Thread: sallybrarian's workbook

Day 7:
No booze and went to bed at 10pm. Did SSILD before bed again because 1. it makes me sleepy and 2. I consider it a reminder to do that again later.

I woke up around 4am, went to the bathroom, and got back in bed with the mental note to STAY AWAKE enough to actually complete all of SSILD (unlike the previous night!). It was very very difficult to stay focused. Around #5 of the quick part my brain was drifting to other topics and I kept roping it back in so I could move on to the slow parts.

Then...a very interesting thing started to happen after SSILD. A dream started to happen in which I was in a haunted house and getting really creepy vibes, BUT at the same time I was aware that I was in bed and I could feel my body and the covers' weight. So I am existing in both of these worlds...and I don't know what to do! I think "RC" except I don't really need to be doing one because I know that I'm not fully asleep! UGH. Then I tell myself well don't go doing a reality check and then end up moving your physical hand. So I wait for the dream to solidify...only to be sucked into the dream, not be lucid, and not even remember the dream later. BLAH!

But...again, another learning experience! Next time this happens I'm going to keep telling myself "I'm dreaming" instead of la di da going along with the dream plot.

Hey sallybrarian! You are doing such a great job of keeping up with your workbook!! You're setting an example for people like me who reeeeeeally fell off the wagon during the holidays. I'm going to try to follow your example and start getting serious again in the New Year!

Originally Posted by sallybrarian

Then...a very interesting thing started to happen after SSILD. A dream started to happen in which I was in a haunted house and getting really creepy vibes, BUT at the same time I was aware that I was in bed and I could feel my body and the covers' weight. So I am existing in both of these worlds...and I don't know what to do! I think "RC" except I don't really need to be doing one because I know that I'm not fully asleep! UGH. Then I tell myself well don't go doing a reality check and then end up moving your physical hand. So I wait for the dream to solidify...only to be sucked into the dream, not be lucid, and not even remember the dream later. BLAH!

This is great, you were right there!! Next time I'm sure that you'll nail this. I've turned dreams like these into full WILDs on several occasions, and the approach that always works best for me is to perform the reality check without engaging my muscles in any way. Instead I just imagine that my hand is reaching up to my nose or that I'm rolling out of bed OBE-style. Whatever is appropriate to the situation!

The main thing is to imagine the feeling of doing the RC or other motion rather than physically trying to do it. It's more like experiencing it than taking any physical action.

You should find your dream body doing precisely what you imagine and your physical body (which you can now completely ignore) lays there and spins up a beautiful dream for you.

Good luck... looking forward to seeing you continue! You are doing a great job right.