just land and walk away but when I do I, my legs get tangled in the dog's chain. I try to walk it off but the chain grows with each step. I stop and manually untangle the chain from my legs. When I do, the small dog suddenly looks like my Australian Shepard that I gave to my ex during the divorce. The dog, being much larger now, crowds me and I push her away. I say, “There you go, Tybee.”

Before the dog can bother me again, I instinctively climb a nearby tree. As I move up, I realize that I am climbing with claws like a cat (felt rather than seen). That that realization causes my cat, Stella, to appear just before me. I pay over her saying something nice to her. I pause now thinking that I had actual goals rather than being a cat. I try so hard to think but frustratingly I draw a blank. I am afraid this will wake me so I say out loud, “Fuck goals.” I briefly wonder if I want to put that word in my DJ. (Fuck it. I do. Ha!)

I turn my head toward my house considering if I want to go there. Suddenly, I am laying in the threshold from my kitchen. I notice the kitchen is dark but the dining/living room is well lit. I crawl froward not sure what I'll do next. I stop when I hear the alarm clock and my son crying. I am amazed that all this noise is bleeding into my dream but not actually waking me. That thought gives me another false awakening. I watch the scene turn black and assume I am waking. (Classic Xanous mistake!)

I am now lying on my stomach in bed. I wonder about this since I NEVER sleep on my stomach. I wonder if it helps lucidity so I keep that in mind to try later. I don't hear the alarm anymore so I look at the clock. The numbers are green instead of the usual red and it reads 4:28 (SURPISINGLY ACCURATE TIME!) I think this is odd and wonder what's going on. Before I can put 2 and 2 together. I see my aunts (mother's sisters) standing in my room dressed in running clothes. The are talking about getting ready for a running event. Joyce says something about sewer issues and they will have to run in all that stench. I feel anxiety and worry that I should be getting ready to run too. I start to ask what time the race is but stop when I figure I'll probably be working anyway. I hear my son crying again and this time I actually wake up.

I feel wakeful now and worry about insomnia. I just decide to sleep expecting a LD rather than try WILD. I should have tried.

Jesus Freak - NLD - 6AM

I recall another vivid dream where I am some sort of grounds-keeper at a swanky hotel. As I am messing with some outdoor potted plants I hear a strange and wonderful version of Jesus Freak. The song brings back thoughts nostalgia and I enjoy what I hear though I really don't like Christian music anymore. I look at the band and thought there are lots of people around, absolutely no one is giving them any attention. The band stops playing and I hear one of the guys complain that every one is just ignoring them. They play again while I continue my task at hand. I take a plant into front of the hotel and notice the band is actually set up right in front of the entry way atop the large stone stairway. I have to walk past them but give a sympathetic smile as I weave my way past the musicians and instruments.
I put the plant down and decide to tell the complainer that I actually enjoyed the music. I understand the desire to make something for others to enjoy and needing someone to appreciate it. I walk to the drummer who is just sitting idle looking bummed. I wanted to tell him that I liked their version of Jesus Freak but I actually say, “I like your version of Ripleys....”
He cuts me off and says a quick, “Yeah thanks.”
I find that rude but chose to ignore it. I am more worried about saying the right thing. I stop and awkwardly laugh at my self feeling embarrassed. I say, “I mean Jesus Freak.”
All I get is another, “Yeah thanks.”
I walk away thinking, “I guess he knows already.”
The actual alarm wakes me at 6AM.

#313-DILD

Ok this dream was personal and really embarassing but I want to count it so I'll only post the jist of it.

Basically I was preoccupied with and an activity and people kept bothering me. One DC tried to guide me to lucidity at one point but I was too busy to realize it. i hid in a bathroom stall and noticed i could see they guy next to me becausr the wall was partially disolved. I recognized the dream sign and became lucid. I told him I didnt care what he looked like and found he was actually a woman. I will the rest of the DC to become a hot chick. I woke to realize dream orgasms dont always result to a wet dream. I said too much I think.

#312 - DILD - 3:38AM

After that first lucid I go ahead and decide to WBTB since I needed to pee anyway. I spend some time looking at the stars unpolluted by city lights while enjoying strong peppermint tea. When I tired to sleep I found myself really wakeful but I had very strong HI. I entered several dreamlets but when I tried to form them into WILDs I lost them. At one point I think I dosed of and felt the very early stages of vibrations. I thought I could wait for it to get a little stronger and let the usual sensations slip in but I lost focus and fell non lucid for a while. I probably should have tried an RC but I really thought I had that one. Oh well, It didn't matter because I later had a really vivid DILD.

