My warped reality

[mark]

Hello everyone So I have decided to keep my journal on here in an attempt to keep me using it. My reasons for this is because I have every now and then I have forgot to enter dreams into my diary due to some stressful events that occoured latley. So to give a little bit of info about me. Im 23 live in Newcastle England. I am currently working for a bank which is ok ...pays the bills I guess. I have visited this site alot just have not posted to many things lol. How this will work. Normal dreams will be in Black Lucid dreams will be in Blue Hypnagogic Imagery will be in Magenta Commentry will be in Green Goals I set myself will be in Red Please feel free to comment if you wish to..your opinions will be more than welcome and any tips on structure or anything like that will be much appreciated. thanks

[mark]

6th January 2007 My first journal entry and first lucid dream Im in a old fashioned living room with red and brown flowery patterned wall paper. There is a worn browny colour chair next to the TV simillar to the one out of the matrix. In the centre of the room is a shower basin filled with water. I am washing a small animal its about the size a a king prawn and has the head of a Elephant and the body of a prawn. Its colour swerled between pink and purple. I thought that this was not right infact this was insane then it hit me and I shouted "Dam im dreaming!!" I looked at my hand and had a extra finger coming out of my little finger. I looked again this time I had 8 fingers. I looked around everything began to fade slowly. (I had read that spining helps clear things up) I span but I did not work and tried again this time it work a treat and everything was very clear. My first thought was flying! I ran outside and found myself in a industrial estate surrounded by porta cabins. I pushed off the ground about a 5 or 6 inches but my brother grabed mmy arm and said "what are you doing, you cant do that" I pushed him off me and sprang into the air so fast it shocked me. Everything was bluring past blue and white then I landed hard on a beech and made a bit of a crater. The beech was dark and there were lots of little fires around, I could see people at the edge of my vision. I was standing next to a life gaurd hut like the ones from baywatch and behind it was a girl I liked. I tried to kiss her but woke up.. That waqs my first lucid dream I was so excited I never slept for the rest of the night and that week was one of the best weeks of my life

[mark]

7th January 2007 Brief encounter with my Dad Im in a Jeep in the front seat and driving is a blond woman who I pressume to be my dads wife. In the back seats are 2 lads and my brother Shaun. We drive into a supermarket car park to pick up my dad. He drops the shopping trolly and spills the contents everywere ...I wake up

[mark]

08 January 2007 First annoying encounter with false awakening I woke up in my bed but everything was fuzzy kind of like I could not see right. I had just assumed it was cbecause I was very tired but that was not the case. I entered 2 lengthy dreams into my diary then went back to sleep only to find that I actually had just dreamed this.

[mark]

9th January 2007 Evil doctor I was someone else imn my dream. I am getting married (or am I? ...I cant remember if its me or if im at someone other persons wedding) The wedding is interupted by an announcement that a evil doctor has a space station filled with poison and he intends to release it and kill every one. I saved the world by flying up to the station in a rocket and blowing it up. Hasselhoff I am in my house or something similar. I am in my mums room the walls have a strange pattern on them, like a target you would find omn a Archry range but only about 1 cm across. My mum, step dad and Shaun are laughing because Kurt D (a friend I have not seen in 7 years) and David Hasselhoff have circled all the patters with a green highligter pen then number them.

[mark]

