Hi, everyone. First post here, this seems the ideal place to ask about this...
Last night I had a horrible dream. My dreams are generally really inventive and creative, I usually wake up chuckling at how the hell my mind came up with some of this craziness.
The dream last night was of my long term girlfriend dying, but I was there, and seen it, and it was barbaric.
I seen her fall off of a motorway bridge and land on the motorway, I ran to see over the edge and she was on the ground, but still alive, but in the path of a lorry, which went over her, killing her in (as you can imagine) an extremely gruesome and horrific way. (I'm no stranger to "gore" videos, over the years, I've seen several out of morbid curiosity, I don't find them in any way amusing, like some sick "trolls", but have seen them non-the-less, usually feeling numb and saddened)
As I ran down the slip road, to come back on myself to get to where she fell, she was gone. In absolute dismay, I spent the next couple of days refusing to believe that it took place, I must have imagined it! She must have just gone away for a few days, she'll be back...
As I was clinging to the "imagined it, didn't happen" hope, some "FBI" friend, type came over and told me he'd "gotten rid" of the body. Which confirmed to me that it did actually happen, she's never coming back, and I was distraught.
Lots of other things preceded, and succeeded that, but that was the crux of it...
I'm not sure if it was lucid, I'm not really spiritual, or religious, I'm generally quite scientific and logical in thinking, I'm a programmer by trade. Before waking up, I remember becoming aware that I was dreaming, and then made a concious effort to wake up. This has happened before, where during the early morning, I become aware I'm dreaming, but as it's usually a pleasant dream, I stay in it, encourage it, to stay in the psychedelic madness, this time, I had to get out of there...
It's still playing on my mind now, I'm seeing her and her entrails whenever I look at her now, It's really upsetting to think about...
Anyone who knows more about dreaming than I do (everyone here), I'd really appreciate any advice, thoughts or feelings about what I should make of my dream...
Thanks.
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