This dream seemed much longer but the earliest I could remember is that I am having some conversation with an old woman while standing in the alley behind my house. There was a lot of distracting abstract imagery but basically she was washing clothes in an old metal tub and hanging them on a line. I had some items in my hand that are hard to describe as I was talking to her. She was lamenting about being a bad mother and parent. I told her not to worry because Emily turned out the be a good person. I say, "See? You are a good granny." When I say that I look up and see a long skinny tornado bearing down on us. I shout, "SHIT! RUN! EVERYONE GET INTO MY BASEMENT!" There were other DC's milling about and we all start running to my house. Suddenly it dawns on me that this is all a dream and I remember that I had a tornado goal once that I never completed.

I stop running and turn around to face the tornado. It looks a little jumbled up but I don't give any thought to that. As the twister hits me, I am lifted up high into the sky. I see nothing but thick cloud as I gently move in a wide circle. I enjoy the feeling of it as I try to look down at the ground. At first I don't see anything and worry that the white void will overtake me. I apply the same tactics that I did in the first LD of the night with the dark void. I peer into the nothing while thinking of the times that I've flown in waking life (always at a window seat). A break forms in the cloud vortex and I see small houses below me. I didn't realize that I was so high up, but I have a thought and take a little control. As I will myself to be higher, the swirling clouds close then open and I see the houses look even smaller. Satisfied, I let myself gently come back down and find myself on my back deck. I look around once and see the tornado again. It gently picks me back up but I decide that I've had enough and I am put back down again.

There's a slight memory gap here but I think I started talking to some kids in the front yard. For some reason I say, "Watch me fly around the house in one breath." I rise up and begin moving around my house but it's more like I am swimming or I am an astronaut in zero G. Either way I am moving way slower that I thought. I look down and see the children running around, jumping and looking up back at me. I hear shouts of excitement and laughter as I slowly float over them. I'm not sure, but I sort of feel like I am really holding my breath now. I worry that holding my breath will wake me and I decide I'll never actually make it in "one breath" so I go ahead and deliberately take a deep breath and return to normal breathing.

As I continue around my house it turns into some sort of tower like structure with an added exterior roof around like it a doughnut shaped porch. The color of the house has gone from white to pink with white trim. I find this all to be really odd but I am committed to circling my house... or whatever it has become. As I almost reach the front, I find myself now inside the house. I there is now a window and a door in front of me. I think about phasing out the window but decide to go ahead and just open the door this time.

I am now alone in my front yard walking toward the street. There is a small red sporty car, sort of like a Miata but more Corvette looking, parked on the street. I pick it up with one hand by the back bumper and absentmindedly carry the car with me as I try to think of something cool to do in this dream. Realizing what I did, I let the car fall down in front of me and jump on top. I briefly consider going for a drive but, nah, I've done that so many times already. Then I remember my old pirate ship goal. I decide that I've handled the void pretty well all night, so maybe I could induce it to actually teleport. I shout out one of the "shanties" from AC4: Black Flag. My voice did not sound like my own but an exact copy of the soundtrack in the game. I either close my eyes or the void came but I stop walking and fall to the ground. I reach in front of me and imagine the feel of the wheel of a ship. I feel some mild sensation on my hands, then gradually it starts feeling like it should. I begin to hear some sound but that when I suddenly wake up.

#311 - DILD - 12:48AM

I had these two lucid dreams while camping last night. I'm really excited about this because this is the first LD Ive had while camping let alone away from home. So awesome first for me!

The first one was a surprisingly long early LD which has been really rare lately. When I went to bed I was mildly drunk from earlier that evening. I did have some prebed peppermint tea mostly because it's just good and melatonin to help me sleep as I felt a little wired up because it was an early bedtime for me. I was shocked to become lucid even-though I had lucid dreaming on my mind, but I suppose it was a combination of light sleep, heavy ADA (for the past 10 days), and prebed goodies. I had totally planned a WBTB to enjoy some night time star gazing while I drink peppermint tea so I really wasn't trying to get lucid in the first part of the night.

