Almost a full year ago I made that last post. Time really goes I suppose. This past month, perhaps even longer than that, I have been thinking about lucid dreaming. I haven't even had to make a conscious effort to make sure I think about it, it has just naturally been flooding my mind more often, which is certainly welcomed. So more often I have had it on the mind, and I have slowly crept back into the my desire to LD. I had been on a fairly long hiatus, and last time when I thought I was "back again" I really wasn't at the time. This time though it feels different, for as long as I have been thinking about it, pondering whether to jump back in or not, I think I can safely say it's time to increase my efforts again. The final motivation came to me last night/this morning at about 3AM. I awoke due to drinking too much water before bed. Got up, got back to bed and lightly thought about LDing. I lay on my back and just wait. 20 minutes go by and I cant fall asleep, so I finally roll over on my back, with a slight sense of defeat and fall asleep. Only I enter a dream, non lucid at first. I open a padlock and fall into a dark room where I cant move, realizing i'm experiencing REM atonia my awareness heightens but I wake up, partially an instinct to wake myself up from it as I did out of fear as a child, forgetting it's current usefulness in LDing for me. Now I lie awake and aggravated I woke myself up out of it. So I fall asleep again, and I immediately enter he dream conscious. I am amazed! It was short; 30 seconds long only. I had forgotten the feeling of being Lucid in the dream world and it was very rejuvenating. I wont link it here, it was short and a bit odd, but it's in my dream journal for those interested. There was even one more instance of becoming aware in another dream after that one but the recall is really lacking on it so I am hesitant to fully confirm it, despite recognizing my LD time-goals within the dream as the only fragment. Now that I remember the feeling, I want it back. This time though, I wont force myself and tire myself out of the practice like I did before.