Hello. I started my adventure with lucid dreams about a year ago. So far, I've never had even one...Well, not a properly working one. However, I think I have some severe problems, such as...

- High functioning Asperger's. I'm afraid that because of my different brain structure, I may be unable to have lucid dreams, but apparently some people have it and are able to have them.

- While I can remember my dreams quite well, I never have my real memories...at least in dreams where I'm not blind. I never have control, it's like "I", but not me, is making each decision. Dreamworlds are realistic but not detailed.

Every time I try to enter a LD state (Possible only accidentaly in the morning after waking up from a not-LD, FILD is impossible to perform for me) it ends with a "Blind Dream" which I believe is a reversed sleep paralysis. When it begins, I can hear an increasingly loud tinnitus, and then I'm in control of my body, but I can't determine whether it's my dream or real body. I can't see anything, and methods such as opening eyelids don't work. I can't even create a world. While in such dream, I have access to my full memory, but it's useless, there's nothing but a dark void. By moving my body hard enough, I can exit this dream at will.

So this is my story so far. Can anyone tell me what that weird dream is (Paralysis or something else?) and why I have it? I hope that I will have a nice time here