lucid

This is the first time I have been able to control my flying. Usually, I just bump along the ground, and can't gain any altitude. That changed tonight. I should have written this down when I woke up, but I was in a hurry to get to work.

I am in some kind of high school locker room. Everyone is in top shape but me, and they are clothed in street clothes. I am walking around in jeans with no shirt on. I am embarrased. People are looking at me in disgust. I am ashamed, but continue to walk. The dreamscape changes and I am in a casino. I still do not have a shirt on, and now I realize I can't possibly meet a girl dressed like I am. I begin to despair, and people are still looking at me with disgust. The dreamscape changes again, and I am in Modern Warfare 2: Invasion. I am looking around, and although it is a map from a game, it looks completely real. Also, it's just a regular scene, the destruction seems normal, and people are going about their business. I try to talk to girls, but an old former friend whom I do not like or associate with comes up to me and starts telling me that I will never find a woman, that I will be alone forever, and women don't like me. I grow from despairing to downright depressed. I am wraught with sadness, and I begin to weep in my dream.

I stand up and look around. For some reason, I can't see far enough away. I feel somewhat trapped. It starts to dawn on me that I am in a constructed reality, so I begin looking for flaws or dream signs. Still not lucid yet, I peak around the side of a van, and see the sky stretching out forever. The sky is both below and above me and both sides. I am standing on the edge of the map which seems to to be suspended very high up in the air. I have found the end of the map. Wait a minute!

This can't be real, I am dreaming! I smile and know exactly what I want to do. I leap off the edge of the map into the sky spreading my arms like wings. I begin to fall and then gently rise to flight. I am amazed! I did it! I look down, and the ground is so far down, I can't really make it out through the clouds. I am very high up (I estimate about 40,000 ft) and flying like an eagle, making crazing banks, nose dives, and soaring. I am going very fast. I see a sunset ahead of me with a very rough round opening in the sky itself. It is black, and seems to be some sort of portal. the colors around it are just like a sunset. I fly towards it, but never seem to get any closer. It is hundreds of miles away. I am completely euphoric, and almost forget my despair. It creeps back, but is dulled by my joy. I continue to fly, thinking what I should do next.

I look down and see the ocean. I raise up my head, soar up a bit, and then bank left and dive straight down. The wind is blowing past my ears, and I am diving fast and headed straight for the ocean. I feel no fear. I know I am dreaming, and I am now in a euphoric state. I hit the water and dive straight down. I see fish from my aquariums in the sea. It is very dark blue, but I can see. I stop and stand on the bottom of the ocean. How cool is this. I then lose lucidity.

I dreamt and became lucid two more times that night. 3 lucids in a row. I cannot remember anything about the other two. They were very short, and the lucidity was only mild. Just aware, not trying to control. None of the dreams were related, which seems odd.

Conditions: 2400 mg of Omega 3-6 Fish Oil daily
Fell asleep: 1:00 am
Lucid aids: none

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

(Ocean City is a very narrow strip of land between Assawoman Bay and the Atlantic Ocean. It is a peninsula, surrounded on three sides by water.)

I am at the beach. It's a beautiful day, and I am walking on the beach. Everyone is happy and partying. I walk from place to place, meeting friends along the way. The ocean is calm with a little surf. I turn around and look towards the bay and see a giant tidal wave forming. I estimate it is about 20 stories high. It is moving quickly towards me. I am scared. The ocean is behind me so there is nowhere to run. I look at the building in front of me. It is a typical beach front house. I think to myself that there is no way this structure can protect me. However, I have no choice. I run up and stand with my back to the wall placing the building between me and the giant wave. I wait, cringing in terror...



The wave hits. A section of the wall next to me blasts open with water shooting out. Water is rushing everywhere, but I am ok.
I move out from the building and look back at the bay again. Another wave is forming. I am already in hip deep water. I decide to dive under the water this time, and let the wave wash over me. It works....

A third wave is forming. There are still structures to hide behind, but I am afraid this is it. I am dead. Suddenly, my hands appear in front of my face. I think, "Wait, this could be a dream!". My hands look normal...

"How can this be?". I then start to realize that this MUST be a dream. There are dream signs screaming at me. I look again. This time I notice my middle fingers are shorter than any of my other fingers! Yes! I am dreaming! Wake the hell up!
I awake, smiling. It was only a dream! (LOL)


Conditions: 2400 mg of Omega 3-6 Fish Oil daily
Fell asleep: 1:00 am
Headphones: none

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

I don't remember much about this dream...

I am in church, and kneeling beside my sister who is sitting in a pew. For some reason, I ask myself if I am dreaming, and the instant I do, I become lucid. I didn't even bother looking at my hands because I knew I was lucid. I vaguely remember trying to do some very boring things, so my lucidity was minimal. That's it..


Conditions:
Fell asleep: 1:00 am
Headphones: none

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

I am standing at the mouth of a cave looking out. It is overlooking the sea. I immediately look at my hands and realize they are distorted. I turn them over palm up, and the fingers are too short, especially the ring and pinky. I am completely lucid. I look up and start to walk. I begin to awaken, I look up in the air and immediatley spin in my dream.

I don't remember what happened after that, but I woke very quickly, so whatever I dreamed was probably very short.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 5:00 am
Headphones: Isochronic pulses descending from 5 to 1 hz over 20 minutes. Took them off afterward. Was very sleep already.