I don't remember how this dream started but I find myself completely lucid in my ex-in-laws house. The feeling is that I either had a false waking or had a in-dream WILD. I am in the living room looking at my ex's mother, Karen. There are two kids running around that I assume are my daughters. I have some dialog and I'm feeling very mischievous. Karen seems to be afraid of me and wanting to ignore me. I told to say that she was a bitch. She repeats the line, "I'm a bitch." I find it amusing but the expression on her face kind of ruins it for me. Seems like a dumb mostly lifeless DC so I lose interest. I try to phase out the front door but the void over takes me so I go back in. I float around the room roaring and growling at Karen while she cowers on the recliner. I see her ceiling fan is on and I grab it as I float past. It flings me her direction and I take the opportunity to troll on her a little more. I land with my crotch in her face shouting "TEABAG!" Karen now looks like she is about to cry and this makes me feel a little bad for the whole thing. Feeling half crazy, I decide to control myself and leave. I have some fear that this entire dream will be in a place that I'd rather not be so I become more determined to leave. I remember that I wanted to work on my phasing so I chose to try to phase out the front door again. This time with purpose.

The same thing happen as last time but now I use the darkness of the void to form the front yard and driveway of their property from memory. It's familiar enough in my mind that this was an easy task. As I look deep into the void thinking of what I should see, the first image that forms is the wheel of the blue truck they once owned. I latch on to that and the rest clicks together. Things don't look quite like waking life but I let that go. There is some privacy fence and I think that I see my ex's brother out of the side of my vision. I turn my head to look as I run to the street but no one is there. When I look back in front of my there is a slight feeling of dizziness and the dream gets a little momentarily unstable. Not wanting to give power to instability and making it worse I continue on as if nothing happened.

I wander the neighbor by doing long slow hulk jumps to get around. Things looks mostly as it should but I felt directionless and lacking any good ideas. The only goal that I could recall was wanting to invent and terrorize other nearby campers but that was only if I had and OBE lucid. I become amused when I remember that my body isn't really in this place. I'm actually in a tent in the woods asleep! I'm also excited when I remember this is the first camping LD. I land on a rooftop and survey the area. I am now at the main road/intersection. I decide that maybe I could terrorize someone nearby.

There's a slight memory gap here but I think I must have spotted a lone woman walking on the street because the next thing I recall is running up behind her. I tell myself that I am monster. No. I'm a vampire! I feel myself grow powerful and larger. My nails become claws and my teeth grow. When I get close enough I bite down hard on the nape of her neck and suck. But instead of the flow of blood, I feel warm feminine skin on my lips and the suction is like I'm giving her a hickie. I become aroused and close my eyes as I put my hand in her crotch.

I stop myself from letting this continue like it is and leave the woman. I have a thought much like a daydream in the waking world but see the scenario play out before me. The woman who was only mildly attractive doesn't die but becomes a super beautiful vampire. We have a sexual connection because I was the one to turn her. We are now in some lumber yard. I watch from the shadows as she quickly turns three men to vampires. I become angry when I think that she now has a sexual connection to them. Jealously? Was lucidity slipping?

I jump on top of a large stack of plywood an begin looking for the woman to confront her on her actions. I find her on another stack and jump over to her. She goes into a low crouch as I move in close and I pause when we meet. Her face is in my crotch. I realize I am still aroused and she surprises my by opening the front of my jeans. I enjoy the sensation as I close my eyes. Again, I realize what I am doing and stop it before I have a wet dream.

When I open my eyes I am now standing over a toilet in some type of outhouse made of plywood. I turn to leave and I hear a woman's voice, "Yeah... that's a huge one." It sounds as if she was responding to something someone said. I recognize the voice as OpheliaBlue and assume I was listening to a DV podcast the whole time. I am totally confused now and wonder when I stopped listening to the first part of the conversation. I feel the earbuds in my ears and I strain to listen to the other person speak. What I get is the voice of one of the guys from GetLucid! US. He says, "One on water. One on water. One on water." I struggle to make sense of what he is saying as it turns to, "One to one. One to one." Then it becomes more garbbled like, "wonnaone" and "wonnawomanone" as I slowly wake up I realize my son had started snoring. The sound of seemed to match the pattern of the man speaking in my dream. I had to laugh at that.

#310 – WILD – Time Unknown

I have heavy HI and various short dreamlets. When this scene forms I recognize that it isn't real. Though it was a full on dream, I mostly thought it was just really intense HI so I go with the plot for now.

