Hello again everyone! 
Not the most frequent poster, but i feel like when i post it should be somewhat meaningful, and mostly i enjoy myself just reading (lurking) on what others write.
Anyways, the reason i am making this post is, that this is the best possible place to discuss such a matter, and i have the feeling that this not a topic that have been to much talked about, or that is not such a frequent problem to dream-explorers. This may be a little strange post, and it may take some explaining before i get to the actual topic i want to discuss. If you do now want to read the whole thing, you can jump over first section (paragraph?).
I started exploring the concept of lucid dreaming some years ago, the only dream control i could perform before that was trying to make myself dream of a specific subject, by thinking a lot about it before falling asleep.
Soon i found out that this was a difficult subject, but i kept remembering that practicing makes master, and reading that mastery of the dreams does not come over night (oh the pun).
But it has been as i said earlier, several years since this. I have nowhere near given up, but i think that it is time to figure out how to get better.
I have had no big success with methods where i go straight from awake to dreaming, it just takes to long time before i get results, and my mind wanders way to fast. I have started meditating some time ago, so maybe that will help me to quiet down the over active brain, but as of now, WILD is not a solution for me. Of the tens of times i have tried, the only time i "succeeded" i saw a black corridor with a little scary girl and tearing metal sound. If i could manage to get to this again, maybe could get past it, but it is hard just reaching this part of the process.
Then again, i have never had any problem achieving lucidity. DILD have always been my answer, but this is also where things gets weird (at least for me).
In the beginning i had super hard to maintaining lucidity, because i would quite frequently achieve it, but not trough reality checks, but realization. I would always either have a false awakening, an actual awakening (after i started using reality checks), or just slipping away into non-lucidity again. My "first time" was my most successful, since i teleported, created stuff and rooms. But after this i have not even achieved this, before being cut of from my dream.
So i am starting to ask myself, is my unconsciousness trying to work against my consciousness here?
Because, i have for a long time had a bigger plan with lucid-dreaming, other than just messing around in my dream, but i won't say it just yet (in case yourself will trigger some security system).
First it started with a kind of perfection of my dreams, it was like every now and then my unconsciousness released a bug-fix and it became more and more realistic. In my dreams, i have working light-switches, computers (even internet) and working phones among other thing. I don't know how "perfect" these really are, but the certainly have evolved a lot since i started "remembering" dreams, and trying to achieve lucidity. And it is just like the dream actively try to remove things that will make me realize that i am dreaming. (Like mirrors and such).
Its like i am having a super hard time maintaining lucidity as i said before, because i "wake up" so easily. So often, in the moment of realization, its like a wake-up timer starts, and most times i can't do a thing before waking up. Like yesterday i realized i was dreaming, when i was watching a girl smoking inside our living-room (not that unlikely event?), but before i could anchor the dream, everything went black, and when i tried to see again i just opened my eyes for real (yes i reality checked).
And i had the strangest realization the other day, i don't know if i was in a station, or if i got teleported there after realization, but as i realized i was dreaming i sat on a bench in a empty, underground-train-station, with the classic white brick walls. By my side it sat a man. I told him "I know i am dreaming", he replied "No, you are not", i was a hundred percent sure (because you just know) and said "Yes i am, i know it", then he said "How could you? you don't have any evidence or proof of it". Well, the fact that a completely random and unknown man said this should make i obvious enough, but it raised the question. Why would he say this? Was this just a random dream-person, or maybe the unconscious itself personified?
And i know that it is not supposed to be "easy", but i have a friend who started under a year ago, and he is having full blown lucid experiences from the same techniques i have tried and without the problem of dream anchoring being as difficult as finding a needle in a barn full of hay..
Maybe this is normal, maybe everyone experiences it (or many), i don't think so, but maybe, and that is why i post this here.
I realize its stupid, and maybe VERY unwise to talk about the unconsciousness and the dream like it isn't just a big part of me as the consciousness, but its a process of realization, and i am not quite "one" with myself just yet.
If you read it all, take a cookie. 
I am sorry if the language is messy, that part of the brain is not the most cooperative just now, but i hope you understand and that you could share some views on this matter. 
- Ophidian
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