Hello. I just joined the site earlier today and thought I'd introduce myself. I've already posted on a couple of discussions that I've read, so I thought it would be nice to say "hi" before I post anything further. I started to have very vivid recall of my dreams when I was in high school. It sort of happened all of a sudden (or seemed to anyway). I remember waking up one morning before school and remembering every little detail of the dreams I had the night before. I spent the first class period in school writing it all down I was so excited about it. There were 4 dreams that kind of melded into each other, but definitely 4 very distinct backdrops for each. After that I remembered my dreams almost every night and continued to write them down. I would randomly have a lucid dream without knowing what it was and I was so excited about it that there were times I couldn't wait to go to bed at night. I didn't have them very often, but it was amazing when I did! Throughout the years I've continued to have them off and on, but a couple of years ago I decided to read into it more and try to have more of these experiences. Some of the suggestions seemed to help and others didn't seem to work much for me at all. Since it still happened so randomly, it was hard to say what really helped and what didn't, but what was amazing was that it was working!! I got to a point where I was having lucid dreams a few times a month; sometimes a couple times a week, sometimes back to back (night to night), sometimes only once a week or once every two weeks, ect. Anyway, I got to a point where I actually got kind of bored with them. I know that sounds crazy, but I just didn't know what to do with them. My regular dreams almost seemed more interesting because at least things would happen and I would just wake up and remember this amazing moment in time that I experienced while sleeping. I know that it's most likely my own personal blocks getting in my way of the full potential of lucid dreaming. I just couldn't seem to do anything. At first some amazing things happened: I talked to people and told them I was dreaming and had conversations; I was at a school where a woman told me that everyone around me was dreaming too and we were learning, she taught me how to control the weather and levitate; I visited an earlier lucid dream where I met myself and asked myself questions I didn't get to on the first visit (very awesome lucid dream the first time around, the second was a little disappointing); and others. Then I got to a stale mate and just seemed to be in a room by myself and couldn't go anywhere or find anyone. I was trying to find "guides" or meet people to talk to about dreams or find direction in my life, but nothing was happening. I'd try to walk through a wall and bounce off again. I'd know it was a dream and it was my own limitations holding me back, but I still couldn't manage to walk through the wall. If I was indoors I'd be afraid to go outside. If I was outside I just couldn't find anybody to talk to or anything to do and I got bored. I'd sit in this lucid dream waiting to wake up and think I'd rather be awake because "time" was ticking by so slowly and I had nothing to do.
Wow, this is a lot longer than I expected it to be! Long story that was suppose to be short, I gave up trying to lucid dream and they've dwindled to very far and few in between. I miss the journey and would love to learn how to grow with them instead of hitting a block and giving up. I love that this site has monthly goals to try to meet so I can try something different if I find myself in a lucid dream and I hope it helps me grow.
If anyone happens to take the time to read this super long post, I'd love to hear any suggestions or comments on the issues I faced at the time. I'm hoping to get back into lucid dreaming and if I do, I'm hoping not to run into the same issues.
Thanks for reading all of this for those that did!! I can't wait to get started and hear about everyone's journey