Don't worry about not having proper 'normal' dreams. If your control is good then you can access your sub/unconscious by asking to! Or ask via a proxy e.g. a dreamguide or DC guru. If you can't understand their answers (the unconscious likes to speak in symbols for some reason) ask for a better answer, or ask for a present, a song, a painting - whatever - something you can 'take out of' the dream into waking life and more easily interpret with your fully conscious waking mind (and also with access to the internet for research - DV / google&#33 Ask to be taken to a dream where you can confront your deepest fears. Ask why it is that you cannot suspend disbelief. Try meditating in your dream or falling asleep!

This morning i got a breakthrough: after i realised i was dreaming, and the dream was unpleasent, i decided to get up. and so i did..i broke the dream and my sleep. of course i was feeling sleepy and tired the whole day, but at least i started to fight against controlling my dreams. [/b]
I cant quite understand this. If you have fully lucid control why didn't you just alter the dream rather than wake yourself up? It doesn't sound like you succeeded in fighting dream control - rather you succeeded in using dream control to wake up?!

Do you keep a dream diary? What's your recall like? How many dreams a night do you remember ? How much detail can you remember? (Another way of asking this would be: How many pages would you fill describing the dreams of one night?) Does clarity/ vividness vary? In what proportion of them are you aware that you are dreamng? After how long in a particular dream do you realise that you are dreaming? What makes you realise? In what proportion do you have full control? What level of control do you have (flying? teleporting? manifesting objects? shape shifting? walking through walls? etc) Do you ever loose consciousness?!

The reason I'm asking is for partly because it may be that you are not lucid for as long as you think. Also you invited us to study you!

Can I also recommend you try relaxation methods (if you don't already)- such as various kinds of meditation? It will undoubtedly help no matter what is going on!!!