I have to say, I've recently had a dream of demonic possession. I did not, however, to my recollection call upon any such demon to enter me! I am a spiritual person, and anyone who knows me would say I am a benevolent person.
The dream:
I was entering a lobby room coming up the staircase, immediately i felt a specifically uncomfortable tingling and I could feel my face become distorted. I immediately looked at a group of my own friends all sitting on a bench and angrily and obsessively shouted "None of you ever look at me again!!!" in a monstrous voice. I then walked out of the room and down the hall. I had a strange sense of unusual spontaniety - I shouted upon seeing computer monitors and keyboards in the trash. I proceeded into my old roomate's room and he told me he was concerned that I was clean from carrots for 2 weeks. I spontaneously shouted back that I had been clean for 4 weeks and began to perform strange body movements and laugh with my head thrown back and face distorted again.
The circa-dream experiences
I haven't watched any demon related movies etc. for a long while, so I know it was not that. The next night I had a very anxious "encounter:" I lie in bed trying to sleep and I begin to have difficulty breathing, I feel my heart beat so intensely it's as if I'm going to explode in a bloody mess. I'm so dizzy I can't see straight, then I feel tense and my whole body begins to ache. I was unsure about the whole demon visit thing until I felt pain throughout my arms, legs and an extremely uncomfortable pressure on my chest. I asked god for help, straight up, out loud - what else was there to do in this situation? I tried my best to maintain a sense of connection to god and any benevolent guardian that I may have, and within seconds I was lying in bed completely relaxed. I even slept and dreamt of pleasant things, not exactly sure what though, I don't remember. Then I had a third night of 'demonic discomfort' when I found myself moving in a very strange way in my bed. My body motions were precise down to finger gestures and it was some sort of rhythmic articulation (no, not masturbating lol). It was happening without my intent! I didn't even know how to do those motions. I had a very peculiar moment of suddenly waking from a dull state that was very unlike sleep. I sensed I was being not necessarily forcefully controlled, but rather subversively suggested in some vague way to perform this action. I also had a strong sense that I really really really shouldn't do it anymore and that it would somehow let this thing control me more. At this point I was lying with eyes wide open trying to maintain clear conciousness and denying any type of external control or subversion. I was pretty uptight about it, I stayed up almost all night praying.
The next morning I promptly decided to head to the library and do much reading and internet searching on the subject - I found good information. I read that people who are possessed often report the experience of pressure on their chests just as I had. I also read that this type of thing only happens when you allow it to.
So don't worry, I know interdimensional spirits can seem scary, but there's nothing to be afraid of. I was nervous initially because I felt I had been taken over and I was out of control, but this will never be true, UNLESS you allow it - there's plenty of research out there to back that up too. Throw out all your ideas about demons from pop culture movies and do your own diligent research. Demons (aka spirits, jinn, lwa, etc) are not inherently evil. However some nonphysical entities are malicious and they will take advantage of you if you let them. Stay vigilant by avoiding moments of numbed conciousness par example alcohol intoxication, inner ignorance, etc. Their mode of attack is psychological, and they will use your own thoughts to manipulate you. I have a sense that one is most vulnerable when being psychospiritually ignorant. Anyway, I stronly encourage you to pray and meditate on this subject however works best for you. Guardian angels will always protect you, but if you yourself allow spirits inside, there's no stopping them until you decide. Not that I'm saying you've been possessed or anything, but I believe calling on a majorly powerful demon warrants at least some research. Look into it, analyze it, describe it, talk about it, figure it out - absolutely DO NOT IGNORE IT! It is crucial that you face your dream fears. They are your own psychological maladies and facing them is the only way to overcome them. I'm completely against you doing anything about this that doesn't involve careful analysis and risk prevention. Just stay cool, be brave, play it safe and remember that any tribulation you may be having is for the sake of progress. Let us know what (if anything) happens! I'd love to know. Also, describing your emotions more can help others to understand your description significantly better. I've worked through my issue and I know you can too. Good luck!
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