10 January 2007 Ex Girlfriend Im in the bath I know donna is comming to Newcastle (its were I live) for a massive wedding she is planning. I was determind not to get her a wedding pressent but I felt really guilty so I decided I would head to town to buy something for her. Im in Newcastle Eldon square (which is a large shopping center) I went into a shop and it was full of people on drugs and one man kept coming up to me asking if I wanted to by some Exctasy for my stomach (I have a condition that has caused me alot of pain latley). I left that shop and bought some chocolates for her...but only cheap ones because im still angry at her. The shopping mall was being dressed up for the wedding. There was a Old lady walking around who was renting out small Huskie puppies. I rented 8 of them because I thought it would be nice for them to follow Donna down the aisle. Scart TV ?? Steph gave me a Scart TV box (dont know what this is lol) it has 72 channels of High Def. I got it installed in time for Christmas. Lucid dream No2 Tongiht I tried to WILD. I was lying there for a while and felt a strange tingling feeling. after a while I seemed to fall my bed this scared me so I sat up in bed. Everything was hazy and had a strange yellow/green tinge to it. I done some reality checks and realised I was dreaming. I picked up my phone and on the screen it had a picture of a forrest. I knew for sure I was dreaming now. I put my head against the screen and fell into the forrest. (I had read on here about someone shouting for weapons to appear) so I shouted for a shot gun and one appeared. I picked it out of the air and proceded to shoot some animals. I then decided I would see if I could find a part of my personality, I got slightly distracted by the view of the mountains in the distance which I thought to be beautiful. I continued looking for my personality. I came across a puddle of water and it formed its self into what I took to be my paranoia. It said something to me but I cant remember what he said. I think I may have asked it "why am I the way I am?" He then turned into Russel Brand and I lost lucidity. I woke up

[lizmunchausen]

6th January 2007 My first journal entry and first lucid dream Im in a old fashioned living room with red and brown flowery patterned wall paper. There is a worn browny coulur chair next to the TV simillar to the one out of the matrix. In the centre of the room is a shower basin filled with water. I am washing a small animal its about the size a a king prawn and has the head of a Elephant and the body of a prawn. Its colour swerled between pink and purple. I thought that this was not right infact this was insane then it hit me and I shouted "Dam im dreaming!!" I looked at my hand and had a extra finger coming out of my little finger. I looked again this time I had 8 fingers. I looked around everything began to fade slowly. (I had read that spining helps clear things up) I span but I did not work and tried again this time it work a treat and everything was very clear. My first thought was flying! I ran outside and found myself in a industrial estate surrounded by porta cabins. I pushed off the ground about a 5 or 6 inches but my brother grabed mmy arm and said "what are you doing, you cant do that" I pushed him off me and sprang into the air so fast it shocked me. Everything was bluring past blue and white then I landed hard on a beech and made a bit of a crater. The beech was dark and there were lots of little fires around, I could see people at the edge of my vision. I was standing next to a life gaurd hut like the ones from baywatch and behind it was a girl I liked. I tried to kiss her but woke up.. That waqs my first lucid dream I was so excited I never slept for the rest of the night and that week was one of the best weeks of my life washing a prawn elephant sounds jokes

[Caradon]

LOL! Funny Toilet dream! Sunday night, I too had a dream where I was in a public place naked. Walking through a grocery store. a security guard came after me. I told him that there was an emergency, and I was in such a hurry I forgot to put cloths on. He believed me too lol. And I didn't get into trouble for it.

[mark]

What the heck kind of money do you have over there? Getting cut by it....?? That's some crazzzyyyyyyy shit, yo. Ok, and on a serious note... Do you think if a guy has a female orgasm in a dream, he'll still wake up... a mess? ha ha yeah that was some dangerous money ha ha dam this is gonna be embarrassing ..... I only do that with a very few non lucid dreams so I hope not...ha ha but like I say I will report back lol Yea Mark's journal has become quite the meeting spot. Good stuff....its always good to have people here, now if only there were some beerlol Man, funny stuff in here. By the way, even though experiencing orgasms in dreams. I don't remember ever waking up a mess before. ha ha yeah some funny stuff been going down here like!

[mark]

25 October 2007 No Dreams Continuing with the tradition of this last week I have no dreams to report. Due to some serious family issue that went on all thorough the night I didnt get to sleep until after 5.30am....annoyingly I had to be up at 6.30am so I dont even think I had any dreams. but meh I took some time off work so I may even take a nap today see if I can manage a wild

[Adam]

Hope your family issues sort them self out dude!

