this is new and exciting discovery and I have my very first question

**ascv** · 05-25-2013 08:32 AM

Hello all,

I have always had an interest in what lays beyond our physical world and it has been delightfull to realize little by little that learning about our souls and the occult is an actual possibility. I recently discovered paganism, druidry to be more precise, and learning about my dreams and working with them will definately help me on my spiritual path. However, it will take me sometime before I can truly work with my dreams and thus the immediate reason why I joined this site is because I have had three very disturbing dreams in the past two years that share a common denominator and I was hoping that perhabs you could enlight me a little about the meaning of it. It is a very strange dream, i dont know how it starts, all i know is that at some point I find myself not being in control of my body, yet feeling as if I were. I say this because I feel that I cannot see and i dont know where i am going nor do i know what i am looking for yet i move in some direction. I feel completely disoriented, not knowing with whom i am talking to, yet talking to them, not knowing what i am wearing yet knowing that there is something wrong with it. and then, i suddently realise what is wrong with my situation and what it is that i am supposed to do, but i forgent almost senconds after. This happens on and off.
My physicial features are also distored, as if i were me, but not me. my face is streched out and very pale, in a very disturbing matter, only it doesnt seem so bad at the moment, it only feels that its not really me. I guess overall i am aware that things are not ok, but i am unable and almost unwilling to know what it is and why it is. Its very strange and im getting goosebumps as i write it, only it wasnt scary when it happened, only disorientating. And i would wake up and fall asleep right back into it again. It has happened three times. The last one being yesternight. I have almost zero experience with controlling my dreams (i only tried a couple of exercises about 5 years ago), I do sleep deprive myself sometimes, with school, insomnia or going out. And i do consume some drugs from time to time (mostly weed though). Could any one offer some insight?

**Zoth** · 05-25-2013 08:50 AM

Hello ascv! Welcome to DV!

I'd advice you to visit our Dream Interpretation sub-forum, as we got many people there that are always ready to help with dream interpretation. Personally, I'd advice you to try to analyze your dream again, because you're the only qualified person to do so. This of course assuming that all dreams can be interpreted ^^ Your dream could be the result of a struggle, a bad memory, with loads of symbols which is the way the brain opts to create dream content: not with logic, but with emotions.

Good luck!

**melanieb** · 05-28-2013 11:11 PM

Welcome to the forum, ascv!

I was going to also suggest you check out the Dream Interpretation section as many people find what they're looking for in there.

You mention a spiritual connection to dreaming so you may also like to visit the Beyond Dreaming section. In there people discuss all the connections and associations dreaming may have with spirituality and other realms. Beyond Dreaming

If you have questions please post them or send a PM to a Dream Guide like zoth, above.

Pleasant dreams!

**JoannaB** · 05-29-2013 02:39 AM

Welcome to DV, ascv! I don't know you well enough, and as Zoth already stated, you are the best interpreter for your own dreams. However, the dreams you describe remind me of my awareness of contradictions in my own personality, or apparent contradictions, and maybe that's what is going on with you as well? It could also be that you are confused or disturbed by something, or of two minds undecided which way is the best. In control and out of control at the same time, aren't we all most of the time? You cannot see and do not know where you are going and yet you keep moving - we often do not know what lies ahead in our future, and only some lucky people really know where they are going or think they do, and yet we keep moving into our future because we don't have a choice about that. The realizing what is wrong and forgetting moments later reminds me of dreams, so many insights lost forever just out of our conscious reach due to dreams forgotten as soon as we wake, and yet the insights may remain part of our subconscious. I hope that at least some of this helps, and if not, feel free to discard it.