Hello all,

I have always had an interest in what lays beyond our physical world and it has been delightfull to realize little by little that learning about our souls and the occult is an actual possibility. I recently discovered paganism, druidry to be more precise, and learning about my dreams and working with them will definately help me on my spiritual path. However, it will take me sometime before I can truly work with my dreams and thus the immediate reason why I joined this site is because I have had three very disturbing dreams in the past two years that share a common denominator and I was hoping that perhabs you could enlight me a little about the meaning of it. It is a very strange dream, i dont know how it starts, all i know is that at some point I find myself not being in control of my body, yet feeling as if I were. I say this because I feel that I cannot see and i dont know where i am going nor do i know what i am looking for yet i move in some direction. I feel completely disoriented, not knowing with whom i am talking to, yet talking to them, not knowing what i am wearing yet knowing that there is something wrong with it. and then, i suddently realise what is wrong with my situation and what it is that i am supposed to do, but i forgent almost senconds after. This happens on and off.
My physicial features are also distored, as if i were me, but not me. my face is streched out and very pale, in a very disturbing matter, only it doesnt seem so bad at the moment, it only feels that its not really me. I guess overall i am aware that things are not ok, but i am unable and almost unwilling to know what it is and why it is. Its very strange and im getting goosebumps as i write it, only it wasnt scary when it happened, only disorientating. And i would wake up and fall asleep right back into it again. It has happened three times. The last one being yesternight. I have almost zero experience with controlling my dreams (i only tried a couple of exercises about 5 years ago), I do sleep deprive myself sometimes, with school, insomnia or going out. And i do consume some drugs from time to time (mostly weed though). Could any one offer some insight?