First off, I have introduced myself on this site a while back when I had a much stronger desire to lucid dream. Since then, I found it difficult to stay motivated, tried to convince myself that I would never have an LD, then read up on people's scary lucid experiences to further forget about even attempting it.

Believe me when I say that I would like to experience lucid dreaming. I have never had one before, but I've read enough to know that the benefits outweigh the cons. I feel like I'm letting something as powerful as lucid dreaming go to waste just because of my irrational fears. I know that you cannot be harmed in a lucid dream. I used to make it a routine to follow standard DILD methods such as affirmations and reality checks, but I never stuck with it long enough to see results. I think I just got tired of it and doubted my ability for success.

More specifically, I pursued DILD because of my fear of any SP associated with WILD. Again, I let any scary experiences that I've read persuade me to avoid WILDing. Furthermore, I think DILD fits my style more and would be happy to bring the habits into my day to increase my waking awareness so it will carry over into my dreams.

Overall, I have strayed away from lucid dreaming simply because I am afraid of the unknown, and I have always been that way. I tend to think negatively of new experiences, no matter what they may be.

A few questions: Can you experience SP somehow after you awake from a DILD, or is that very unlikely? (this is a stupid question because I'm aware that SP is something that is normal, safe, and our bodies go through it every night but we're not aware of it)

Secondly, are scary dream experiences going to be brought on by lucid dreaming? Because if I'm not lucid and I have a scary dream, then it's just a normal nightmare. But if I am lucid in a dream and something scary comes about, shouldn't I be calm and rational and understand that I am the one in control and that I cannot be harmed?

Why is it that I feel like I should avoid lucid dreaming just because I have let my fears get the better of me?

I really don't want to waste more experienced lucid dreamers' time with my own problems, but I just wondered if anyone here has ever felt even a single bit like me. Thank you all so much!