^^ Actually, I was going to post about this earlier (I can't resist subjects like "oblivion"

), but then didn't because I was having trouble seeing a problem... I personally would trade
a lot to be able to lucidly awaken
every night onto a
Matrix-like blank white plane from which I could lucidly create anything I want (indeed, that is something I've been working toward for decades now). I would even try to find something useful about that great shrinking bar (pretty cool image, BTW), seeing it as an aid, perhaps, for knowing when to prepare for my next
DEILD. Having personally pretty much left "normal" dreams (whatever that even means; more in a sec) behind a long time ago without regret, I guess the problem here completely escaped me. That said:
Sure. As I mentioned above, I've been creating similar events for years (though my blank plane tends to be purple, or gray), and have been working very hard to do so. I have also come across other dreamers over the years whose lucid dreams often start as a blank slate of some sort; the exception here I guess is that they all tend to make that happen on purpose, rather than have it happen to them by accident -- though, again, I believe those dreamers would all welcome such an accident with open arms. Also, I have come across a fairly large number of dreamers over the years who cannot dream "normally," or rather they cannot dream in a manner that they think or have been told is normal. On top of that, starting from a blank slate in dreams has shown up in literature as well, though I can't think of any titles off hand, except stuff written by Phillip K. Dick. So fear not, Uzixia; though your experience is a bit extreme, and I for one truly envy that extremity, you are not alone... many dreamers have dreams that are at least slightly similar to your experience.
I honestly have nothing to offer to help you, since I think you are already in a place many very advanced LD'ers would kill to be in, and Gab's advice pretty much nails it, but here's one thought:
You might want to take a moment to consider what a "normal" dream means to you, and why you want to have one. In my experience there is literally no such thing as a normal dream; we all create our dreamworlds independently, and there are no set rules for content or presentation. In a sense, what you experience is your unconscious mind's version of a normal dream, like it or not. I would suggest, then, that you might consider seeing this white plane as normal; that it is simply a starting point for your nightly exploration. It sounds to me like you have no trouble having interesting dreams anyway, so if you can come to see the white plane as normal, you might also see what an incredible advantage it provides for allowing you to create truly awesome dreams and maybe work on things like changing the physics of your dream to your own liking.
Oh, and for what its worth, I for one miss a lot when throwing darts in non-lucid dreams!
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