I stole in my lucid dream, now I can't get back. Help!

[shad]

Hi there lucid dreamers. I'm from Zambia currently living in South Africa and new on this forum. Coming from central africa, I was terrified of sharing my lucid dream experience with anyone. Was afraid they were going to pray and frog march the devil out of me or even accuse me of being the devil himself. But the experience was just so absolutely amazing, life transforming and totally changed my belief system. So I decided to share with the one person I trusted.....my very Christian best friend who came for a sleep over. We were about to sleep when I decided to share.....(bad idea)...... as the whole experience according to me was the closest I had come to experiencing the God idea. She got so scared we ended up sleeping with lights on after she got out of bed, made herself a cup of coffee and looked at me with eyes that begged not to be eaten in the middle of the night. This tainted our friendship as she concluded on my behalf that I did not believe in God. Anyhow, I am writing cause I'm in trouble. When I started Lcding with the help of a book called Seth Speaks.....it was like someone had woken me up from a deep slumber. I stated flying in my dreams, shifting consciously from awake to dream states, I sometimes watched my body and walked from room to room as I slept, I travelled at unimaginable speed through space. This was amazing......and soon I realized I could pretty much do whatever I wanted in my dreams. Forget cops and laws.....I could get away with anything....or so I thought. I started stealing, cakes of all things (no..I was not starving, don't even like cakes) but I would grab and eat cakes in front of bewildered owners...sometimes I would run for the heck of it. But it all caught up with me in the mornings when I would wake up to unimaginable guilt. The wild sex expeditions made the guilt even more unbearable as I work up feeling like I had been working the streets all night. In everyday life, I'm a firm believer in doing what is right, being faithful and stealing is a big no no for me. Why did I seem to loose my moral compass the moment I entered Ld. I did not like who I became every night so I started dreading Lcding. One day it just all stopped. Lucid dreaming and all. Been trying to get back for a while now but somehow there seems to be some blockage I can't get past. Can somebody help?

[gab]

I think you need to forgive yourself in the first place. You know your morals are better than that, but in dreams, if you don't have full control, sometimes we do things we normally would not do. Make a plan how you gonna go back to the places you stole from and pay for the cakes, or do some other good deed to redeem your "crime". Sometimes dreams show us scenarios to teach us, how would something feel. Stealing made you feel guilty so tell yourself that you learned from it and now you asking for a chance to make things right. How did you induce your LD? Maybe you could intensify your practice? Sorry to hear about your friend. Unfortunatelly, that's how it is for many of us. We really have to pick and choose to whom we tell about our little "secret". But it's great that you have found Dreamviews. You can share your experiences here and no one will think you are looney. At least no more than we are, haha. Good luck and happy dreams

[Scionox]

Don't think about what you done so bad, you might be subconsciously blocking yourself out by thinking about it. Also have you changed your sleeping schedule over that period of time in some way? Personally i had very hard time getting lucid after i had to change my sleeping schedule for some things, but once i got to change it back i started getting lucid dreams more regularly(they are still very short though, i need to work on stabilization).