I started trying to lucid dream my sophomore year in highschool (I'm a freshman in college now) and all throughout that sophomore year I tried as hard as I could to lucid dream. I only had moderate success and was frustrated by this but I was still proud with how hard I was trying. I spent almost every minute I could questioning reality, thinking about the concept of dreaming, and thinking of dreaming goals. I was diligent about keeping a dream journal, recognized all my dream signs and always performed a reality check and truly questioned weather or not I was dreaming when I saw them in waking life. During the summer that year I stopped lucid dreaming, for reasons I can't even remember now. When I started again around winter of my junior year I didn't try as hard and had much less success, although that was a pretty low point in my life with alot of shit going down so that's pretty understandable. I stopped at some point before my senior year and at the beginning of the school year I made it my goal to start lucid dreaming again. As I start training my mind and body again I found myself to be even less dedicated then last time. I was incredibly sporadic with journaling, sometime going weeks a a time without writing a dream, I almost never thought about dreaming or performed reality check during the day, I would usually realizes this during 8th period and think "oh shit I better make up for all the lost time but thinking of nothing but dreaming for the rest of the day" and 30 minutes later it's the last thought on my mind. Now that I'm in college my attempts to lucid dream are pitiful, I don't even have a real dream journal instead I just find scrap paper when ever I remember to write a dream down, and maybe once a week I'll think about dreaming during class for all of 5 minutes. For some reason I just can dedicate myself to learning to LD anymore, but I've been want to lucid dream now more than ever. What's wrong with me?