My progress is going slow, I never remember to ask or say certain things. I'm not a gung-ho lucid dreamer, I can't get into it all. I tried directly controlling things before, but it always backfires or wakes me up. I like the idea of this dreamguide however, because perhaps I can ask them to protect me and help me get better or something. I haven't been able to get many lessons yet. The only one I got (if it was one) was that being in darkness does not necessarily always wake me up. Before I had that dream, I thought if I was in total darkness or closed my eyes that I would wake up, because it had happened before, I thought.
Anyway, I have found out her name is Nancy. She has been consistently appearing as female (minus that first time when for some reason it was a man that wasn't at all helpful and scared me rather than comforted me, but still claimed he was indeed my guide), but I have yet to pin down what her exact look is. Though this time I'm remembering her as blonde, and younger than the last time. Possibly my own age. This is possibly due to the fact that I didn't care for her appearance as an overweight woman that reminded me of one of my elementary school teachers.
I did ask her if there was a way I could more easily remember everything that happened to me when I woke up. Since I'm not into writing everything down in a journal or that mess, since I have to get up and GO when I get up. She gave me two things that I was supposed to take like medicine. I put them in my mouth, and she was like "Make sure such-and-such one goes first.", and I switched them but then I started to wake.
I did remember most of that dream though. Including a bit where people explained that all colors in the dream world are different somehow. Also how I told her I wanted to have an "action movie" dream with car chases and shootouts and big fight scenes and explosions and scantily clad women that I must save from peril. She laughed, and that made me sad, because I wanna do that, darn it.
One more thing to add to an earlier post. I asked Nancy where she was from, and she said only, "the future". This kinda weirded me out, because things have been told to me in past dreams about things that would happen in the future. I'm wondering if they're going to come true. For example, I was walking with a girl whose company I was enjoying and I said will we ever meet and she told me the date (this next Monday, actually), and that we would eventually get married. Plus I can also remember a time when I was younger and I was talking to some other girl (I like girls... buzz off), and told her my Mom was having money problems and that I wanted some... kid something, probably a videogame, but I couldn't get it. She said 5 numbers to me, I said what do they mean, she said "Just remember.", and I woke up but could only remember 3. Told my Mom about it, she said maybe they were for the lottery with a smile on her face and we tried the 3 I could remember and then 2 other random ones. The 3 I remembered were right, and we won like a hundred bucks and I got my game.
So, perhaps this is true. If I meet a girl next Monday that I really hit it off with, I'm gonna flip out. I wonder what would happen if I stayed inside, and didn't go out at all. Would this still come true, would I have changed it, or was that what I was supposed to do and it still happens? Am I going to meet this girl no matter what? Will I? I can't think about it or my head might explode.
I'm going to try to keep asking her to help me control my own dreams, but can't ever seem to remember it. I do always remember to ask her if she IS my dreamguide before I proceed though. There's too many questions I wanna ask, darn it all!
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