Conscious Not Wanting to be Conscious

**Cosmix** · 10-06-2010 04:11 AM

I've had about three dreams now where I'm conscious in the dream but not fully lucid... like my mind just does not want to believe it's a dream. Here's any excerpt from my DJ to get a better understanding of what I mean:

I was in the bathroom doing my normal morning routine, I think this was a false awakening due to CAN-WILD, anyway I did my normal reality check that I do in the morning and found I could breathe with my nose plugged. I couldn't believe it though, as everything was so real and identical to how it usually is. So I plugged my nose again and could still breath, I looked in the mirror to see if my nose was fully plugged and I convinced myself it wasn't. I decided to count my fingers and I could not get ten. First I got 7, then I couldn't get past my first hand, then I counted 12. After doing this I still, for some reason, was not convinced that this was a dream. I thought about going through the wall to the outside to prove it was a dream, but I couldn't go through it. I then thought about breaking the window and flying out it, but then I thought if this really isn't a dream I'd be fucked. Then I thought if this is a dream I'll conjour up Misa Campo when I open the door but that didn't work. I then figured it was real life and walked downstairs and realized it was 3:30pm and couldn't believe how late it was and how I was probably going to get fired for not calling in to work. I then woke up.

Does anyone have any tips for this? It kind of boggles my mind, and is upsetting because it's happening kind of often now.

**Puffin** · 10-06-2010 05:07 AM

It sounds like you were bordering on awareness within the dream, but weren't quite aware enough to make a conscious decision as to whether you were dreaming or not. That happens to me every once in a while. Work on awareness more, and be more skeptical of reality during the daytime.

After all, dreams seem real when we're not lucid in them, and we accept things without question. They feel normal. But then again, waking life feels normal too, so what's the real difference?

**Cosmix** · 10-06-2010 05:23 PM

Thanks Puffin

Do you have any tips for being more aware during the daytime? I assume questioning how I got wherever I am and asking myself if things around me are logical are some ways. I usually try doing those when I do my RC's during the day but the times I've become lucid after RC's I don't remember doing the asking part.