Thread: Acertine's Mental Health Journal

Non LD

I don't remember how the dream started so I will start in the middle:

I am a character in one of my favorite video games, me and a couple of my "friends" (theses are characters in the game but in the dream they were my friends) we were trekking across this wasteland sort of area, I couldn't see the sky, I had sort of a double vision thing going on, I was seeing things in first person but I was also seeing things like I would if I was sitting in my chair at my computer, all at the same time, it was pretty wierd, we were going along, and then we were ambushed by four other guys, we took out three of them pretty easy but the fourth one was tough, we surrounded him and all of a sudden he sits himself in a cross-legged position, so I'm thinking "Cool, he is giving up" but then my companions do the same thing, and they start chanting this wierd spell thing, at this point I thought it was kind of funny because since this was my video game setting, everything they said appeared about their heads in little yellow lettering, I watched this for a few minutes and I think "this is so stupid" so I run forward and try to chop his head off but as soon as my sword comes close to him a wave of energy knocks me in the chest and I start to fly back across this wierd crevasse with a bottomless abyss thing going on, and when I get to the other side I see my "friends" are there too, and they all look at me and say "Great, thanks dude, now we are all dead" and before I can say anything they push me into the abyss and i fall into the black and suddenly I have a false awakening and I'm in the office of my first job, (I used to work in the produce department of a local grocery store) and my boss comes up to me and pats me on the shoulder and says "Hey buddy, I'm off so you need to do what Mel says ok?" and I tried to tell him that I don't work there anymore but he just walked out the door, and I look behind me and there is Mel mopping the floor for some reason (we never cleaned the office, the owner always paid someone to do it) and she laughs and says "He can't hear you he is dreaming" (this should have made me LD but for some reason it didn't) so I just go along with it and I put on my apron and I go out to see what we need to fill up and when I walk out the store is completely empty, no people, the shelves are completely bare, but I just think "great, they leave all the work for me as usual" so I start walking down the section when out of nowhere comes this big ugly troll thing and he pushes me to the ground, but I get back up and I push him back and say "What the hell was that for Tucker?" and he just looks at me and walks away, so I walk back into the back room but instead of looking like what its supposed to look like, its this big, well lit, completely white room, and I go and sit in a corner and watch as Mel is riding around on the mop that she was mopping the office with.....

and thats about all I can remember, it was a wierd dream, pretty stupid, I think

Sex LD - Dolphins Suck


Ok, so I was in my room cleaning it up because I wanted to have a girl over, for some reason I didn't just make my room clean since I was lucid, but anyway I'm sitting there cleaning and its just about done when she just walks into the room, now someone must have told her what I had in mind because she showed up in this sexy little number, it was hott, pink thigh highs, with a shear thong and see through bra, I almost lost control of the dream right there, so we close the door and I do that little clap thing like on the movies and the lights dim and some funk music starts playing, the low light only made her look even more sexy as she was laying there on my bed slowly sucking on a lollipop (yep im one of those kind of guys) so I sit down next to her and we start to make-out and I do the usual things, I start to take off her bra and I hear a voice say "Oh man, hes blowing it, moving too fast as usual" but I ignore it and keep on going, and I start kissing my way down, and she is letting off quiet little moans as I do my stuff and then I hear the voice again "Hey, this guy is good, really knows his stuff, even though he has only had sex in his dreams, hahahahaha" and then she stops moaning and says "Hey will you guys shut up, your ruining the experience" and I was like "what?" and at this point I look around the room and there in front of my closet are these two dolphins sitting in lawn chairs smoking cigars, rating me on my performance, and I said to them "Whoa! I didn't invite you guys, what are you doing here" and they say "Watching the show, what do you think we are doing" and at this point I remember that I have control of what I am doing and what goes on so I say "Well this is a private party and you two weren't invited" (now don't ask me why I am talking to dolphins cause I don't know) so I poof them out of my room but I still hear one last litte "Asshole!" in the distance, and i turn back and continue what I was doing, but before I could finish the dream I woke up, and I still blame those damn dolphins for making me miss what could have been the best dream I have ever had, Dolphins suck

Careful with those titles, I thought that was going to be a beastiality dream!

Nice dream. The clapper setup was stylin', and those dolphins commenting literaly made me laugh out loud.

A different color for the LD sections would make your dj a little easier to read.