Having just had a non lucid dream about camping and fishing, I am now in a car with my wife on our way to the lake. I am behind the wheel and decide I would like to make the car fly. I pull the steering wheel toward me like you might do in an airplane and the car lifts off the ground. I recall visuals from a non lucid dream about being in an airplane last week. I look out my window and see the ground drop away and then we are in the clouds. I turn to look in front of me and suddenly we are back on road.

The country road looks vaguely familiar but I don't focus too much on that. Still stuck on flying I punch an imaginary button on the steering wheel and give a voice command to take us to the lake. I hear an extremely smooth and sexy woman's voice answer as the car's computer. It says something about taking skyway 14 and being there in 14 minutes.

For some reason I am surprised by this and looking back I suppose lucidity has slipped away from me.. I make a remark to my wife about how cool it is that we can travel across the country in a matter of 14 minutes in our car. I think technology is so cool as I wake up.

#309 - FILD/DEILD - 5:41AM

I awaken from some dream where I was trying to find my car. I remember to try FILD but for some reason I interlocked my fingers and placed my hands on my chest. I used only the index finger of my right hand to tap. I am not sure if FILD worked as an anchor or if I was already set up to DEILD but it was only a few seconds before I felt vibes. My hands became extremely uncomfortable and with effort I pushed my hands out in front of me and slowly got out of bed. I think of goals but the dream is super unstable so I begin rubbing my hands as I wander around.

I find myself in the kitchen and there is a woman who looks a lot like my wife's boss. She's wanting me to make coffee. I am not sure if she told me to do it or if I just knew that's what she wanted, but that's what I began doing. I told myself to just play along and go for the ride while I wait for stability. Basically, I was fully lucid but I gave up most of the dream control and just watched the scene play out.

I have some sort of stove top peculator and electric coffee maker hybrid on the stove. I fumble with a filter and the grounds. I pull up the water and realize I am loading a metallic carafe. I quickly switch to a glass one. She's already trying to get a cup of coffee but it's just starting. I say something about it being super strong but she can just add some hot water to dilute it. Suddenly, the dream fades out and I partially awaken.

I go back into DEILD mode and the vibrations start right away. I decide to wait a little while hoping the dream will come to me without my having to struggle so much to stabilize. Sadly, I quickly lose lucidity and have a false awakening.

I am in bed but I am doing either a podcast or a radio show. I only hear the audio but I am having a conversation with the woman from my kitchen and some man that sounds a lot like John B. Wells. The woman was talking about her version of the dream. She says there was so much poop on the floor and I was having a hard time keeping up with her coffee drinking. I figure the poop part was only in her version but the coffee making was a connection. I shout out, “COFFEE! THAT'S A HIT!” The man starts talking over me but I jump in again, “SHARED DREAMING! WE DID IT! THAT'S A HIT!” I calm down a bit now. “Wouldn't you say that we were in the same dream?”
The woman says something like she thinks maybe it was but she's not sure.
I ask, “Will you do me a favor? Write it all down in detail and...”
The man starts talking over me again asking the woman some unrelated question. She replies to him totally ignoring me.
I become desperate. I feel like this was a signification dream exchange and they aren't seeing it. I beg, “Guys... PLEASE.” The dream fades and I wake up.

#308 - DILD – 6:09AM

I am driving home from an event with family. There's an odd hiccup where the tire gets stuck in a tree root. Someone starts giving a speech. A car passes. I remember I am dreaming and start driving really fast. I come up to the car that passed me at an intersection. I recognize the area and swerve around them and head home.

Now I am at the front door but it's locked. I blind summon the keys and shove them in the general area of the key hole. The door pops open, I walk inside, and I am greeted by many kittens in the house. I find this amusing and decide to spend some time playing with them. At one point I am on all fours tickling an orange tabby and it gets a little feisty and scratches my fingers. The pain feels pretty realistic and this causes me to pause. I note the oddity of dream pain but decide its best not to look and the wound.

My family starts coming in the front door and I move to the couch. I remember that I wanted to troll on some dream characters and I start blind summoning toy balls; the ones like my son likes to play with and consequently ends up all over the living room. As each person comes in, I start pelting them in the face. I was embarrassed by the fact that I completely missed most of them. My dream throwing ability should be way better than waking life. My dad comes in last and I get a good shot straight on the nose. He puts a hand to his face and says, “Son! You didn't have to do that! How about I punch you in the balls?”
I find it completely amusing that he said that and laugh. I tell him, “Go ahead. It won't hurt.”
We moves over to me and the dream fades to black as I watch him do an upper cut to my crotch.

