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I tend to have these dreams a lot especially when I feel really lonely, I meet a person in my dreams and we go on adventures and have fun and while I really love the dream and just want to spend eternity in them when I wake up I end up feeling even more alone.

This is kind of like an anime style dream because my companion was a younger version of an anime character on one of my favorite anime's, in this dream I move to the United States and it is my first day in school and my first class is History and I sit down next to this kid who is at least 3 years younger then me and I was in my dream 17 at the time. We introduce ourselves he says his name is Sam and I ask if we could share the history book because I don't have one and he says it's ok. We end up hanging out after that and talk about our lives and it turns out he is from the same country as I was and we both just moved here. My sister ends up taking a trip back to our mother country and I ask Sam if he wants to go along and we go back for vacation and we end up on this farm and there is a tractor the owner lets us drive around the dirt paths on and I told Sam he could go ahead and drive if I could borrow his history book and study so I we are on the tractor talking and I am studying as well.

And that is pretty much the end of the dream I wish I could remember more but I have this issue where I wake up and fall back asleep several times putting me into different dreams and I find it harder to remember the first dream. Unfortunately with my companions I never end up in another dream with them so I have to say goodbye to Sam. I will miss you kid, you were an awesome companion. I believe I have these dreams because it represents what I seek: the perfect best friend that you go on adventures with and hang out and of course one that doesn't end up hurting me psychologically or emotionally.

I had a very intense dream last night that involved me being with a group we could have been criminals or terrorists because we went into a masquerade party with a service cart that had food on top and a bomb in the bottom part, we set the cart in the middle of the room. ( we had hoodies on underneath that we had like gorilla masks and on top of those masks were those kind of half masks that you would normally find at a masquerade party and after we placed the cart in the middle of the room we pulled down our hoods and took off the top mask just leaving us with our gorilla masks and we all left very fast and no one even seemed to notice us. We had about 5 people including me and the leader because I remember as we tried to leave I was going first but the leader told me to wait and let the other two go ahead of me so I stopped by the doors and let them go ahead of me and then the leader and I left at the same time. I did not see an explosion or anything but after we left and went out the doors the dream restarted and we did it all over again the exact same way, I was aware of this but I let it play out anyway and this time when we got to the doors, the leader told me to wait again, the other two left first followed by me and the leader and then I woke up instead of having the dream repeat. I have noticed that sometimes my dreams repeat once or twice while I am asleep and I must be lucid dreaming because I am aware that it is a repeat but I don't do anything about it I just let it play out.

So I had several dreams last night, all non lucid I only remember the first one though because it was my first nightmare in a long time. I kept waking up during the night so I rolled over (I sleep without a shirt on) and hugged a pillow and fell back asleep, well my room got very cold and it started to tickle/hurt my back and I dreamed that there was this half tree bark/half porcupine monster (tree bark on front the porcupine side on back and I tried running away but when I turned my back he grabbed onto me and started merging with my body and it started to really hurt and in the middle of it I looked into a mirror and seen myself shirtless and bark started to cover my skin and I could see the super jumbo sized sharp needles the porcupines have sticking out the back.

I took 50 mg of melatonin after a short break of not taking any. It really did intensify my dreams and it led me to waking up several times and falling back asleep. The first 1 or 2 dreams I don't remember, the 3rd one involved a woman who was being hunted by this sadistic family in the middle of the woods, she finds their property and tries to steal a car to get out. I was trying to escape too but thats all I remember.

I woke up again and fell back asleep and this time I was in class with either a friend or a sister (if she was a sister it would have been in dream only not RL) and I was being my usual smart ass self that I was when I was in school, i just remembered something. I was able to go back to school in my dream after I graduated and this was set in math class to be specific Algebra 3/4 class. I look through the text book realizing I couldn't do any of the problems and was getting very frustrated. I noticed something was off about my teacher sometimes here eyes would flip to complete black and then back to normal, I realized my teacher was replaced with a demon. Blood started to drip down from the ceiling and he collected some and made everybody do some weird ritual with blood and it summoned hell hounds that jumped through the window and started to growl at everybody, the teacher disappeared and my friend/sis and I were the only ones who didn't do it so she sat there and I stood up on my desk and placed a container underneath the dripping blood to collect it and then I pushed open a different area of the roof and I seen a bunch of dead bodies of all the teachers and even a nun up there that were tied up and rotting but still dripping blood. the blood started to flow heavier and I took what I had and went up to the chalk board and drew some weird symbol on it with the blood and pressed my bloody hand against the symbol as hard as I could and it made all the hell hounds disappear.

This is when I woke up again but things took a very nasty course. I was still able to snore but I was not able to move and I wasn't sure I was able to open my eyes but I knew this was a sleep paralysis experience, I felt this presence in my room off to the right by the window like standing over my bed and I pretended to sleep by snoring but it didn't work, I tried to move my arms but when I did they felt numb and like dead weight. The thing off to my right said my name in this taunting like manner like he had control over me and I worked up everything in my might to try to talk so I just kept trying and nothing was coming out but finally I was able to yell "MOM" not really loud but loud enough and she just yelled WHAT? and after that I was able to move and get up. This experience wasn't as scary as the last one but to feel that presence and hear it say my name was really scary.