Hi all, was wondering if anyone else has felt this way on their LD journey.

100 lucid dreams since joining DV should probably be a big milestone, but it doesn't feel that way. I've reached a point where LDing is a function of time, meaning that if I sleep for X amount of hours (usually on the weekend), I will most likely have 2-5 spontaneous DILDs as I wake up. I haven't used any induction/awareness techniques or even dream journaled in the past month, and have still had 33 lucid dreams.

The problem is, I haven't really been enjoying the ones I do have. Although my recent lucid frequency is relatively high for me, my lucid dreams have been (in Yuschak's words) low-level: they are short, unfocused, and often sexual when they occur close to waking (which feels like wasted potential). I often have more fun in the dreams where I'm semi-lucid or not lucid at all, because they allow the dream to continue moving forward and unfolding in more interesting ways than the predictable patterns I fall into. I feel like Cypher wanting to take the blue pill, in that I'd almost rather have a nice old regular dream than one of my typical lucid dreams (I guess this is a separate problem, that of searching for wonder after disillusionment).

Of course I understand that a high-level lucid is totally achievable naturally and would most likely give me what I'm looking for, I'm just getting impatient and lazy I suppose (this is another pattern I see in all of the hobbies I partake in). Again sorry for the gripe, I usually hate this sort of thing. I'm sure I will snap out of it soon and get in the groove again soon.