Welcome Lucina,

I too can relate to the fear of being constantly judged. I always used to feel like eyes were on me when I walked out in public, or thought that for some reason everyone would drop what they were doing and would rear their attention towards whatever I thought was wrong with me (as ridiculous as that sounds).

Things changed when I got a job at a science centre about a year ago which basically forced me into having to deal with the public head on (this was scary for me). After a year though, my confidence level has seriously soared. I open up to strangers now, where as a year ago, I wouldn't dare talk to a stranger for fear of saying something stupid, and often the fear alone would cause me to act stupidly.

Anyways, enough with the Dr. Phil... mumbo jumbo

I too have just recently joined the forum a few days back. The community seemed great from the posts I've read through weeks before joining, and the fact that it was a community of dreamers was the cherry on top for me! It's really good to see a fellow Canadian (or what seems to be a fellow Canadian) joining up, although on these forums I truly feel like nationality doesn't make any difference, but there's still a slight sense of pride involved there.

Big fan of Enya as well although Enigma is my audio drug of choice!

Anyways, best of luck on your road to lucidity! I've had three experiences in the past three weeks since I've been getting back into dreaming (my last before then being about three years ago), and I must say that even with only a small degree of control at this moment, it feels absolutely incredible!

Cheers!