9. July 2014

Stayed the night with a friend but had some problems with falling asleep although i was very tired. But i must mentioned that he has that waterbed where you could regulate the temperature of the water or so like you desire. And damn that was such a indescribably feeling and i tried something similar to it when i visited my godmother the last time haha I must buy myself just a crazy waterbed as cool as those people one day in the very near future
However i did my MILD routine because it always helps me falling asleep much easier and it's also a good technique for lds.

I just said those mantras countless times to myself and i didn't recognize when i fall asleep but then i had this wonderful dream in my hometown where everything was just perfect: The people i met who smiled to me and also the familiar scenery was completely different but of course in a good way. Furthermore the wether was very comfortable. Not too hot or too cold. By the way i had some changes in my perspective without realizing it haha e.g i could saw everything like a bird...
Nonetheless while the sun was shining and everything was so abnormal bright i was walking through the streets towards the supermarket along with my sister who just came home to visit us. Suddenly there were a bunch of balloons flying besides us and i just took the chance to grab them and guess what happened~ they dragged me towards the sky and i was literally flying And in that moment i hold on for a moment and said nonstop i'm fucking dreaming nobody can stop me and i began to just enjoy the feeling of being truly aware that you are dreaming and literally flying at the same time. (if not that wouldn't be possible dude right? xD ) and because i knew that i was dreaming i knew i couldn't really die if i let go of those balloons and i did it because my heart was racing too fast because of the height like usual and i wanted to be a cat for a moment as well But in that moment the ground opened somehow. There was this huge hole and it was like i could look into the whole universe at once and it was the most beautiful thing i ever saw! :heart: My heart was pounding like crazy and everything was in slow motion so i could capture every detail i saw and felt; and although it was a ld i didn't change and control very much because everything was actually quite in the right place. And after that i entered into my dream world but not long after i arrived there i lost my focus and my sight went black and it was like i fall asleep in a dream and then i literally woke up in a complete new dream where i did some daily things again.

What a short but quite nice ld experience. Although i didn't really do something on my goal list like seeing christofer drew besides jared leto and having a fun time all together and listening to their beautiful voices i must say it was so wonderful and that just after a hard time hehe

=> no more suggestions and ideas for improvement except keep practicing like before!