There are very few things in this thread I haven't done.
- I fantasize about specific ghosts and boogeymen to make them less frightening, if I happen to be in some creepy place, that is. Either that, or I at least imagine holding hands with them and going bug hunting or flower picking or just having a really fun conversation. Sometimes I imagine obscure things like fixing a car together.
- I have an OCD tick where I rub/push the the cuticle of each thumb with its adjacent index finger, then I use the thumb to rub/push the cuticle of each finger one at a time in a synchronized fashion. Then I slide each thumb along the inside base of the fingers in their respective hands. Then I push my thumbs down between each finger. Then I sometimes do a combination of two or all of these, sometimes I switch up the order, but I do it a lot. Almost every time I'm done typing and I do it almost constantly without realizing it when I'm walking around. It sounds like a lot but the main ritual is over in less than 5 seconds, I just repeat it for a long time.
- I clench my butt cheeks as hard as I can and then punch them with all of my strength. I do this mostly while cooking.
- I clench my butt cheeks together or individually to music that I'm listening to or making up in my head.
- I have abstract imaginings of physical analogies for how my thoughts work in a particular situation. For example, when I was writing out some stream of consciousness blabber in my thread, "writing in a yellow hilroy", I was picking and choosing the "loudest" things in my mind (kind of takes away from stream of consciousness). I imagined a tube going through a slightly bigger tube. The small tube was my conscious train of thought/me choosing words while the bigger tube was my mind and stream of consciousness. The "loud" words in my head appeared as bumps or irregularities on the inside of the big tube, and when the smaller tube whizzed by, it would scrape those bumps off and collect them and I would write them down.
This unfortunately happens a lot when I'm trying to portray a thought or opinion or theory on how the world/people/etc work(s). I often have a hard time putting my visual thoughts into words and articulating myself well.
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