I have a false awakening where I am totally laughing my ass off about the dream. This lasts only a few seconds and I wake up for real.

#307 – DILD – 5:19

I am playing with a toy biplane. There are many propellers and some aren't working properly. Suddenly, I launch off a cliff and fly over a rocky beach. I have initial fear, but quickly realize that I could just jump down and it won't hurt because it's all a dream.

I drop and turn to go back. (Why I did not play on the beach I do not know!) As I turn around I am now in an apartment. I rub hands for a second but realize the dream is stable enough. I remember that I want to ask a DC to show me some magic. As I am looking around, I wake partially but quickly reenter the dream without any trouble.

There's now an adolescent boy who looks very stereotypically Swedish. Tell him to show me some magic but he just shakes his head “no”. I keep asking but he won't relent.

I have a FA. I am at work and apparently I was napping in the break room. Speaking of the boy, I say, “Geeeeez. Touchy.” Someone starts talking about not needing any cookies in the desert. I look and see something like chocolate pudding with graham crackers in it.

#306 - WILD - 4:59AM

I enter vibes once I start my mantra. Odd. I have to overcome a great deal of fear this time. I am not sure what it's all about; just a feeling of presence in the room. I have a hard time getting out of SP with the usual oddities. One thing to note was that when I tried spinning I actually felt dizy-sick. After a long struggle, I manage to transition. My vision was horrible but I managed to see my living room and head for the front door. There is a horrible shrieking sound and as I reach the front door I am sucked away. I don't bother fighting it; I just head for the back instead.

When I reach the kitchen entrance, I see a white tiger in the darkness that's blocking the way. There is fear but I manage to give in to the visual and phase past. I reach the back door and get out onto the deck. I pause and note that I am floating. I hear rain and birds chirping. There's something white floating in the air but I can't tell what it is exactly. I chose to ignore it. The dream is still very unstable so I feel the deck railing with my hands as I walk into the yard. The scene turns to daytime as I begin rubbing my hands. Encouraged, I continue to hoping the dream clears up further.

The void almost overtakes me and when it clears out, it is now night time. I look up at the sky and see many more stars than usual. I admire that for a second and continue on down the alley. I am rubbing my hands and clapping while talking everything out, “rub hands” “clap” “daytime”. The dream suddenly ends.

I find this whole WILD experience annoying so I switch to DILD.

Ok I'm going to keep this short but I want to note a micro DILD I had after an unusual WBTB. I was stoked about the lunar eclipse this morning and made about a 45min WBTB out of it all. When I got back to bed I tried for WILD but it was keeping me too awake. I changed positions and decided on SSILD but I'm not sure I actually did any cycles.

The next thing I recall is being outside waiting for "the otherside" of the eclipse. I breifly see a glowing ring in the sky like a solar eclipse and wonder if that was real. My dad is ranting about end times prophecy and I follow him into a house. I older daughter shouts at him that it's just science. I have some disagreeing words with him and go back outside.

I search for the moon but I all I see is darkness. As I realize I am lost in the void I shout out, "I am dreaming!" It's too late to try to salvage the dream so I go into DEILD mode.

Unfortunately, I lost lucidity and find myself walking on the street in downtown New York with my wife. She text a friend that lives in the state about our surprise visit but she doesnt seem to care or want to see us. Suddenly we are in a canoe floating down a street of water. I think of Vience and wonder how this happed here. I turn and my wife's boss in the canoe. We have some converstation until the alam wakes me.

#305 - DEILD - 6:00AM

I awaken around 5:15, try to DEILD but fail, and have a really strange NLD. I awaken from that dream feeling really alert and mentally stimulated. I know that I probably don't have much time to LD and worry that this G night will be a total fail. I quickly quiet my mind and focus on relaxing my body while I take slow deep breaths. With each exhale I feel more and more detached from my physical existence. Before I go too deep, I notice my body is in an awkward position and I am slowly able to adjust without losing any progress. Looking back I wonder if this was my dream body or physical body. I go back to taking deep breaths while focusing on relaxing my body and soon I feel the vibes.


