Thread: Zhaylin's Dreamlog

After not sleeping at all night before last, I fell asleep quickly and hard last night by 1AM. I woke up frequently throughout the night but fell right back to sleep. I woke this morning at around 9:30 freezing cold, needing to pee and feeling sick that I got up too quickly and now my dreams are tad jumbled.

The first concrete thing I recall is being in my grandmothers house. The house was a disaster. There was rotten food on the counters, floor and fridge. My kids had done it and I was very angry with them. I told them I was going out to pick up dinner but they couldn't have any until they cleaned up their mess. My daughter Zee had a friend come over unexpectedly and I was angry with her for having manipulated the situation so that I couldn't make the friend go home.
Then the dream started to change and I was somehow building a beach. I was supposed to drop a rock pillar on a certain area of the beach but the pillar fell into the water because I wasn't strong enough to move it all the way. I think of this part as if being in a video game. I didn't see myself at all, but was a force of energy or intention. Then I was at an airport and Debby R. from my congregation said you unlock a tool that helps (it was a wench or pulley of some sort). Somewhere along the lines I was aware of high heeled shoes and thought they were impractical for the situation.
Then I was back on the beach area, but in some woods. There were dwarfs and humans nearby and we were hiding from something, but they breathed so loudly I was certain we would be discovered. There was a little house in the distance so I rushed them all to it and told them to hide in there, to be quiet and to not turn on any lights. Then I tried to distract the bad guy away from the house.
Here's where things get confused. I was then pursuing the bad guy. He had my friends in captivity and I feared for their lives. Along a path though, I saw a bloodbath and one body, but in the trees nearby I saw the other 3 and I wept bitterly over them, especially a tall black man who had been a dear friend in the dream.
And then I woke up.

But I'm going back to sleep now, I think.

I woke back up at 2:30 and I am incredibly sick with something affecting my ears. Hubby never did get me my antibiotics so I need to ride him about those today. My ears are gurgling to such an extent that I'm constantly light headed. My nose is stopped up and I feel feverish. My ears and nose are so connected that I'm afraid my untreated sinus infection is moving to an ear infection but who knows, maybe it's just allergies or a cold or flu. I'll try allergy meds before taking antibiotics because I don't want to make myself immune to them.

Anyhow... I jumped right up out of dreams to answer the ringing phone and I lost my dreams in doing so. But the dreams want to be remembered so I keep getting twinges.
There was something to do with a snake... I'm remembering more now.
I was in a community with a lot of restaurants in the back. It was very late (after midnight) and I was afraid they were closed. One of the restaurants had a Hispanic employee who was incredibly rude to everyone so I passed him by. I went to another one and ordered but I couldn't carry everything at once. I found a table and set some stuff down. A black guy was with me somehow but I think we had just met. I went back for my things and found some of my stuff was on the counter with the rude man. He started up and I couldn't take it any more and told him off. I went back to my table and sat down but found I was boxed in by a group of black youths. They were polite and I moved.
I was then walking through a neighborhood afraid about something. I passed a house that had a miniature home (almost like a toy) in the yard that fascinated me for some reason. It looked like a burnt out shell and things like snakes seemed to be growing out of it and at other points seemed to be going toward it as if attacking.

I moved on and walked past a house with dead flowers growing. The flowers looked freeze dried but fresh and healthy. One was black, another yellow, another a pinkish color and I decided to take some samples.
Then I was walking through another yard with another miniature structure. It seemed to be moving so I knelt down and the walls of the place were moving as if breathing but with each breath it became a little bigger.
Then I understood that it was the miniature houses that was the source of my fear. I told the black guy with me that I knew were the source of it was and we rushed to the original one.

And there was a real snake. It was a huge green python and I wanted to protect it (???) but when we got there it had already been killed. I cautiously opened it mouth and its fangs and little teeth were covered in blood.

I have no idea what parts of this dream mean, but it must be important for me because it twinged so persistently that I finally remembered it.
Black people was a recurring theme from last night. The last time I dreamed of black people was after meeting with the kids lawyer and I met with him again yesterday. Do they appear thus in my dreams because it's the only time I interact with someone whose not white? That interpretation feels true.
But what about the rude Hispanic man? WHY was he Hispanic? I know me telling him off is from a desire to be more assertive, but why not a white guy or black guy. I'd REALLY like to tell off my kids lawyer, so he *should have been* a black guy. Instead, the black men in my dreams were kind, even dear to me.

