Hello, seems I've found a home?!

[OldBlood]

First, i would like to say hello. That being said, may i jump right in, as i am rather desperate. I apologize for my openness. Since a very young age i have had a "special" relationship with the dream world. Memory of dreams came natural, seems i didn't have a choice. I would often sleepwalk/talk. Of course as a child i had no reference so dreams were dreams right. Around the teenage years my dreams became furious, unrelenting. I was learning Judo at one point, and found that i learned quit well in my dreams also. At this point i realized i was having two types of dreams, one that was fluid, changeable, and the other that was shocking and dramatizing. Either way, i have woken every morning my whole life with pools of sweat, a completely drenched bed, and completely exhausted from the nights dream. So, after graduating highschool, i am ashamed to admit that i spent six months doing nothing but sleeping and working out. I had no idea what lucidity meant. I did however practice identifying objects in my surroundings like an inventory throughout the day. It lent itself well to becoming aware in a dream, i would see a tree, and say, look a tree, then realize i was in a dream. Some were different though rare, and again i apologize for the complete ridiculousness of this, but, they would play out in my real life. As interested in all this as i was, real life was knocking on the door and i moved on. My dreams however did not. Unfortunately i have spent some years now self medicating, at least to forget the intensity and get some kind of sleep. Things are only worse now, its like someone is banging on a door with a sledge hammer, and im peeking through the window, still seeing what's going on out there, or in there, just not facing it. Im done medicating myself and avoiding whatever this is. To wake up in my sons bed at the same time as him, when he was 4, and have him say "Dad, that Kid at all the cake" and me say" that wasn't a kid, that was my cousin Crystal, shes just really short, before i even realize what i said, made me think i better get my head together, as it seems i have passed on this curse. Sorry, i know its not a curse, but,.well. I am soooo lost.!!!

[Typho]

Be as open as you want. Everyone here is really nice. If you ever have any questions, don't be afraid to ask anyone (Including me) Sounds like you are sort of a gifted dreamer. Jump right into dream control if your looking to end these nightmares.

[Matte87]

The part with your son was just wow. Also, it's definitely worth trying to get good at Lucid Dreaming before you do more medication. If you can change your dreams into something amazing and nice instead of what they are now, then that's gold worth. If you have any questions, ask away!

[OldBlood]

lots of questions, thought i came on way too strong there, thanks. The thing with my son has happen a number of times, hes now 8. I guess at this point im still trying to wrap my head around this site, just what i needed really. As easy as it is for me to just say im crazy, i cant, because im actually a very rational, critical thinking person. I guess at the moment it helps to just throw some of my stuff out there. At one point around three years ago i was having some trouble, i asked for some help, anything to validate my dreams, for the question does always linger, am i crazy. That night i had a rather uneventful dream, but i remember reading in my dream, and thinking isnt this not possible, what i read was three numbers. The next day i went to college, saw a good guy i met that seemed like a real human being, and i told him my dream. This is the funny part. Without saying a word, he walked down the row of lockers, stopped at a random lock, used the numbers and opened the lock, then looked at me as if i really was crazy. The cool thing is, we are still friends, he moved to my home town, and it seems to be fated, as lame as that sounds.

[DougD720]

I would definitely recommend getting good at lucid dreaming. Once you realize you're dreaming you can take control of your dreams and use them to do what you wish instead of having them be such a drain on you and take you where ever they want. With Lucid Dreaming you can take control. Good luck!

[Cacophony]

Welcome to DV! I look forward to seeing more posts from you around the forum!

[OldBlood]

so, i am dreaming, im at my parents house, my current wife is yelling at me and crying, and i sense its all over. Standing behind me is another girl, a thin brunette, the dream goes on for a while then i woke up. That morning my wife said, i was so mad at you last night in my dream. I dreamt that you left me for some brunette and i went to get you back at your parents house, but you were indifferent. I have others as well, and am seeking some sort of clarity as to whats going on. When younger, i was sleeping on a pullout couch with my best friend, we practised judo and arm wrestling together. He was also a "vivid" dreamer. In the dream it was pretty straight forward, a fight. the thing was, we both woke at the same time, as he was strangling me with both hands and i was punching him in the head. We looked at each other, didnt say a word, and went back to sleep. It was somehow just understood what had happened. Any insight would help greatly appreciated.