fighting my demons

[seeker28]

The REAL reason I LD 12/20/07 I've been here long enough that I finally feel comfortable enough to talk about my true motivation for persuing lucid dreaming. I'm not here because I want to have mind-blowing LD sex or fight epic battles alongside my favorite characters from movies and games. The reason I'm here at DV learning about lucidity and dream control is a bit more complex. I have horrible nightmares due to some bad stuff I went through when I was younger. For several years my nightmares were so bad that I was didn't want to go to sleep. Then my doctor put me on a medication that sometimes helps nightmares due to trauma. The medicine worked! I've been taking it for a few years, but I've gotten to the point where I am ready to deal with all of the issues that cause the nightmares. I figure if I get good enough at LDing and controling my dreams I will deal with the nightmare issues AND I will no longer need to take the medicine. My doctor supports my goal. So far, over the last six months I have gone from taking 5mg of the medicine to only taking 2mg! I am so proud of that! Each time I step down my dose I have a huge resurgence in the nightmares, but I have come to look at it as a perfect chance to fight my own demons. Right now I am almost ready to go down again, to only 1mg. I am going to wait until the holidays are over, otherwise I would probably do it this weekend. I've reduced my dose again, down to 1mg. Hopefully soon the nightmares will return and I'll get to fight my demons again. Just wanted all of you to know.

[Luminous]

Way to go! Just remember that dreams are not real, so nothing there can physically harm you. I'm pretty much in the same situation as you, and I no longer have nightmares, even though I have anxiety attacks when I'm awake. The way I face my dream "demons" is that when I find myself in a nightmarish setting, I just face it, and let the bad things happen. It has surprised me how easy it is, and how effective it is. It never even turns into a nightmare for me.

[Jdog]

congrats. its nice to see lucid dreaming being used for something like this

[GestaltAlteration]

That's great and ambitious. Best of all it seems to be working. Awesome job.

[~Anthriel.Sai/Tsuyko//.]

That's nice man. One of the first times I LDed was facing a recurring evil monster in my childhood dreams. I still remember the dream and it motivates me to this day!

[Abra]

In one nightmare of my younger days, a comic book villain was out to get me. But then I sympathized with the traumatic life he went through, and we became friends. XD Based off of this experience, I believe when in a lucid nightmare, the best remedy is to just talk it out. Talking>running/fighting. Remember that when you become lucid in these dreams!