Messy houses represent my own messy home which got me into trouble. The miniature houses could represent I view the problem as small, insignificant or that I'm larger than the problem and can handle it.
The breathing house had "a life of it's own" and the one with the snake like growths was being destroyed by forced both inside of it and outside. All represent forces out of control of people which contradicts me feeling I can handle the problem.

The restaurants were in the dream simply because I'm hungry lol

I have no idea what the beautiful dead yet alive flowers means.

The snake was the part that twinged most fiercely but it was at the end of the dream, so to remember it I had to remember the rest. It's the most important part of the dream but I don't know what it's trying to tell me.
Snakes, to me, represent evil, destruction, lies... and yet I wanted to protect it. It had just killed someone but I still felt compassion for it.
I think it may represent my children who seem to me to be forces beyond my control, who destroy all our homes and I am powerless to stop and for whom I receive all the blame of society. I had been consistent with them. I had grounded them, taken away things they enjoy, had even spanked them but they just turn to me and smirk and continue with their bad behavior.
Do I subconsciously wish they were dead?! I pray not!

I am so exhausted... more so after having gotten sleep than before
I fell asleep at around 1AM and my dog woke me around 4:30AM. She wasn't only barking but growling. There was something in the field that she did NOT like at all. I had to reassure her and tell her to "go to bed" (to her doghouse) 3 times before she finally stopped.
I fell right back to sleep and woke at 10:30. I had a cigarette then fell right back to sleep and woke again at 11:30.

I only remember snippets of dreams. In one, I was attending a bookstudy with my congregation and then I went out in the Ministry with them even though I was still df-ed and no one would talk to me, though I was asked a question during the meeting about "what does it mean to wait on Jehovah" (there was more to the question but I don't remember). I answered: "God is the Creator of everything including time so how could I presume to want things done my way or when I want them done? I have to trust that God will take care of all matters in his own time."
I also dreamed of my friend Rox but I don't recall the details.

In another dream there was a woman with her teeth missing from one side of her mouth. An alien or something was scooping up some stuff from her gums and eating it.

That's all I have...

After posting I smoked a cigarette then took my bp and it was nicely low 112/78 with a pulse of 80, I then took my sugar and it was unusually "high" for me at 111 (after fasting over night it's usually 95 but 111 is still normal). I chewed a piece of sugar free gum while I smoked, spit it out then I fell right back to sleep.
I woke up every 20-30 minutes until 2:30 because I leave to see 3 of my kids at 3:30 and I was worried about over sleeping. When I got up, I smoked a cigarette and took my bp which was 101/74 with a pulse of 108. Excellent! Then I took my sugar and it was 123 ??? I have reactive hypoglycemia (sp) which means after I eat my sugar will go up some, then it plummets very low, very quickly. It can also be a precursor for diabetis which runs heavily in my family.

I don't recall the dreams I had but I do remember they were disturbing. Perhaps I'll remember more as the day goes on.

I'll be back later. Time for me to get ready to leave.

*grrrrr* I was having an interesting dream when the phone rang and now I forget all of them.
It's twinging heavily though, so I may recall some of it.

I fell asleep at 2AM. I was thinking it was much too hot to keep my turtle neck shirt on and I resolved to take it off, then I promptly fell asleep before I actually could take it off lol
Hubby's call woke me up at 11AM and I am extremely groggy. My nose is very stopped up, my ears are still gurgling and my stomach still feels unhappy.
*blah*

**Edit**
All I can remember is being in my grandmothers house and it was very dirty. Even the walls were scribbled on to a large extent. But the characters seem off. I was married or getting married to my ex-husband and his family didn't approve of me in the dream. Then I was at a large meeting area and I had to sing with my ex-husband. I had to go to the restroom first, and on the way I met an old woman who was also going to sing a song with him. When we got out of the restroom though, he angrily held up his sign from his seat and indicated we had missed it.
I also dreamed something of going back to school. I was in a car with one of my childhood friends. I finally realized I couldn't just show up for class because it had been a year since I was last there. And as I thought of re-enrolling, I was worried if I would now qualify because I had no dependents.
I also dreamed of snakes again, but I can't recall it at all.

I went back to sleep at around noon and woke up at 1:30.
I had an interesting dream but many of the details are lost.

I was on a spaceship or somesuch and we were stuck in a time loop. The children were most sensative to it and noticed it first. Their behavior was very strange and they kept getting in trouble but then someone finally realized what was going on.
That dream was spliced with another. All these people lived in a sort of virtual reality. But someone on another ship created another virtual chamber. It was supposed to be for her and someone else only and had in it loved ones they had lost and times they wished had lasted longer. The authorities realized what was going on and they told her she had created the mess so it was up to her to make it right.
Then the spliced dream started playing in a sort of reverse. The children were seeing parents that had died and inanimate objects were acting oddly. I saw one man sawn apart by a laser beam. Then a counsel began appointing a replacement for him. His son kept getting in trouble insisting his father was really alive.
It was a very confusing but interesting dream.

In another dream, I was living at an apartment complex. My kids, of course, had trashed it and I was trying to get everything back under control. A neighborhood friend of my daughters brought a dog over that supposedly belonged to us and I tried desperately to keep her outside, so she was chained in the yard. My 13 year old daughter came out of the house with lasagna all over her arms and chest and when I pointed it out she was angry and went inside to clean up (she didn't know she had it on her). Then some firemen came to our house with a donation of food. I was ashamed of needing the charity but thanked them.

In yet another dream, I was at a conference with my husband. I was off exploring and saw him, so I made my way through the crowd to his side. He wanted a coke and some icecream and I wanted food. Up ahead was a Chinese booth, so I asked if I could get some food. He gave me $20. and I ordered some fried rice. He kept asking if he could look around and return and I pointed out it was closing time. The Chinese man spoke with a perfect American accent and showed off the sweet and sour chicken and the chicken breast that would have to be thrown out. As I ordered the food, I also ordered a pickax lol. Hubby complained that those cost $300. a day and I was astonished and told him I didn't need it if we weren't going to go exploring. He said I might as well bring it home with me even if we didn't get off our lazy butts and actually do something. But it was a rented item at $300. for 3 days and we were leaving in one, so I told the man I didn't want it after all.

I always feel so rotten when I wake up lol

I went to sleep last night at around 4AM and I woke up for the final time at 2:30PM. I tossed and turned as always, woke at 10 to use the restroom but fell right back to sleep afterwards.

I had a lot of dreams about dragons, eggs and sword fights thanks to spending hours listening to "Eldest: The Inheritance". But I recall nothing more.

When I fell back to sleep after going to the bathroom I dreamed my husband was having an apartment built for me and my kids at no cost because it was someone he knew and it was payment for a past favor. I worried it would be destroyed by my kids and he told me not to worry about it- it was free and small.
Then my hubby turned into an ex boyfriend Marty M. and he told me what he had done as the favor. He had been cutting corners as a mechanic. Someone sitting beside him scowled and I worried that he had spoken too openly.
Then I was at an airport or somesuch. A woman needed help with her children. The youngest was only days old and needed a diaper change. The diaper had leaked and crap was all over him and I regretted having volunteered lol
Then I was at a wedding. Someone's father had showed up unexpectedly and was sure to cause trouble. I, and someone else, took theater seats on the first row to see him better. I wanted my companion to go to the opposite end of the row to better see his face, but she wouldn't.
The seats rocked and out of nervousness, I rocked mine without thinking and I ended up rapping my head on the back of it very hard. I realized it was inappropriate for the occasion and focused again on the father.
Then I woke up.

Ugh. I didn't fall asleep until around 5 AM and I woke to pee at 9:50. I tossed and turned and woke frequently as always. I am sore all over and my throat hurts.

I only recall the smidge of a dream. I think I was driving a car at first but it broke down. Then I was walking down a street and after a time I started following a grumpy old man. I trailed behind him all the way to his house and even entered onto his large porch with him. The man turned and asked if I had to use the restroom or something. I was at a loss for words. I wanted him to follow me to Narnia but I didn't know how to broach the subject without sounding insane. So instead, I asked if this was his home and I said it was lovely. I then asked if the other house was also his home and he said yeah. Then I noticed his son for the first time, sitting in a chair. The two of them started talking about all the problems they were having with it and I related problems about the modular. I said what I'm famous for saying to my husband: "You can't be an absentee landlord. You need to be personally involved in all areas of your life because if your not, problems creep up and grow out of control." I then told him about a water leak the modular had years ago and how it ruined a lot of the flooring and walls. I then gave him a book of my adventures and said a few more words that I've forgotten and then I left.
Along the walk down the street, I came across some men laughing. A sheriff had scared everyone out of a certain area because of some danger. The men said the only "danger" was from a berry that was seen growing under a nearby porch that gives you instant happiness and an erection. Supposedly, it was occasionally produced by the scarecrows

Ah yes, while I was driving, something was throwing fireballs at me.
And when I started following the old man, I was balancing on a very low wall built up in front of the house near the underground garage of the home and the yard/street.

It's 10:10 and I'm going to try to go back to sleep.

I hope you figure out a way to sleep better. Hopefully being healthy again will help a little.

I woke up at 2:40 for the last time. The only dream I recall was that of being in a game of Spore lol. I made it all the way to the Space Stage, but I died and found myself back in the Creature Stage as one of my game creations. I was annoyed because I had made it so far, but I forgot to save and had to start almost all over again.
I was very cute as a dinosaur creature I "socialized" and battled throughout the dream with other creatures.

And now I think I shall go play the game some more in life

That's what I get for not refreshing a page before I add another post. I didn't even see your reply Robot Butler.
Thanks for your post. I don't know why I always feel like crap when I first wake up. Once I'm up for an hour or so I start feeling better.
Since my Sleep Study I'm more aware of my frequent wakings which are most annoying. The recuperative sleep I receive from sleeping is only half of the time. If I get 8 hours of sleep, my body registers it as 4. No wonder I'm always tired lol.

*sob*
I didn't fall asleep until around 8:30 this morning and my lawyer woke me up at noon. I tossed and turned excessively before then.
I have Court tomorrow morning so I doubt I'll sleep tonight at all and even now I'm no longer the slightest bit sleepy- only sick as I always am in the morning but with a more pronounced sore throat because of extreme post nasal drip.
During the talk with my lawyer he asked how they reacted to something I had said and I told him: "They don't take me seriously." But then he sort of chuckled and said he had heard I 'gave Mr. R. [my kids lawyer who was somewhat harassing me at the time] my best' which left me feeling as if I had somewhat impressed them. I guess my attempt at assertiveness in the absence of my lawyer wasn't the colossal failure I had feared.

But, in any event, I don't recall a single dream from the few hours of sleep I did have. I remember having dreamed, but no details have stayed with me.

I did not sleep night before last, but unexpectedly, I fell suddenly asleep last night from 8:30-10:30. I did not go back to sleep until some time after 2AM. I woke sometime after to pee and fell promptly back to sleep. I awoke on my own at around 11:30, extremely weak, muscles sore, dehydrated. I took my sugar mostly to see how dehydrated I am. My sugar was very good (106) but it took a lot of work to get blood from my finger which tells me from past experience that I am indeed dehydrated.

I'm having a very hard time recalling my dreams. There were very upsetting and at one time at least, the dream looped.
I was trying to get to a large building. I ran along a road then took a shortcut through some woods, jumping a fence along the way. It reminded me, after I woke, of places I explored while living on a Navy Base in Florida. I think I reached the building, but then the dream looped and I was running down a road trying to reach it again but this time someone was running with me. They didn't want to take the path through the woods so we continued running along the road and descended an extremely steep hill.
I keep wanting to think the building was a hospital, but I was shopping. I placed my buggy in between the wall and water fountain to keep someone else from getting it because I had to go to the restroom or something.

In another dream, I was driving down a road and a cat crossed the path of the vehicle and I thought it was my long-lost Rogue. But then I saw the long tail and new it wasn't him.

In either the first dream or in another, I carried a cat into a building and she jumped from my arms. Then the dream seemed to loop and I entered a building carrying a kitten. It jumped from my arms and ran to its mother.

In a snippet of a dream, I recall my friend Rox was trying desperately to talk with me. But I broke down in almost uncontrollable sobs and told her I was in no way fit for her to be around. She opened her mouth as if to start arguing with me, but then sadly nodded her head and walked away. When she was gone I realized I was holding a cigarette.

In another dream, I got into a very heated and upsetting argument with my mother. She left the room and my oldest son was beside me wondering what was going on and I explained to him that we were no longer welcome. I was packing my belongings to leave. Someone asked where we would go and I said we'd move in with my grandmother until I could get on my feet. I thought my mom was outside the door. On a dresser was a bag of mint chocolate mints. The bag was sticky to the touch and it wasn't mine. I went to ask my mom if she wanted to keep it or throw it away and I was directed to her bedroom where she lay in bed, silently crying and almost catatonic from grief. My heart went out to her but part of me was happy she was upset while another part of me was annoyed because she was being her regular dramatic self and trying to make me feel guilty.

In a snippet from another dream I was living in an apartment complex. I was concerned about a young female neighbor and went to her house and she said she had a infection. At one point I thought it was just a yeast infection, but then she hinted it was sexually transmitted.
We went to her neighbors house right next door and there were two men lying on a bed in nothing but tight underwear. They were mad at her and asked why she had brought them someone as old and ugly as me. They were grungy looking, somewhat attractive but hardened. I worried if they were to have sex with me they would give me a disease.

That's all I have and I'm too tired, sore and weak to try bothering with interpreting them. Many are clear cut anyhow.

I fell asleep a little after 3AM and I woke up at around 5:30 to pee. I ate a Special K bar and drank some Caffeine Free Coke, smoked a cigarette, and I'm about ot go back to sleep.

The dream I recall was brought about by playing Oblivion right before I fell asleep. In the dream I was trying to find my way through a cluster of caves and underground tunnels and I was hunting Goblins.
In another dream I was arguing with my kids.

... time to go back to sleep.

I stayed the night with my hubby last night and after my bath we both fell right to sleep (about 2AM) though he kept waking me up saying I was restless and moving about lol
I woke some time in the middle of the night to use the restroom and I fell right back to sleep waking on my own at 1 PM.

I had several dreams but the one I remember most was thoroughly disturbing. I was living in a disgusting home and I saw 3 roaches. I went crazy cleaning because in the past, no matter how gross our homes are (in West Virginia) we never had roaches. I was wondering why this time was different and I went through the house cleaning and I discovered a dead dog under my son Myles' bed. It was a stray my kids played with at the Farm.

In another dream I was in a large building for a Convention with my hubby though he was elsewhere in the dream. I wore some sort of skates and moved quickly.
I got lost going in and out various exits and at some point I was looking for a restaurant lol

And that's all I have.

Oh yeah... I also dreamed of being in a game of Oblivion, killing Goblins.

Having not slept night before last, I fell asleep quickly, without trying, and partially sitting up around 1AM. I woke up some time after 3 AM, turned off the lights and TV and went to sleep quickly. I woke to use the restroom at around 8:30 AM. I'm very groggy and I'm trying to fall back to sleep as I type lol

I had some strange dreams. In one, I was at a restaurant eating with my mom, Aunt Judy (whose been dead for about 15 years) and my kids. Myles started saying something witty but ruined it by ending his statement with a crack against someone who was 600 pounds overweight (exaggerating).. When I was in line to get my food, I ordered a burrito but was dismayed after I realized they were serving breakfast which is what I preferred. Some kid behind me in line kept sticking trash in my pocket and I was so annoyed that I made the kid take the trash out and throw it away.

In another dream I was in a large hotel and my cat Iccabah went in to convulsions and her head looked strange and misshapen. She was weak and could hardly stand. Someone told me she had been like that all day and if she wasn't better tomorrow I could take her to the vet. I examined her and she was infested with fleas but the person said she had probably been injured by the hedgehog. I went outside to do something and the hedgehog- which was the size of a wild boar, attacked me. I raced to the elevator, it followed me and when we got to another floor I raced out then back on right as the door was closing and trapped it on another floor. When I got back to the room, Iccabah was doing much better.

I also dreamed of a baby, but I've forgotten everything about the dream except that it was almost squished as someone sat on a seat against it and the baby was wedged in the cushions.

I also dreamed of my bio-dad but I've forgotten it as well.

And now I think I will go back to sleep.

I just woke back up at 2:45 Pm. The phone rang and even though I keep it right beside me, I bolted upright and threw my blanket off of me and a most unusual thought passed through my mind: "I'm having someone elses dream!" lol

Because of the haste in which I awoke, I lost most of my dreams. I have fragments now and they're strange.

I was lucid on and off during one. I was flying in the dream and I kept trying to fly through some tree branches and then the tree itself. I wasn't successful lol

In another dream, I was in a store buying books and looking at figurines. O bought one book and was disappointed when another was sole out. I returned again later, with someone else. We raced to the store, trying to beat another team. The sold out book was there and my companion wanted the book I had already purchased. It was something Frost. I said she could always borrow my copy but the store owner said for the contest to be legit, each person had to be under 22 years old and have their own copy. We joked then, my companion and I, about photo shopping a picture, or taking separate pictures but the owner said the pictures had to be of us together, each with our own copy. Then it dawned on me that I'm 34 years old lol and couldn't even participate. I was disappointed and looked at the figurines again which were labeled as being crystal. One of them was of two dragons with crystal flowers between them.

In another dream, I was trying to break into a building for some reason. On a very high floor a companion jumped out of the window and I worried she would die because she couldn't fly. But she landed softly on the ground and I was amazed at her ability because such a fall would kill me. I jumped, but flew safely down.

Another dream was like watching a movie. I wish I could remember more about it because it was very interesting. 4 people were in some sort of secret military program. 2 of them had multiple personality disorder and even though they weren't on the same team, they somehow found each other through natural attraction. She was being abused by her superior and the guy tried to intervene but was unsuccessful. There was a LOT more to the dream, but it was the last one I had before the phone rang, so my memory of it is worst of all

Blah... I am overheated and hungry. Time to turn off the stove and find some grub...

I just got about 16 hours of much needed sleep, though I woke up a couple times throughout and stayed awake twice for about 10 minutes each time.

At one time, I dreamed I was at the Farm and I looked down at my feet and they were crawling with flees.

Another time I dreamed of "Shadow Walkers" who were assassins. I was a guy in that dream and I don't remember anything else about it except at some point, they were trying to conceal themselves from innocent people and they sang behind a screen. Then some of the Shadow Walkers left and I was talking to a couple who stayed behind to discuss the importance of our honorable mission and the impossible odds we were up against. Then I realized a mike was on and the audience was hearing everything we were talking about. I peeking out at them, expecting the worse and saw that they all had their hands folded and their heads bowed in prayer for our plight.

The last dream took place in 20 minutes and was the most vivid, though I've forgotten most it.
I was in a large house where my kids were all in Foster Care. One of my childhood friends was also in the house at the age I remember her most- 16. She was going to stay the night with me at the Farm and I asked permission and it was okay. But somewhere along the lines, I got all the parents of the children there and we were going to help the Foster mom by cleaning the house. My mom was also there on the side of the Foster mom. My dad was there with me, in hiding. My mom came downstairs to turn up the AC and I told everyone to hide. I tried to get rid of my mom and I was also looking for gasoline for cleaning for some reason. When we were about to get to work, my mom came down to turn the AC down lol and I was busted. She criticized me from being there. I defended myself, saying I was trying to be helpful. She told me I had my own house to clean. Then I couldn't take my friend to the Farm with me and she was very upset.

Oh yes, earlier in my dream cycle, I dreamed about creating a new Oblivion Character and I was thinking about making a Kajiit (sp) so I could take advantage of the night vision.

Later in my dream cycle, I had a dream I've often had before: I see a world map and there are settlements throughout the world and I try to get to each of them and across the barriers to them (water, ice, mountain ranges etc). It's sort of in the style of SIMS as well as 1500 AD (?). Only this time I could zoom in on the settlements and explore the buildings. I'm not a person during these dreams but a consciousness or force of energy.

My dreams are becoming increasingly more difficult to remember. I never realized before just how much conscious thoughts when into recalling them and I haven't had the mental/emotional fortitude to try remembering my dreams.

I had a lot of dreams last night, but I only recall parts of one.
I lived in a large house and people were investigating some spiders. One of them slid out a wall much like the compartment under the couch I sleep on in the RV but bigger. She was trying to find a spider carcass. At one time I was holding a strange contraption that had water partially in it. I was swishing it around, trying to find the carcass.
I was asking her about what could have killed the spider and wondered if my kitten could have done it. Then I realized I hadn't seen my tiny black kitten for three days and I started to panic.
Somewhere along the line, I ran into my 12 year old daughter who told me she didn't trust me to take care of the kitten, which she viewed as being hers, so she gave it to a neighbor. Other people were going to give me a kitten but now they were going to give me 2 but I was furious with my daughters actions. I didn't want a different kitten. I wanted the one I already had.
So I went to the neighbor and stared him down with great malice. There were pictures or something on the floor which drew my attention and he slowly closed the door.

The interpretation of these is simple. Because of the spider in my toilet which I wrote about in heebeejeebies at the lounge, I had subconsciously been worried that more could be hiding in my couch. The contraption with water in it refers to the toilet.
I don't know the significance of a black kitten because I don't have one. But my daughter has been trying to get her aunt to let her have her dog with her. The last argument my daughter used was that I'm not taking care of the dog which made me furious. And I'm still dwelling on the arguments both in RL and here at DV.

I am absolutely miserable!!! It was cold during the night, so I turned on the oven for warmth... but the day heated up very quickly while I slept and now it's so hot I can barely breathe lol

I only remember bits and pieces of one dream. I was in Puerto Rico with my ex-husband. In the dream we were still married. He was thinking about going to college there and keeping a school visa so we could stay. I was excited to be back but knew I'm too stupid to even attempt college. Math would prove an impossibility. I met a local and spoke of all the changes from when I was there last. I asked about the roads I was familiar with- "Washington", "Jackson Highway", "Barancus" etc. which is funny because they weren't roads from when I lived in Puerto Rico but from Pensacola, Florida.
Both my ex-husband and I could fly in the dream and we went sight seeing by air.
I had a toddler with me who was filthy and at some point, some people were tying to capture us because of our abilities.
At another point, I was driving the streets to reacquaint myself with the city and some of the formerly small roads had become interstates. I ended up turning off one of them and found myself on a narrow dirt road with cliff drops to one side. I had to turn around and was terrified of falling off the edge and into the ocean.
Sadly, that's about all I recall.
Restaurants, a feast, a maid, and a black kitten were all elements I recall, but I don't remember the events surrounding them.

I'm curious about the significance of the black kitten though, as it's been in my dreams for two nights now.

I slept down-right horribly "last night". I went to sleep around 5AM and woke up around 2PM for the final time.
I was cold all night but I was afraid to turn on the oven because that would make the day unbearably hot. And the dog bark and whine seemingly the whole time.
I don't know if I dreampt it, but at one point, I opened the door to the RV and told her to be quiet and go to bed and there was an unfamiliar gray tom cat sitting near her. Our female cat is in heat so there have been lots of males roaming around. But I thought it was sweet that one of them was befriending Brooke.

As for dreams, I don't recall most of them. I tossed and turned seemingly the whole time I slept. One of the dreams was of me driving to Speedway for smokes and a snack. I was glad I had made it to the convenient store before it closed. But just as I got to the door, the lights dimmed. I went back to my car furious. A guy who doesn't work there in RL just grinned at me. I pointed to the clock behind him and held up 9 fingers to indicate he was closing shop 9 minutes before 11:00. I think I then gave him the finger- something I would NEVER do in RL, especially seeing how Sheetz is just 5 minutes away from there.
In another dream my hubby was telling me the only time I come by to see him is when I need money. That upset me because it's not true.

Other dream elements included playing or living an XBox game I've recently become addicted to: "Kingdom of Kefling" lol
A hotel, water park or somesuch, and an assassination plot also came into play but I don't recall how.

What caused the dreams I remember is Speedway is where I go almost every day. Closing shop early is something that happened to my hubby once, but at Exxon. I was hungry when I went to sleep last night and Speedway is where I buy my fruit cups and snack cakes
The dream about my hubby was because I talked him into paying my child support for me. I always feel guilty asking anyone for money. I feel like I'm using them, thus the dream.

Time to get back to playing Kingdom of Kefling I can't figure out how to unlock the factory and it's driving me batty.

I slept horribly again last night but it wasn't from the temperature but discomfort. My blankets are starting to get stale and need to be washed. *I* need to be washed lol- mostly my hair, I'm very sensitive to dirty hair. Even when other people think my hair looks fine, it FEELS dirty to me if I don't wash it every other day (if I wash it every day, my scalp dries out).
Worse yet, my couch is starting to wear out after constant use since last November. I sit on it to watch TV, play video games, get on the computer and I lay on it to sleep.

I don't remember much about my dreams. The last one was strange. I was a young teen living with my grandmother and there was a younger kid of about 5 who I'm not certain was either my son or younger brother. There was also a baby. I had been in trouble with the school for being tardy or missing so many days. If I didn't go in and have some paperwork signed off at the beginning of the day, the little kid and I would gave to go to Court.
I had a school assignment to turn in and it had been extremely annoying to complete. It was a globe shaped thing with anagrams written on it and I had to figure them out. I completed it successfully except for the last one. I asked everyones thoughts, but they were just as confused. I was still very pleased with my progress though and I was eager to hand it in.
On the way out the door, I picked up a small trashcan with a bag in it which was filled with soil. I needed it for when I went to Clarksburg to start a garden. I set the trashcan down for a moment and a woman grabbed the bag of soil and asked what I was doing with it and where I was going. I told her I got the soil from a different park and that I needed it to start a garden.
She said I could have it back when I pruned the dead leaves from her many trees.
I was angry at myself for having set it down and I got to work grudgingly. I complained out loud that now I had to go to Court.
My grandmother came down because I had exaggerated something and to set the matter straight with the other woman. But the other woman had a change of heart and decided she had to be more lenient regarding certain things.
My grandmother was outside holding a baby and there was a ledge she couldn't climb up to get to the door. I opened the door for her and she set the baby down on the porch so she could climb up it. I talked to the baby for a moment then rushed out the door for school.
In the dream, I changed clothes several times and at one time I was at a closet with my grams looking for important paperwork.

Other than that dream, I also dreamed about Kingdom of Keflings again lol and of gathering resources

I had some very disturbing dreams last night. But, as usual, I've forgotten a lot of them.

In one of them, I was hanging out with some people. One guy I liked purposely burned the top of my ear with a cigarette. I tried concealing it from others.

In another one, or a different aspect of the dreams I'll write about, I was at school. I had to memorize a bunch of information and rewrite them to help me. But I was distracted by something. Then I was with 2 female teachers- one who gave the assignment and another one. I was upset because I couldn't complete the work given to me. I was putting myself down because I literally have very little recall. The teacher who didn't give the assignment collapsed into a chair and told me to stop thinking about. She asked me if I knew about Armagedon and I said yes. She then said she had been studying up on the subject and teaching it for an entire week and she needed a break. She then said everyone needs a break sometimes.

In another dream, I was flying. I started doing back flips across a parking lot. Then I was a man and I had contorted myself so that my face was near my butt in a very painful looking back bend. I guy came over to me and asked "the usual price?" I said yes and he proceeded to masterbate on my face and I couldn't breathe because his spunk covered my mouth and nose.

In another dream, I was some woman looking desperately for her missing daughter. There was a reward and she came to believe her daughter had been killed. Accusations were made. Her husband was somehow involved. Then, she was looking out the window of a high building she was in and saw herself chasing after a girl who looked like her daughter. She said she was going to go out and find her but another lady said the daughter was dead.
Suddenly, I was on the street I was just looking at. I looked and looked but couldn't find the girl. Finally, I came to my car and there she was. People were pursuing us and shooting at us so I ran in zigzags carrying the girl.
We came to a beat cop and hid behind him, but we were surrounded. We crowded into a vehicle but one of the bad guys got in with us. I was in the backseat and he and the cop were in the front seats. I beat at the bad guy and told him to get out of the vehicle, but he just grinned.
I think those events were flashbacks from where I still stood inside the building, but I'm not sure.

My grandmother was in one dream, but I don't recall it.

Just before I woke, I dreamed I was trying to get back in touch with my bio-dad but they had moved and left no forwarding address.

I fell asleep around 5AM and woke up at 1PM. I was somewhat restless and woke with a horrible kink in my neck.

There were other dreams, but I don't recall much of them. They include: playing Kingdom of Keflings lol and something with my children and another with a baby and another about my congregation.

I just went outside to feed and water the animals and to get myself some food from Wendy's and I smelled something like death. When I saw my cat running towards me, I remembered one of my dreams from last night.
I did, indeed, dream about a baby... but a baby cat lol
I dreamed I was in the yard and it was very muddy. There was a hole in the ground and I filled it in and Iccabah (the cat) came running towards me and then I heard a very faint meowing. I was horrified when I realized the newly born kitten had been in the hole I filled in.
So I quickly dug it out but then a Tom (either my beloved missing Rogue or Tucker who ran away) grabbed the kitten. I was afraid he'd try to eat it so I coaxed the kitten out of the mouth of the male and cleaned the baby up and gave it to its mother.

Very strange.....