I've covered the basics in another thread, but I'll recap here. I have dreams where I almost always have control over a variety of things, but it's more a feeling than an active "this is a dream" though. However, I do often think "this is a dream", and nothing seems to change. The dreams is just as hazy and murky as before, and I don't gain control over anything else. My RC indicated I was awake, although I knew I was dreaming.

My question is more: the accounts I've heard of lucidity made it sound like a new experience, like it had clarity, a wave of omnipotent happiness, and more logical thought, even on their first one. My experience is not at all like that. Why is my experience so different? (if I was even lucid..) Has anybody else had this? That a lucid dream is still very murky, and your brain still feels asleep? Does anybody know why this is?

And before somebody says I've asked this before, I haven't. I've asked some similar questions, like why I didn't become lucid, and was told that I was lucid in this dream... didn't feel very conscious.