[meggyfayephotography]

everything will get better mark. thing's always get worse before they get better. but they will get better.

[mark]

26 October 2007 - NAP I remember afew fragments from my nap. I got quiet far with oneironaught_jeff777 technique but fell asleep. Fragment 1 Its a winter day everything is coated in snow and everything has a crisp blue shine to it. Im in a garden surrounded by houses, there are 2 large trees with square patches of bark missing off them. Someone says "it looks like it has been removed like wallpaper." Fragment 2 There is a cage I step into which houses a portal, when I step im I feel my body shatter but not painfully and get draged into the portal. I dont think im gonna get much sleep again tonight my stepdad has gone out on the drink again....dam there is probably gonna be some more shit going down tonight

[mark]

Hope your family issues sort them self out dude! everything will get better mark. thing's always get worse before they get better. but they will get better. hey thanks alot I hope things do get better

[mark]

.. I have always hated bugs and this would be my worse nightmare! yeah they were horrible things! and it was worse when they came out my skin! yuk we have had a lot of ticks here the last couple of years. Up at the cabin, your dream was practically a reality for me. At least in the spring anyway. man thats bad! must be really annoying do they hurt at all? i have never seen one Nice observation skills. Sounds like you were hungry (and maybe a little itchy) last night. its funny you say that because I was starving when I woke up this morning lol and after that bug dream I was sweating which was not nice Haha i think it's funny that you decribed the restaurant as an American Dinning place! :p The food does not sound AT ALL like Thai. *suddenly wants some Pad Thai* yummmm Uhhh the ticks are disgusting! To say the least... And I think it's sad that you sold the whale lol I hope I never offended anyone with that its just it reminded me of something you see on movies....sorry if I did. yeah the food clearly is not Thai lol stupid sub conscious of mine lol....Pad Thai is lovley, I once had this rice stuff that came in a hollowed out pineapple mmm that was nice lol. yeah that whale dream was not very nice. See I actually like animals etc I hate to see them hurt its wierd that in the dream I did that.

[mark]

31 October 2007 Last night was good for dreaming I remember some dreams, only problem is that they are somewhat complicated on dialog. so they are a long read sorry Iraq Debate (there is some sensitive material in her please dont be ofended) There is a chain of islands where me and another person have visited. I am on one of the islands that looks like the street just round the corner from were I live. There is a old woman with a dog and I notice the dog is injured. Because I am a vet I ask if I can have a look at her dog and she brings him over. The dog is a labrador with golden hair which is short. Its right eye is swollen severly and is soft and lumpy to the touch, the lump spreads down behind its ear and I can clearly see that when I touch the bump the dog is in pain. I tell my assistant to start running some test and he runs off down a lane to get things started. I cant do anything here so I head off to another Island. This other Island also looks like another street from near where I live. There is an Asian girl sitting in a garden on a folding chair and she has a hat on, she is watching as I approach 2 girls to ask them some questions about a illness that some people have got. One of the girls makes a offensive comment (it may have been something like who do I think I am? a hero?) and I walk away and get into a stretch limo parked on the road. Me and another person are driving through a city and I see we are stuck in traffic on approach to a round about. He is angry at me and says "The British troops over in Iraq are worse then the Americans troops and dont tell me any diffrent", I dont think he will agree with what im going to say to him but I decide to be honest and tell him "I have seen the way the media in America tell the story of Iraq, its sensored to a high degree. They never show the bad stuff and only show the so called good stuff. The British are just as bad but no worse" He looks even more annoyed and says "oh come on are you telling me that if your were there in Iraq you wouldnt fight for the Americans or the British" and I now am getting annoyed and tell him "No actually I wouldnt. Firstly I think the war is disgusting and totally against everything I stand for and secondly what use is it. Its stupid we invade a country to try to deal with the smallest minority of people, if we have acheived anything it is to make the situation worse." Ex Girlfriend Fragment Im lying on the floor of my front room, there are candles all around and im lying beside D. We are kissing and we are hugging alot. Eviction Im Coming home from work and im getting on the metro when I see my cousin F. I ask her how her college is going and im confused because she should be im Preston so I ask why she is here in Newcastle. She gets all defensive and changes the subject. I say bye to her at the top of my street and continue to my house, I notice I have an erection (lol how embarrassing) and im trying my hardest to hide it so no one in the street can see. I enter into my house, which in my dream was a flat. Im walking up the stairs when I see the land lord polishing the banister (he looks the the land lord from spiderman) I walk past him and he follows me and I enter my flat into the living room. He says to me "Have you or have you not got a cat in here" I know I have been busted so I tell him "yes but we are only looking after it for a friend..err you see he just lost his flat so....er we have to look after it for a couple of days until he gets his new flat sorted" Suddenly I see a streek of black and I realise its Mattie (the name of my cat) he runs and claws at the wall. I shout at it and think dam of all the times to act up why now. The land lord is angry and he tells me "I have packed your stuff for you, now you can get out". I am begging him and telling him I will do anything to stay. He makes an offer saying that I can stay if I pay him £530 a month instead of £250 to which I tell him to fuck off. I offer to increase my rent by £30 a month but he refuses and finally I ask him to name his terms. He says to me "£5.75 for breakfast" im confused by this and I say what! I look down at D sitting on the floor she say that he said he will let us stay if D my girlfriend gives him a hand job every morning at which point I get annoyed and wake up.