Haha, ya, I should go and fix that

Haven't posted for a few days, I have been having a sort of dry spell lately, my dream recall is really off, I know that I have been having dreams but I haven't been sleeping well so they are sporadic and for the most part indistinguishable, mostly the only way I can describe it is like wandering through a dark room with random flashes of light and picture, sound and smell, I did have a dream that I can somewhat remember last night but the details are extremely fuzzy:

I was in my uncles basement playing his new Wii, it was this game that I don't think actually exists, I was in medieval Japan or China or something, and I was dressed up in the whole samurai outfit and had this huge hand and a half sword, and with the Wii controller I couldn't really do anything but get my butt kicked by this big giant dude, then my brother comes in and tells me that I am using the wrong controller and that I need to use the interactive sword, and he pulls out a sword controller that looks like a plastic version of the sword in the game, and when I used that I dominated at the game

thats all I can remember, I think it has something to do with current events in my life, the Wii in the basement is there because the night before I was at a family party at my uncles and thats what everyone was playing, the medieval Japan thing I think is because right before I went to bed I was watching the newest episode of "Heroes" and Hiro ends up in Medieval Japan at the scene of a battle, whatever...

I'm trying not to get frustrated about not having any LDs for a while but its hard not to get annoyed


(and from now on I will post the Lucid parts of my dreams in red)

Haven't written in my DJ for a while, I had this dream last night, pretty cool but in many ways strange from the outlook of how my dreams usually take place, i'll explain in the text,

from now on:
Lucid parts will be in blue
Normal parts will be in black


9/21/07

It was homecoming night and I had already picked up my date and was pulling into the parking lot of the restaurant, it was very strange because the restaurant was in the location of the local supermarket by my house, but the parking lot was completely empty and the surrounding shops had disappeared, plus it being sunset kinda gave it that whole apocolypse last person on earth kinda feel, no one driving on the roads, which is very wierd for my dreams because usually I fill in all the details, traffic, extra scenery, but not tonight

anyway, we go into the restaurant and it also is very empty, although the walls are very detailed and decorated nicely with floral patterns of vines and the such, and there is a koi pond in the middle of the room (oh ya, this is a sushi restaurant by the way) there are only two tables in the entire restaraunt, one on the right side of the room dead center, its view is blocked by a rice paper partition, and another, which is our table because my best friend Damon and his date are waiting for us, is in the far left corner also with a rice paper partition on its right side

we walk over and I seat my date at the table, then I notice a stain on my shirt and I excuse myself to the bathroom, which suddenly appears on the other side of our rice paper partition (see now, all these strange things would normally trigger in my mind that this is a dream, but it didnt) so I go in and now this is the only part of the dream with a massive ammount of detail, the bathroom is HUGE, it is completely lit by candle light with candles on posts in front of every stall, and there was probably twenty stalls, the walls were filled with candles of every size shape and color, the floors were made of a polished gray black marble, and at the far end was one gray granite like sink with a giant mirror with scupted dragons and such all the way around the edge of it, I thought to myself that it was very cool and medieval

I go over to the mirror and check myself out and notice that I am not wearing what I would usually wear on a date like this, my usual black silk shirt is replaced by a faded ugly worn out brown shirt made of wool or something and on top of that it is covered all down the back in some sort of sticky syrup like stuff, my tie is still the really nice red silk tie that I always wear but its all wrinkled and faded, and my pants are my black work pants with all the repaired seems and wrinkles and stains all over them, I start freak out and try to make myself look as good as I can, I manage to straighten out my tie, I try to rinse off some of the stains on my shirt and I hear the rest of our group arrive outside the door, so I forget about my outfit and go out but no one is there

I ask Damon what the hell is going on cause I could have sworn I heard Jake's voice, and he said that him and another guy that joined in our group at the last minute didn't like each other and they got in a fight so the rest of the group left, but he said that Jake and the rest of them would still meet up at Damon's house after the dance, so I was ok with that, and I sat down and apologized to my date about how I looked and asked her if it was ok if after dinner I ran home real quick to change, she looked at me wierd and said "What are you talking about? you look amazing" I looked down at myself and what had beeen the ugly disgusting clothes earlier had turned back into my good looking clothes, which from the looks of it were completely clean pressed and I have to say I looked mighty handsome (yet again, so many times in this dream I should have become lucid but I didn't)

we were about to order when the dream faded away...

I can't recall very much of the rest of the nights dreams, I remember one part I was sitting in the back office where I work and I was checking myself out in the mirror and I had gained like fifty pounds in the dream my face was all pudgy and bloated and my clothes were tight, it was gross, but the rest is just clouded in memory now

feel free to give me some feedback I love to hear what you guys think about my dreams

First LD in a while last night, the lucid part was rather short but the dream was still vivid so I count it as a win situation

Pillows and Nuclear Holocaust


Dream starts out with a camping setting, me and my two brothers are at our traditional family camp spot packing up to go home, for some reason there is a giant warehouse in the middle of the spot, but I pay no attention to that. Me and my brother are arguing about who gets to drive as I go back and forth between the warehouse which is filled with wall to wall pillows (yep, the white fluffy kind) and start stuffing my car with them, he is giving me the whole I am too tired to drive all the way home so he should be able to drive speech, but im not listening, so I stuff the car to bursting with pillows, almost suffocating my other brother in the back seat and we pile in and start heading down the road

its mostly a forest road and after a few miles the road opens up into this town with a wide open field in the middle, the road is blocked with parked cars and it seems that the entire town has congregated in the field at the center of town, so I park my car and me and my brothers go over to check things out, we start to hear people talking about war and bombs coming towards us, and I look up and see a streak of flames coming towards the field I am standing in, suddenly my vision goes to the point of view of the plane and I watch the nuke fall out of the bombers belly and come hurtling toward me

