And again i have good news
Tonight i´ve had a short LD after SSILD WILD. This time i would say it was a real WILD... This time it was pretty exhausting because i didn´t want to fall asleep unconscious right away so i stayed up a bit longer ( about 40min, unintentionally, i wrote down a dream which seem to be a bit longer...) and than did again my SSILD voodoo followed by WILD. This time i count from 100 down and visualized the nummers (which worked pretty well) i noticed here and there i was distracted but because of the visualization it was easier to find back where i stoped counting. after each number i thought "i am dreaming" dont know if it is necessary next time i may try to just count. But now like i thought it would be i was more conscious and anxious not to fall asleep unconscious and so i managed after all to hit 1... and dumb thing i think i kind of got excited because what do you do if you hit zero xD... suddenly it got to warm under my blanket and i needed to put out my arm. i noticed more and more often i was somewhere in between and i saw for example my browser with a tap open dreamview or even heard a distand voice for a short period of time. but everytime i get an visual i "twich" and was a little more awake than before... i then tried counting again but always the same effect. i was to focused on realizing the moment i enter the dreamworld... i´ve then tried to imagine while counting to swing forth and back in my bed and i think i moved my eyes left and right which kind of worked too but again to focused when pictures or thoughts come up. i´ve tried to see through my closed eyes and to levitate in my bed but everything was to forced... i´ve tried it because i´ve read somewhere you need to see a dream where you can enter...
i then decided to just try to fall asleep again so i turned on my other side and did one or two more SSILD cycles. after some time wanting to sleep but still not giving up for 100% i was somehow really awake so i thought maby to do an RC and somewhat i finaly was in my LD....FINALLY^^
I got up and did some RC´s. and thought i would take my blanked and try to feel it intensly so my dream got stable. i then decided to jump out of my window and start exploring but everytime i want to jump i get scared "What if i´m not dreaming and really jump out of the fukin window?" so i did some more RC and looked around for proof. i tried btw thumb through palm for the first time. it was funny because i didnt trained it before so i had no expectation how it should look like. i pushed and pushed and somhow my skin everted on the other side and it was pretty obvious but i still catched me thinkin hm is this enough or is it still normal xD but enough of the RC´s i then was sure enough and jumped out of the window
i tried to jump on a bus but i didnt work so i run to the busstop but the thing started to ride away i run alongside and opened the door and jumped in. the busdriver was kind of complaning but i ignored him. (he should have just wait for a sec ) i then decided to talk to an DC (indended it before because i wanted to see what happen and i wanted to ask if she/he has something for me). i run thru the bus which now is a traffic streetcar and i want to decide to whom to talk. some faces dont look nice some look out of the window so i dont see them. after some steps everyone is turning their face away from me so i snap with my finger so they look. and it even worked . i see three girls, two of them don´t look friendly but one seems nice and i think i saw her before. i sit next to her and i start with: Hi. and she replies with a hi and how are you. i say fine bla bla.
after some time the image gets dark an i catch myself thinkin about my real body and i think i hear my roomate so this is the reason i wake up... in fact my roommate stil wasn´t up so i just tried to explain myself why i loose control instead doing something against it... i did one attempt by asking here if she has something for me. the visual gets clear again for like 3 seconds and then i hear her just saying something and i have a false awake. i kind of know but i have gum in my mouth what really irritates me so i loose my lucidity i then wake up for real and move imidiatly because i has the irresistable urge to strech... damn no DEILD this time
but still i am happy and stand up right away
i started my attempt at 7 am and woke up at 8:45 --> LD was max some minutes so damn i was way to long awake trying...

any suggestions how to get faster in transition to Dreamworld without loosing consciousness? and maby i was already long time dreaming (i dont think so but...) how to find it out faster? i mean doing everytime right away a RC would throw me back if i am not dreaming yet...
and i think its time to read some more about dreamstability and control... third lucid in a row not that vivid and long like i would like to...