[Moonbeam]

I notice I have an erection and im trying my hardest.

[tonythephatone]

i think i'd have smacked that landlord.....

[meggyfayephotography]

Ex Girlfriend Fragment Im lying on the floor of my front room, there are candles all around and im lying beside D. We are kissing and we are hugging alot. Ahh, is that what you meant by "those"?

[mark]

01 November 2007 OK last night was insane! I only recall 2 dreams none of which are lucid but man they were an experience Step dad OK this experience was freaky and is totally beyond anything I can explain so here is the dream I have a FA and have been awoken by my step dad opening his bedroom door, he walks along the passage way and opens the front room door by mistake then opens my brothers door and switches off his TV (my brother falls asleep with it on all the time) and then goes back to bed. Now here is the freaky and totally unexplainable bit. I am lying there running through my dream (I do this every time I wake from a dream to get the details) and when I have it firmly in my mind I reach down to the side of my bed to pick up my DJ. Suddenly some one comes out my partents room accidently opens the front room door, changes their mind goes into my brothers room switches off his TV and heads back to bed exactly like my dream. Now I thought im still dreaming so I do a bunch of RC's and there is no way im dreaming...its real!.....now I have just asked my step dad about this and he tells me that it is what he did last night ...brings a whole new meaning to deja vu Epic Battle Im in a garden there is a greenhouse in the center of the space. I walk upto the door, look through and see 2 people arguing. One of them throws a punch at the other and they start really kicking off. I walk away and enter into a room. Some bloke comes upto me and says "I like your hair it looks good for smoking weed" and I look at him speechless and I spot a painting on the wall behind him. The painting is of a half constructed bridge which ends in mid air, the sceen is dark and its an ariel view. I ask the bloke who painted this and tell him that I have seen this and it actually happened in real life. He puts his hand on my shoulder and before I can turn around he teleports us to the place in the painting. I fall through the air and land hard on the ground whilst he floats in the air. Suddenly there is a blinding flash in front of me and an explosion. There is a man running towards us firing white energy blast, we run as fast as we can and hide in a derilict building. The blasts keep coming and they pass through the walls leaving holes behind them. I turn into a Super saiyin and dodge the beams at super speed as they pass by me. I fly through the now non existant wall and try to throw a kick at the man but he just bats me away and I land on the ground in a crater, I throw my own energy blast at him but he paws it away and I know he is massivley stronger then me. The person I came with, also a super saiyin but at a much higher level, throws a ball of energy to him but he catches it and absorbs it. He tries to fight hand to hand but fails. Im hiding from the man now and im in a floating conservatory (but without the glass) Someone is leaning against a fountain which is in the centre of the room and they press a button which lights up and releases a golden set of scales which I pick up. Another person tells me there are 3 other objects that I need to collect and then place in a temple. Its the only way to kill him. I collect the next item which is a cup (I cant remember where I got it and I also cant remember where I got the next item or what it is) and im going through a dumping place full of old food to get the last item which is a small vase and I empty