I am now in a lucid dream state and I have my typical OBE feeling. I am able to look to my right but its all dark void. Suddenly I see a light source but it totally engulfs me and I turn away. I am unable to transition or move so I focus on walking then running then high speed inertia. The feel becomes so intense that I have to stop. Next, I visualize walking in my living room and also immediately I find myself there. I see a very disorganized version of my house. There are huge piles of denim on the couches and the dining table is in front of the TV. There are random objects on the table but the thing I note the most are the cats casually lounging on it. Everything is really unstable and blurry but I recall all the stabilization techniques Wurlman and I talked about in the Lucid For Life podcast over the weekend. I focus on the feel of the table as I walk around it. I stop and pet Stella. I look at my hands, clap and even slap myself in the face once. All this seems to have helped greatly so I stop and look around a bit more. I think about going outside but I feel like the dream will collapse if I try it so I decide to linger inside a little longer.

When I look toward the kitchen I feel a presence there staring at me. I shout out, "Who's there? Show yourself." Nothing happens so I move to the kitchen but when I do it darkens out as if the presence there wants to remain hidden and unseen. This causes the dream to become very unstable but I focus my vision on the living room and re-stabilize. I see a book case full of old NES game cartridges. I become interested and pick one out. I look and see the movie picture of Fievel Goes West on it. I read the title out loud and see "Fievel Goes Japanese". Then, "Japanese" turns to "Japanapedia". I let this last word roll out of my mouth feeling amused.

At this point I partially wake up but am fully locked into SP. My impulse reaction is to fight it but I relax and focus on DEILD. In an instant, I am in another dream scene, standing on the porch of my parents old house. I feel compelled to enter and when I do find myself sensing that same presence as before. I can feel it's eyes on me just watching. It doesn't seem evil nor benign but I am highly annoyed. I feel intruded on and want to discover who or what this is. I rush to the dining room where I sense the feeling is coming from, but as I get close the void over takes me and I find myself in SP again. As I begin to DEILD and wait for the next dream I am suddenly pulled back into physical existence by the sound of the alarm.

#304 - DILD - 5:10AM

I have an FA and get in a huge argument with my mom. Apparently, the time-line was a mixture of when I was a kid but thinking I was grown. I tell her staying with my grandma (maternal) for a week would be horribly boring though the thought crosses my mind that would probably have time to focus more on lucid dreaming. I tell her that, "I'm a grown-ass man and should be able to stay where I like." Undeterred, she continues mentions that after the week with her mom my other grandma (paternal) would be living with us until June. I have another horrible fit and finally decide there's no more point in arguing.

I walk into the next room and see my grandfather (maternal) talking to my dad with other people. I get the feeling everyone heard the argument and feel embarrassed. Suddenly, it dawns on me that my grandfather should be dead and I become lucid, although I think it's totally plausible that we would all be staying with my grandmother (maternal) who is also dead in waking life. I'm still feeling the heat of my argument with mother and I confront my grandfather about his being here. I feel a little pissed that he would show up when he's supposed to be dead. I rudely interupt his and my father's conversation. "Hey. Hey. HEY!. Aren't you supposed to be dead?!"
My grandfather calmly replies, "Yeah."
I state, "So this is a dream."
"You betcha.", is his only reply.
Suddenly, I get the idea that I am possibly actually talking to my dead grandfather. I realize I had been rude and angry and I let all emotion go. I try to think of something worthwhile to talk about since It's rare I see him in my dreams anymore. All I can think of is, "Are you alright?"
The says a simple, "Yep."
Unsure of what to say or do next I just say, "That's good. See ya." as I turn to walk away.


I am fooled by an FA and I have my dream journal in front of me. I am trying to type the first sentence of my dream but have a very hard time hitting the right letters on the touch screen. I begin to realize that there are more and more people crowding me. I look up and there seems have been to be a line forming as I sit on the floor starting at my device. It also seems that I am right in the way of everyone. I stand up and there seems to be some Black Friday event going on. I feel really crowded so I walk away but I am still focused on writing in my dream journal.

I finally get the full first sentence right when I pause to look around. I see my wife and several people from both our families around a folding table eating free samples of some type of fried cinnamon crisps in the shape of a Christmas tree. The decoration begins to look very festive as I make my way the the jar of goodies. I inhale one and reach in for several more. The cinnamon and sugar are all over my hands. There's another table set up with chocolate covered cherries. I reach for them as I suddenly wake up.