It was around 5pm today, and I had just finished doing some light house work when I decided I will just lay down and ‘rest’ my eyes. I was not expecting anything at all to happen since I just finished doing my hourly RC and I have been in a dry spell for at least 6-8 weeks. I have never made it to the point to consciously be lucid, but I have been practicing MILD & WBTB. My main goal for the last two months was to WILD (King Yoshi's WILD method). I have not been deterred by how difficult WILDing can be so I was expecting to put in months (if not years) of reality checking, daily awareness, and meditation time if I had to…enough of this rambling, here’s what happened!
As I was resting my eyes, I had that old familiar feeling of vibrations starting from the bottom of my feet to the top of my head. I was in a shock , as I don’t remember falling asleep, so I knew I wasn’t dreaming. I knew what the vibrations meant because I would always have vibrations and the sleep atonia with my spontaneous OBE's. The vibrations were strong, but I held onto my composure until I felt my spiritual self wiggle itself free…like magic, I was out !!! I immediately reminded myself not to get too excited and remember to stabilize myself (but, I couldn’t help but get excited, I have been waiting for this very moment!). I had practiced stabilization techniques in real life and what task I would do when (not if!) it was going to happen. Immediately I called out for 'clarity' and I needed to find the nearest mirror. I could tell I was still in my bedroom as I was able to make out my bedroom furniture and I had placed a big, full-length mirror in the living room 2 months ago just for this very moment. I already knew I was going to look at myself in the mirror…so that is exactly what I did! I ‘flew’ over to the mirror so I could look at myself and…well…I must be a vampire or the invisible woman because I didn’t have an image ! I had no image whatsoever! This threw me a little and I felt myself fading away and I began to feel myself go into my physical body. So, I lay still in the physical paying no attention to my physical, kind of like I was playing like I was going to sleep. Then, I felt the vibrations return and I patiently waited to separate from my body and once again…I was out !!! ‘Okay,” I tell myself, no bullsh#t this time, I have to go back to that mirror (TOTM or bust baby!)!!! I try to walk to the mirror, but instead I fly at warp speed towards the mirror (I tell myself, if I can’t see myself in the mirror at least I can teleport to the pyramids of Giza, like I had planned as backup). But, instead of going through the mirror, I over shoot my aim and I go over the mirror and go through the wall instead ! Frustrated, I lose focus and slowly I’m pulled back into my physical body…again. I tell myself, okay, let’s do this one more time! I play sleep and patiently wait and sure enough…the vibrations come back and I pop out for the third time !!! Yes, I’m out again! Okay, so I have a slight problem from here. I’m out for the third time and two of my attempts at my tasks have already failed. The only thing I can think of to do was to just get a little practice in with stabilization techniques (hey, this is my first conscious WILD!)…as I don’t have my ‘lucid-legs’ yet. I do stabilization drills such as focusing on my bedroom furniture and shouting ‘clarity now!’ just to see what happens. Then, something weird happens, some type of wind suction starts pulling me backwards with a force I can’t fight and I find myself being pulled off of my feet (if I have feet). This scared me because I did not know what this force was and why was I going backwards ??? I called on JESUS, I called on my friend Sibyline, I called for my mama! All I felt and saw was wind (if you can see wind)! As I wrestled with this ‘suction’ I felt my physical body moving and WHAM! I was back in the physical. I sat straight up in my bed wide-awake now and not willing to chance me forgetting what I just witnessed, I get my dream journal and write down everything with a vengeance!
I know this was long, but I wanted to put everything in detail because someone out there is frustrated right now with their attempt in lucid dreamng and they believe they will never be lucid and all their practice is just in vain. I'm here to tell you that it is not! I practiced everyday and did everything the seasoned dreamview facilitators, moderators, and members tell us to do. You just have to wait and let your mentality decide what is correct...this takes time. It may not happen as fast as you want it to, but you must understand you are different from everyone else. Don’t try to keep up with anyone! Go at your own pace, nice and slow! I’m here to tell you IT WILL PAY OFF! Keep practicing! Keep doing! Keep talking about it! Most importantly, be thankful for your set backs and your advancements, never give up and KEEP BELIEVING!
My thank you speech:
First of all, I would like to thank my higher power that continues to give me faith, hope, and love. I would also like to thank my friends at dreamviews for your constant encouragement: Sibyline, MasterMind, CanisLucidus, Zoth, OphiliaBlue, King Yoshi, Mr.0Blonde, Checker666, Gab, Paigeyemps, Xaneous, realdeal magic, sivason, Sageous, Chimpertainment, Brandonboss, dutchraptor and all dreamview family members and friends. You may not think that your postings make a difference, I'm here to tell you...they do.

One Love.
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