I watch as people are starting to panic and run away, but I just time it right and as the bomb is about to hit the ground I jump high up into the air and float out of harms way of the blast, I watch as shockwaves ripple across the ground wiping out everyone in its path into a cloud of dust, as the shockwaves slow down I see the dust start to reform into a Warner Bros. Logo, like at the beginning of a movie, only its shaped like bones, then this happy music starts up as the comedic scene plays out below me, a skeleton boy riding his bike delivering newspapers passes a skeleton man watering his flowers as a skeleton dog runs out barking at the boy on the bike, then the view settles as a little skeleton boy and girl come out from behind a house and start walkind down the road, I am pretty sure that they are asian cause (this is going to sound hella racist) their empty eye sockets are almond shaped like live asians (I know, I laughed when I was writing this down cause its so rediculous) so I follow the two as they come to a house and before they can knock a very hott totally non skeleton Asian lady comes out wearing nothing but a very revealing pink bikini, and askes them to come in

as they walk in the scene changes and everyone is back to normal, but the girl is gone, the lady is still in the pink bikini though , the little boy sits at the table with a sad expression on his face, the hott lady goes into the kitchen and comes out with a little cake on a plate and the little boy downs it in one bite, the hott lady says to the boy "I stayed up making spice cakes all night, just for you, all you can eat" the boy just looks sad and says "I'm not hungry... do you think she is ever coming back?" (I am assuming he is talking about the little girl he was with before) the hott lady frowns and says to him "I don't think so, and I think you just need to accept that" (she says his name, but I can't remember what it was) and when she says that the boy jumps up yelling "then I will have to go get her"

the scene changes again, its dark and me and the little boy are in this small concrete enclosure with a gate, not much bigger than an office cubicle, with no roof, the sky is clear and it reminds me of where we keep the dumpsters at the pizza shop I work at, I look over to the boy and he is scribbling little nonsense love poems all over what seems to be a textbook, I look around and the enclosure is filled with the textbooks, to me they look like the books I used to use in my physics class, I pick one up and instead of the "Physics" title, it says something like "Modern Idioms" and I think "thats not right" and BAM im lucid

I look around and it seems that the enclosure is in some sort of neighborhood and it is lit by one single street lamp, I look into the distance and see Dracula's castle on the horizon, complete with lightning, its in black and white, the works, but the sky above me is clear, not a cloud in sight, then I hear a loud BANG! and I spin around to see a giant cartoon green dragon across the street is spitting fireballs at the enclosure gate slamming it closed and when it starts to swing back open, another fireball and another bang, as more and more fireballs hit it, its starts to melt, and I think "Damn, I wish this place wasn't made of wax", and with that the whole enclosure starts to melt really fast, I look over to the boy who is still writing in his textbook, totally un phased by the dragon across the street and I ask him if he knows how to make the dragon go away, he looks up and smiles and says "let me try something" and he stands up book in hand and throws it in the direction of the dragon, the dragon gets distracted by the book for a few seconds, and the boy turns on the spot, winks at me, then dissappears with a POP!

I take the few moments that the dragon is distracted to jump into the air and start flying down the street, I soon realise that its my home neighborhood that I am in, I look back just in time to dodge out of the way of a massive fireball and see that the dragon is following close behind me, slowly closing the gap, but I just smile, this is a dream, and I put on a burst of speed and start weaving between houses, and doing barrel rolls, all sorts of acrobatics, but no matter what the dragon still keeps on coming, spitting fireballs the entire time, suddenly a fireball gets to close for me to dodge and I punch out with my fist expecting to get burned but instead the fireball hits an invisible barrier around my hand and bounces away, then I see that the dragon follows the fireball until it goes out then heads right back towards me, I think to myself "gotta find something that will burn longer" he fires off a few more and I hit them away not hitting anything, then I see what I'm looking for, a giant oak tree a few miles south, i think to myself "this will take a lot of energy, but I gotta try" so the next fireball that comes at me I summon all my strength and in a shower of blue sparks I send the fireball flying right at the tree and it bursts into green flames, and as I expected the dragon flew right to the blazing tree like a moth to the light

happy with myself for my clever accomplishment I turn in midair ready to start some fun LDing and I find myself staring at a blank white completely surrounding me "huh?"

my alarm clock went off and that was the end of it

Nukes and dragons, you're dreaming about the big guns! Some of my lucid wake ups end in a white out as well.