Slash112: I was thinking about what you said about facing my fears when I made that post and felt that it was conflicting, without a doubt. And I know I do need to work on facing them, so I think I will try that for a while, and see if I get anything out of it. Confront it and then ''leave it''.

Darkmatters: I think my nightmares mostly stems from the problem with the substance, but at the same time everyone has issues IRL that they need to work on, and I don't doubt they are represented in some of my dreams in one way or another. Sometimes it's very obvious, other times not so much.

This problem with the substance was actually from seeking help in medical science, so I have little to no trust in that anymore, even though I'm sure some people can be helped by it to some degree (but not as much as it's being promoted at the moment). Anyway, that's of course a whole other subject.

Very good point, but I can't come to think of anything that's problematic for me in a moral sense at this time. I've always valued a strong moral compass and prioritized it above other things. But I'm still pretty young, so maybe I just haven't had enough time to mess it up yet.