Hello! I've been trying to lucid dream for a couple of months now and only lucid dreamt three or four times and I had no control over them I only realized that I was dreaming.

The matter is, that there are periods when I keep my dream journal updated and do reallity checks every day. In these periods my dream recall is a little bit worse than when I don't write down my dreams in the journal or when I don't do reality checks. These periods when I do not "care about my dreams" I've noticed that I can remember my dreams way better and they are more detailed.

Does anyone know why?