I am so sorry you are going through a difficult waking and dreaming life.
My opinion is, you should go into this lucid dreaming thing with the attitude that it's going to help your anxiety and stuff.
Y'see, lucid dreaming is a practice of exploring one's own consciousness. And even gaining control over it.
Lucid dreaming can be used to face your fears. Face them head on. Look 'em right in the eye.
Lucid dreaming can even be used to transfigure your fears into something positive. What happens when you face your fear and you come out unharmed? Your subconscious registers the fact that you had nothing to fear in the first place. Takes you one step closer to overcoming the fear itself. With lucid dreaming you have the opportunity to do this in a completely safe environment.
You could even try talking to your subconscious in lucid dreams. Ask dream characters for information about your subconscious. Or even ask your dream characters to change things or improve things in your subconscious. I have not personally experimented with this before so I can't say too much about it. But I do recognize the potential for communicating with your subconscious in lucid dreams.
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