Hello, I just joined and have a dream that I would appreciate any help interpreting! I apologize if this gets long!
My Mom passed away on the 12th of last month at 49 due to liver and kidney failure, it happened very fast and I felt frustrated because I didn't get to talk to her like I had wanted to. A few months prior to this I had discovered lucid dreaming and tried it out (it didn't work) and I didn't try it again. However, in about March/April I started to become aware I was dreaming, but as soon as I'd realize this I'd pull out. I've been doing that at a very significant rate for the past few months, especially this last month. For awhile after my Mom had passed I would have dreams about her and in every dream I had she was sick, and either in the hospital or asking me to take her to the hospital. While she was in hospice and I would talk to her (although she couldn't respond) I had asked her to visit me, and I asked her to do that quite a few times. Just a few nights ago I talked aloud to her for the first time after she had died and asked if I could feel her in any way. Now that's the background information, sorry had to get it out of the way (and I want to apologize if this isn't exactly a spiritual type of forum!)
So last night I was awake at about 2 AM and had been researching lucid dreaming again, I downloaded this app and put it on the lucid setting. I started to relax and I immediately saw a scene: My Mom was standing on a very rocky beach, I could hear the water and it was sunny with a breeze, she was standing there wearing a very flowy dress (which she never wore) her hair was the color she had it when she died (she dyed it often) but she wasn't sick. She was looking at me and she had this smile on her face that I really have never seen. If I had to ever describe an "at peace" face that would be it. (I wasn't dreaming at this time at all. I was completely awake. But what's weird is that I wasn't day dreaming or fantasizing either. I wasn't controlling what my Mom was doing like I normally would in a "fantasy") I walked up to her and hugged her and she hugged me back. I started saying "I love you Mommy" out loud and it was so overwhelming I started to cry (in both this "dream" and in reality) I kept saying it hoping she would talk back but she just hugged me and looked at me with that same expression almost like she was saying it back. If I could put words to that expression they would be "I love you, but I'm okay, and so are you." We then laid down in the grass and I put my head under her armpit and wrapped my arm around her. Then it was done. It was the best experience I've ever had.
Now most of you are probably thinking, "Wow! Great experience! Whether it was a dream or not that's great." There is one thing I haven't mentioned that happened while I was looking at her at the beginning, her eyes would turn "scary" for lack of a better term. Like demonish, but it would only last a few seconds. The reason why this didn't sound me off during the "dream" is I tend to picture evil s*** like this throughout my day anyway, I'm weird. But now after looking more into lucid dreaming I've come across the people (and I am not religious, but spiritual) who say it's the "dark side's" tricks to do things like this. I'm just curious as to what you all have to say about this, has anybody ever experienced this? I remember when I was young and would do seances and people would always say, "Careful who you let in" and I'm wondering if lucid dreams are like that. Totally crazy question I know!
The thing is the dream left me more with a feeling of knowing my Mom is at peace and I have more closure now (even though I really wish I could see her again, which I'm sure is common with most people with this kind of experience) Any advice? I want to get more into lucid dreaming and OBE's and such, but should I just keep it simple and not seek anybody out, and wait for them to seek me out? Sorry for the extraordinarily long post and crazy questions, any responses are highly appreciated!