Hi - my name is Ethan and I think I am experiencing Depersonalization. This thread only slightly relates to LD, but I know users of this site have knowledge of consciousness and different forms of it. I wasn't sure where else to turn.

This all started 3 days ago on Friday night. Now, for the record I am not a regular user of drugs. However I have (only a few times in my life) smoked pot. Friday night was one of these times. All was normal and fine, except on Saturday evening, after I had been sober for over 8 hours, I began to feel as if I were getting high again. At least that's what I thought it was. Sunday morning I was fine again, but Sunday night (which was last night) I got this sensation again except much more intense. I felt kind of numb all over, I felt as if when I talked it wasn't really me talking, and I just felt very slumped. When I woke up this morning, I still had this feeling. Beginning to get frightened, I turned to google and found that I may be experiencing symptoms of Depersonalization disorder. I read that smoking pot could be a trigger of this. I am still experiencing the same sensations (it is around 6PM). Here are some examples:

- Last night I accidentally took a sip from a cup of vodka (not mine, I have never drank alcohol) instead of my cup of water. Vodka has a very strong smell and taste, but it took me over a second of it being in my mouth to realize my mistake! I immediately spit it out, but I realized that I could barely taste it and I couldn't smell it at all.
- Sometimes when I speak I feel as if I am listening to my voice from the outside.
- When I experience something painful, I know it hurts but it doesn't affect me at all.
- I feel as if my vision is kind of 'lagging'.

Over the last couple of hours I have been thinking positively and pushing away thoughts of fear, but the symptoms aren't subsiding. One thing I love to do is program in Java, but I haven't been able to focus enough to do that.

Could LD possibly help me deal with this issue? I've heard stories of people using dreams to overcome fears and issues before.

I don't know what to do because school starts in 3 days (I'm 15 turning 16, junior year of HS) and I don't know how to function like this. I haven't told anyone yet due to the fact that the most likely cause was drugs. Any advice or knowledge and support is greatly appreciated, thanks for reading!