Xanous' Dream Journal

DILD to DEILD to FA

I am at my wife's cousin's Karen's house. There is something about my bike being there. I bring it outside. I was thinking about riding it home and leaving my car. I look up and see a bright light. It flew between some clouds and lit them up. I knew this was unusual for an airplane. Some tree branches got in my view as I was walking. I back up and instead of this light I see what looks like 5 or 6 fish swimming in the sky. I say, "What the fuck?!" I look more intently and yes they are fish. They are a play golden color with a redish strip at the gills and blue face with the golden color at the mouth. I can see the scales. I see how the glisten in the eveing light. I stare bumbfounded. All I can say is, "What the fuck? What the fuck? What the FUCK?"

"OOOOOHHHHHH!" I finally realize that I am dreaming. I start to fly but everything fades to black very fast. I am in my bed. I don't move, I clear my mind and try not to think about the dream too much. I only know that I had a really short lucid.

I instinctively DEILD without much thought. I hit SP right away. It last for a few seconds and evens out to a dim hum. I just get out of bed like I would any other time. I know my body is paralysed. It is of course dark and I am blind. I tell myself that there is light coming from the window and I imagine seeing. Slowy I visualize and begin to see the room. (Next time I will visualize some other place. I am tire of seeing my house lol) I open the bedroom door and the world fades to black. There is nothing to grab on to visually. I feel a little panic that I will wake up. I use my meditation calm technique and rub my hands together and focus on seeing something. I come back. But I am really near sighted. So I crawl and focus on the baseboard and hardwood floor. It stabilizes a bit. I come to a dining room chair. (I have no real plan. I actually doubted that I would have a lucid tonight because we planned to get up early. Now that I think about it I did wake up at like midnight and pee. I went back to bed with a mantra "I will remember the dream and become lucid" until I feel asleep. So really that first maybe was a MILD not DILD?)

So I dont know what to do and you never think clearly in a LD. I see a book on the chair.I decide to read it. It looks like colorful recipes or menu. I focus really hard to read a line of text. Finally I make out the words in white. 'CHEESE CON QUESO'. I think I thought I was going the advanced TOTM. (I should have really done it) I decide it will be fun to move the book to the TV and see if I really moved it in real life. (I have no such book) After I place it on/near the TV my head totally clears. I actually believe that I woke up during my lucid. I really think I am awake walking around my house. I go back to the bedroom and lay down.

I have a false awakening. Something about the phone waking me up. There a tv on in the room. I get up on the other side of the bed. Then the alarm clock wakes me up for real.

I would have forgotten this LD if I hadn't had an alarm. So hears my take on forgetting LDs. Sageous seems to question if it was a true LD if you forget it. He says that he believes we are wired to forget NLDs and remember LDs. My thing is if you go from LD to NLD/FA it can be real easy to forget.

OK now I got to get ready. We have to be at the hospital at 5AM. My pregnant wife is to be induced to labor!