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

I haven't been Lucid in a few weeks. I'm glad I finally got one. I was losing faith! This one interupted my Dream Architects (my subconcious) intentions...lol. The details are too fuzzy to remember, but the major parts are still with me:

I am with someone I know. I think it's my ex-wife (god, I wish i could exorcise her from my dreams!). We have a mission, however, our car has broken down. We steal someone's car, and drive to West Virginia. We encounter a hotel and check in. We begin our mission by changing our clothes so we look like, "Them". They are on to us! I have to deceive the leader, which I do at first, but eventually he catches on. I realize I am in a school of some sort. I am sneaking around trying to find something. I don't remember what, but eventually find it. We have accomplished the mission and are ready to go. We are trying to leave, but we have to pack, and can't do it fast enough. We finally pack and leave. We got away! Now we go to return the car, and are caught by the owner. I do some quick haggling, and we agree to pay the owner $300. After all, I had the car repaired while it was stolen (huh?). It was a black Hummer, and very hard to drive. Nothing seemed to work properly.

I decide to look at my hands (FANTASTIC! The RC has become habit!). Hey, my pinky is too short. I am dreaming! I try to fly. No luck. Can't even get off the ground. I try to conjure an object in the palm of my hand. It doesn't work. I think to myself, "This is my dream, why can't I do this stuff?" I tell everyone around me I am dreaming. They don't seem surprised, but they stare at me watching. I check my hands again. Still dreaming. I try to fly again, but this time I close my eyes first. I can feel myself gaining altitude. Cool! I open them, and slowly sink to the ground. What's up with that? I can feel myself waking up, so I quickly spin around several times. Ok, I'm back. I try to talk to people, but they remain silent. The entire dreamscape has not stopped any animation. I don't know what to do, so I just slowly let myself lose lucidity.

I need to research dream control!

Conditions:
Fell asleep: ?
Headphones: 6.5 hz Isochronic pulses at 120 hz base with pink noise all night...

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

I'm sitting in the back of a cab between Elaine and Kramer. I wonder, "Where is Jerry?".

What? Seinfeld is a show. How could I be in a cab with "Elaine" and "Kramer". I decide to check my hands. This was a gut reaction, there was no reasoning. It just seemed that's what I should do. My hands are really distorted. My left hand has only a few long fingers. My right hand is missing the ring finger from the middle knuckle up. My thumb are normal. Immediately, I realize I am dreaming. These are not what my hands are supposed to look like. Cool. I can even realize that I have been trying to LD. I know the steps I have taken, and that it is intentional. I am fully aware of what I want to do. I do NOT know what time it is, nor if it is light out or not.

I notice that no one is speaking. They aren't frozen or anything, they just aren't talking. I notice there is no cab driver. The cab isn't even moving. I get into the driver's seat of the cab. No steering wheel. I think, "I can just make one, this is my dream". I try to conjure a steering wheel. No luck. I demand a steering wheel. Nope. I decide not to waste my dream time and climb out of the window of the cab (why not just open the door?).

Now I begin to wake up. I immediately recognized this, and looked up and started spinning. It looked like when you play a first person video game, point your view up, and then just rotate using one stick. No dizziness at all. Now, I am stabilized and back in the dream.

Now I am in the breezeway of an apartment complex. It is dark. I start running. I am not frightened, but deeper in the dream, and a little less lucid. I conjure a pool and jump in. No shock of hitting the water. I am underwater, and decide to try to breathe. I am now more lucid. I plug my nose and cover my mouth with my hands....and....breathe in. It works! I'm elated! I can do it. I move myself out of the water.

I am running. No one is around, and suddenly I come upon a beautiful slim short brown haired women. She is about 35 or so. I think, I'm in a dream, I can do whatever I want, and this is a really nice looking woman. I immediately rip off her top. I can clearly see her breasts, and can only focus on those. I touch them. I put my face to them, they feel wonderful, then snap to....

I am running through the streets of my youth, but the colors are much more beautiful. Not more vivid, just more of them. I decide to fly. All I can do is jump. What is going on? This is my dream, FLY dammit! At one point, I leave the ground for about 10 feet or so for a second or two. No luck from that point on.

I keep running. I'm thinking how cool this is. I check my hands again, and my finger are really long. Yep, I'm still dreaming. I climb up on some big stones and jump off of them. It doesn't hurt. I try other high (not very high, no more than 8 feet, don't know why) and jump. No pain, or even feeling.

I'm running again. I still know I'm dreaming, but a little less lucid. I'm not breathing hard, my muscles don't ache, I am not tired. I could run like this forever. The grass is slightly rainbow colored. The sky is a beautiful blue at the top, but it is either sunset or sunrise. It is fantastic. I am running towards it. I am overcome with joy. I cannot help but cry at how happy I am...

I awake. I am not crying, not particularly joyful, just kind of normal. I am totally excited though. I induced my first LD!



(sequencing unknown, this is recall)
I am in a gun store store. I have bought a very large gun (.50 cal). I paid $699 for it. I am worried that I do not have enough money in my account to cover all my expenses, so I need to return it. Don't know why I even bought it. I has three barrels instead of just one. I have a reciept for it. I am relieved when I see that I only paid $99 for it. I am going to return it anyway. I look closely at the receipt. I can see clearly the numbers. On the right side of each item besides the gun is a very detailed color hologram of my parents in a picture pose. I know instinctively that this is a security measure.....

Conditions:
1200 mg of Omega03&6 Fish Oil (JBB)
1000 mg Vitamin B6 (JBB)
20 ounces of Apple Juice (BB)
Checked hands during the day (DD)
Read some philosphy and LD (DD)
Binaural Beats: Base: 95hz, Beat: cycled from 2 hz to 7hz to try to mimic a typical dream cycle; Pink Noise; Volume Med for both. Can audibly hear beats. Removed after 2 hours (annoying me)

Fell asleep: 2:30am
WBTB: 8:00am
LD: 9:30am complete

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JBB=Just before bed after 9pm
AB= At bedtime 11:30pm
BB=Before Bedtime after 5pm
DD=During the day between wake and 5pm