a piece of rotten fruit out of it back into the pile of rubbish. Im at the enterance to the temple which is located in the middle of a grave yard. Im flying over and jumping from the grave stones towards the temple and I see a massive T-Rex comming my way. It is made of Black rock that glows red with heat near its mouth, I know that this thing is the man im running from, I dont know how but he has transformed into the beast. I hide behind a large grave stone as it passes and then make a run for the temple. It spots me and I can hear it crashing through the grave stones behind me, I jump and leap off a nearby grave and fly into the air just in time to miss its huge jaws snap shut on were I would have been. I notice its head glows more brightly and think it must be angry. I land in the temple and run up and place the objects into the slots that are available for them, turn around and run towards a small square steel door in the wall. The man (back in human form but still made of black rock) is right behind me and is stretching his hands out to grab me when I fling the door open. Behind the door is a burning furnace which blasts out heat (im behind the steel door so am not in the line of fire) A voice echos from the door saying "ahhh! I hoped you would be made of stone" and the rock man melts away. I close the steel door and see my mum and shaun come running in. My hand is really hurting off were I burnt it off the door and I notice my skin is flaking. Im outside walking down a street getting draged off my mum, Shaun says "look dad is waiting for us with a motor bike". I laugh at shaun for calling kevin (my step dad) dad.

[mark]

Moonbeam - ha ha ha you have a sick sich mind lol....joking Tonythphatone - now why didnt I think of that lol he was a smug bastard! very annoying lol Meggy - yeah thats what I meant...sorry sometimes im not very good at explaining things

[mark]

Interesting movie based dream... though it does sound kind of twisted if you ask me, how could they not notice a dinosaur just so-far away from you guys! ha ha yeah it was kind of twisted I guess those things from silent hill creep me the hell out! lol those dinosaurs where made...so realistic Hmm, zombies sound familiar....and more dinosaurs! I think mine and caradon's dreams are merging with yours. I'm going to find out if nosebleeds could be a side effect of B6 for you. I don't think so, but I want to make sure. Yea, mark I can't find that as a side effect. Maybe it's just dry in your house. phew!! Im glad that is not one of their side effects! I have been taking twice the daily allowance lol yep you's two are my greatest influence on here lol your falling dream influenced mine I think

[meggyfayephotography]

Your Shoulders dream sounded REALLY nasty! It's a good thing you felt no pain! How weird was it that you carried a spare set of shoulder muscles with you Congrats on two lucids in one night! I love flying in dreams, but it's so much better when you're lucid.

[mark]

Cool Mark, we both got Lucid last night! Isn't free falling awsome! It's my favorite Lucid activity. yeah lol your dream was mint very funny free falling was utterly incredible its like nothing I have ever felt. Its what I woulc expect base jumping or sky diving to be like. It was so intense! I can see why it would be your favorite activity Your Shoulders dream sounded REALLY nasty! It's a good thing you felt no pain! How weird was it that you carried a spare set of shoulder muscles with you sounds horrible but I didnt seem so at the time lol thats the second time I have had some strange surgery stuff going on. lol the spare muscles....my mind is twisted...what can I say ha ha

[Moonbeam]

Great dreams, mark! I never get tired of flying.