Hello!I am a new user of this wonderful forum i have some question on a dream i had recently.
While i am not experiacing lucidity in my dreams (though i used to do that years ago,while doing and practicing in my real life the "dream/reality tests" like switching on/off the lights,looking at my watch,or looking my hands and counting my finters,or looking at numbers twice,or saying in my head "am i dreaming or not?"
Here is the story.In my walking life i was very pissed off and angry of people taking advantage of me in some places of my own life.
I was pissed of by a taxi driver that tried to charge me more for the distance i travelled and i said inside me "this won't ever happen again from now on anyone trying to cheat or steal me shall have me as an enemy".
I was determined to change my self by learning lucid techniques and transform various characters that appear in my dreams in the sense that the bad ego that i had like parts of my personality that were manipulated by others could be changed by transforming those characters.
So the story goes that i start telling him in serious and angry voice tone "hey you are stealing me,i wont pay you more than that,and i insist in a very determined way.When i walked off the taxi i felt a little frustrated because i would never do that before in such a way.
This night in my dream i see that i am sleeping in a bed and that there are some people in the hotel (i dreamed i was in an expensive hotel),that wanted to have fun with me,and take decisions for my life while i am in that bed sleeping.
So in an angry and very aggresive way,i say NO and i get up,and i get a katana sword in my hands.I go down the lounge room (or sort of) and there are tables with people eating and smoking.I go to the entrance of the hotel which happens to be near by,and i watch a crowd of 7-8 people,in the centre of that table was an old friend and schoolmate of mine.I point to him with my index finger and then i do the hacksaw style movement on my neck like telling him "you are dead",i have the katana sword in my right hand and i wait for them to come up so i would kill them all.
Then alarm clock sounds and i wake up before i manage kill them.
The characters seemed frightened by my appearence and scared.
That old schoolmate of mine was a good fellow,although to me in my life i always had him in my mind as a very good and lawful person,and stupid in cases too,and looser in others.
So to me it represents parts of my self that need to be changed so others cannot take advantage of me or manipulate me.
My question is what bad can i get by killing parts of my personality?Can in a way help such parts of me grow and get better without killing characters in dreams ?
Or would it be better to get lucid dream techniques and try to eliminate any bad part of my personality by killing it ?Would that be dangerous?
I feel that part of personality and self is represented visually in the dreams,and actions like killing or caring or something else could have a change in the way i think and treat my self and others.
Can somebody help me ?
Years ago when i practiced lucid techniques i would often ask the characters in my dreams "who are you and what do you want ?",now i did not have lucidity to ask but when i woke up i knew that he just represented parts of my personality that need a fix.
Looking forward for a reply soon.
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