Interesting thread.
Katsuno pretty much said it all for me. Like him, I was drifting through life wondering what the point was and doing nothing but going to school, eating, stressing etc. Life was just plain bland, even if I was having a blast with my friends. In the end I just thought everything was a waste of time.
I also looked at characters from movies etc and thought "Why can't I be like them sd;jkghds;fijhgduhf???!!!!! "
Something I love, is being able to see something in waking life e.g a movie, and instead of thinking something like "Well, that was good. Now what?" It gives me more ideas of what I want to do. Life doesn't seem so bad when you know you can sleep and have as much fun as you want and without anyone even knowing.
How many people go to bed, go back to medievil times, battles a giant dragon, then wakes up and goes to school or work? When people ask what I done that night I just kinda chuckle and they get confused. They don't understand how much fun I have 
As for death, i've never been that bothered by it. The way I think of it is, if there's something there and it's good, all the more banter for me. If it's bad, I'll cope cause I'm resilliant. If there's nothing, then I won't even know it because I won't be there. I have almost died several times, or been in situations that could have gone very very wrong.
I had a dream once (before I knew about lucid dreaming) that was incredibly vivid. During this dream, I was captured by a gang and one of them knocked me to my knees and pressed a gun to my head. The fear was extreme. Throughout the dream I was given to a household to be a slave, and threatened several times. Each time was very very scary.
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