I'm currently living in this institute in the middle of nowhere, far away from the hustle and bustle of the capital - area where I used to live. I have pretty much zero worries, stress or any of that stuff that could negatively affect my LDing in anyway. I'm completely provided-for here. My work and life here is simple and I have absolutely no distractions. I only log on to the computer ( that is located at the computer lab ) to visit Dreamviews. It's great, but I can't LD properly.
I do 50 or more reality checks per day the way they're meant to be made, and I use MILD and visualization before going to bed ( also the way they're meant to be made). I have no doubt that I can LD ( and be really good at it ). Every morning I'm like " Dang! Still didn't have one! Ah, but it's so cool I want to try again immediately! " I want to LD and I try to every night, I know what it's like and all that, but something just isn't working and I don't know what it is. I also have real goals. Maybe I'm just too hesitant? But I don' think so. Because Iv been really good at this and I do everything pretty much the same way I used to it, with the same mind-set, ideas and intention.
I can get as much sleep as I want every day. I'm usually ALL BY MYSELF in the WHOLE area at night ( because everyone else heads home after the day), sleeping in utter peace and silence. I used to fall asleep in 30 minutes back at home... here I fall a sleep in 10-15. Most of the nights I can't even get my MILD or visualization up properly, because I'm already sleeping. I wake up naturally like four times a night( and more if I want to, I also just got the "WILD alarm clock" - the kinda that automatically shuts it's self down) and Iv tried to use these moments to WILD or DEILD with no success ( at least yet ). I also MILD during these moments and Iv tried WBTB.
Something that might have something to do with my inability to LD:
- Often I just sit in my room, with nothing to do. Does picking up a hobby help keeping your mind more alert? I do exercise everyday, but the rest of the spare-time I have is just... me sitting in my room or walking around the area ( with awareness though, but with nothing to do).
- Still new to the area, been here for a little longer than a week, but before I got here I had many LDs. It's still a perfect place for LDing imo.
Any thoughts, suggestions and advises are appreciated! No matter if they're short or long and detailed I want to get that " Ah, I could try that, and that! Ooh, that's a pretty good idea, didn't even thought of that! Hey, maybe that's what the problem is."
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