Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Ok, to get back on topic, another belated rant about another collision with another broken bottle. (Hah! Combo unbroken! Deal with it!)

It was my birthday if I remember right, and a friend and I were walking around my neighborhood late at night smoking a joint. This was after hitting every liquor bottle under my mom's kitchen sink. We had a real good buzz on. Suddenly a car swung around the curve behind us and my friend thought it was cops, and we jumped over the guardrail into the edge of the woods. After it passed we got up and I was having a little trouble walking. For some weird reason my left leg didn't want to work right at the hip joint. I put a hand there and it was all wet - and then my finger sank into a gash that I did not even know was there! (That's how drunk we were)

I patched that one up myself and let it heal its own way. Still got a big scar there.

You've just got bad luck with that, huh. Alright, here's a gripe you've made me think of.... I can't smoke weed anymore, and it makes me mad. Every time I do it leads to . Not really news (it's been that way for around a year), but I'm still unhappy about it. >:/

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Doesn't Bulgaria have all-night gas stations?

Oh, yes! Thanks. My Bulgarian brain is still sleepy.

I think I overate at dinner and i feel like shit!
I also feel pretty upset, and drained. I've felt drained all day. And changing moods completely within like 2 seconds.

On the bright side, i discovered one of my new favorite words, obsequious.

Bah, this post of Erii made me realize that i forgot to take some food. Never mind, I'm having my coffee now and the world looks brighter. Ready to make mess of everything this day!

EDIT 7.30AM- Time for me to see the chief.

I just realized your avatar is looking up at the glowing cat.

It's like your dog is saying "Da fookk!?" to the cat

Random speculation and realization.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Oooooo Ouch!!! Ok, here's a belated rant from when I was about 15 (and no, there were NOT dinosaurs then! ). Me and a friend were running through the woods being dumbasses, picking stuff up and throwing it for reasons I don't remember. I saw a beer bottle that was half submerged in the dirt, picked it up by the neck and threw it all in one fast motion. Turned out it was more like half of a beer bottle, and it was partially filled with dirt to make things worse. Well, a jagged spike of glass ripped a huge gash across the palm of my hand and it had dirt all caked up into it (which grossed me out pretty bad) but what was worse - there was something hanging out of the cut that I thought was an earthworm. I almost threw up, then tried to pull it out of the cut, but it would not come out no matter how hard I pulled. Turned out it was actually a muscle that had been severed.

After my mom cleaned it all up she took me to the hospital, and the doctor asked me if I could touch my pinkie to my thumb. I was all like 'well of course I can' and tried, and I couldn't even move them that way at all. It really freaked me out, cause I felt like if I just tried a little harder I'd be able to do it, and I sat there straining. He told me to stop and then they fixed me all up. Did a good job too - I don't even seem to have a scar from it.

Ok Solar - look what you started now!

Fuck.... my hand hurts now lol That's seriously fucked up, trying to pull your own muscle out of your hand.
JESUS FUCK!

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You've just got bad luck with that, huh. Alright, here's a gripe you've made me think of.... I can't smoke weed anymore, and it makes me mad. