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      Really horrifying dream, struggling to forget about it

      Hi, everyone. First post here, this seems the ideal place to ask about this...

      Last night I had a horrible dream. My dreams are generally really inventive and creative, I usually wake up chuckling at how the hell my mind came up with some of this craziness.

      The dream last night was of my long term girlfriend dying, but I was there, and seen it, and it was barbaric.

      I seen her fall off of a motorway bridge and land on the motorway, I ran to see over the edge and she was on the ground, but still alive, but in the path of a lorry, which went over her, killing her in (as you can imagine) an extremely gruesome and horrific way. (I'm no stranger to "gore" videos, over the years, I've seen several out of morbid curiosity, I don't find them in any way amusing, like some sick "trolls", but have seen them non-the-less, usually feeling numb and saddened)

      As I ran down the slip road, to come back on myself to get to where she fell, she was gone. In absolute dismay, I spent the next couple of days refusing to believe that it took place, I must have imagined it! She must have just gone away for a few days, she'll be back...

      As I was clinging to the "imagined it, didn't happen" hope, some "FBI" friend, type came over and told me he'd "gotten rid" of the body. Which confirmed to me that it did actually happen, she's never coming back, and I was distraught.

      Lots of other things preceded, and succeeded that, but that was the crux of it...

      I'm not sure if it was lucid, I'm not really spiritual, or religious, I'm generally quite scientific and logical in thinking, I'm a programmer by trade. Before waking up, I remember becoming aware that I was dreaming, and then made a concious effort to wake up. This has happened before, where during the early morning, I become aware I'm dreaming, but as it's usually a pleasant dream, I stay in it, encourage it, to stay in the psychedelic madness, this time, I had to get out of there...

      It's still playing on my mind now, I'm seeing her and her entrails whenever I look at her now, It's really upsetting to think about...

      Anyone who knows more about dreaming than I do (everyone here), I'd really appreciate any advice, thoughts or feelings about what I should make of my dream...

      Thanks.
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      I'm of the (unpopular) opinion that dreams have no meaning. You just fell into an attention trap, which is how all nightmares form. Something horrible or scary captures your attention (understandably) and the more attention you pour into it, the more related detail it creates.

      The only thing important about that dream is how it hooked your attention, and how that fixation shaped your dream.
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      I'm with you that there's no real meaning, as-in, I'm under no illusion - I've not just predicted the future!

      I've always understood that when you have scary dreams like being chased by an animal, it's a (wise) defence mechanism your brain performs where it does "role-play" of possible scenarios to test itself on different outcomes to better prepare itself in case it has to deal with it for real. That makes sense, but doesn't seem to apply to this dream...

      What happened after the main part, the "coming to terms with it" part, is foggy, but I remember having to go somewhere proper, official, like a public event, or famous restaurant or something, and act normal, but being completely unable to, as I was in an ever tightening knot in my mind trying to contemplate what's happened.

      This would be much easier to accept and forget about if I had some logical reason why my mind would do that to itself. I could deal with my partner dying, if she was old, and had lived her life, and died a natural death, that wouldn't be a scary dream it's one I've had before, parts were quite pleasant, thinking about all the things she did, etc, but this is totally different, just torturous.

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      Guys, after having several dreams like this since, and having told my mrs about them, she's suggesting I need serious psychological help.

      Has anyone got any other recourse to this other than I'm abnormal? It's getting unbearable and more frequent now. Including a recent dream I was caged and had to watch my two young children go through every single brutal horrific stage of being burned alive in front of my eyes and there was nothing I could do about it.

      Guys and girls any advise is really appreciated. I'm getting desperate now. I don't know how many of these dreams I can take of my mind torturing itself.

      Is medical help the only way forward?

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