Thread: I don't know what I am or how to control it.

Hi, little introduction first. I'm Kylan and I'm a 14 year old girl in the USA.

I guess I've had somewhat lucid dreaming for a long time, but never really payed much attention to it. While I'm falling asleep, I see and hear weird things that aren't actually there, sometimes I even hear music. While sleeping, for as a long as I can remember, this is the weird thing.

I can sometimes tell whether I'm in a dream or not, but I've always been able to wake myself from a dream I didn't like or change it to something else. For example, if I'm having a nightmare or I am aware of the fact that something bad is about to happen (another weird thing), I can simply blink hard and open my eyes to wake up. Sometimes, however, I have to do this multiple times, especially if I'm trying to change it into another dream.

I've had flying dreams for a LONG time. It's amazing! I know how to get in the air, how to fly, how to soar, and even how to change speed and lower back to the ground. I'm smiling at the moment just thinking about it. I usually jump off the ground at an angle to get into it... I don't ever remember failing an attempt at it. While in the air, I'm typically slowly moving up, but I don't know how to explain the way I move. I just think where I want to fly, and I fly there. I sort of contract my muscles and push my body by will in order to speed up, and the opposite to slow down. I often am being chased by someone or something while flying, and this actually was what happened last night while I was dreaming.

I was being chased by someone, I don't remember who or why. I flung myself into the air and glided around as fast as I could, but the person was also very fast. I think I almost got caught and I was freaking out, and then the dream changed. I was in a sort of obstacle course/fairground, but where I stood involved a ramp going underground (where I did not end up going, just standing over) and people were blasting loud music. It was almost a show; I remember the principal of my school coming by and asking them to turn that inappropriate music off, but they turned it up louder to show it was club music instead. There was different events at certain climaxes in the music... One time, when the bass was pumping, I remember shallow water flowed up and down the ramp, and I couldn't help but think how the people were not drowning due to the angle of the ramp. A lot of other stuff happened that I cannot explain... At the end I was buying candy. Sometime in the middle of the dream, it was dark outside and I was walking by what seemed to be an L-shaped electrical circuit thing, and there were two stray cats, one grey and one black and white. The grey one was a kitten. I sat down with them to comfort them and slept there until the dream changed.

Anyway, I saw some people who I knew and some I haven't seen before during my dream. Towards the end of it, there was someone who was important to me, a girl. I do not recall seeing her physical form, only sensing her appearance, and I could tell she was there the entire time but did not realize it until the end. I looked down at a paper in my hands and saw the word written "madicraison". Often in my dreams, I try to get people's names and I try to take pictures on my phone, hoping to the end of the earth that they'll be there when I wake up or that I'll find the person. I feel like the people in my dreams are not DC's, but actually other dreamers. I always want to get in touch with them but have never succeeded.

I spent my morning looking up "madicraison" and other variant forms that could possibly have been this. I have again not succeeded and I am very disappointed. I feel as if another dreamer and I had a shared dream, but we are inexperienced in the area of recognizing it and she was trying to get me to contact her, but I failed. This sort of thing has happened before.

As the title of this thread says, I don't know what I am or how to control it. I don't know if I'm supposed to be someone who holds a dream share or someone who accidentally ends up dream sharing with people over and over again. I want to know how I can become better at recognizing the difference between a DC and another dreamer, and how I can find who they are or if they've actually been the same person/people who have been dream sharing with me my entire life, if that makes sense.

If this was you in my dream, please tell me. I feel like someone has been trying to contact me for a long time. And anyone who is more experienced than I am at this sort of thing, please help me!

Also, I would be open to any expert dreamers visiting my dreams. I don't know if I have a dream guide; I've never noticed it before. Thank you!

-Kylan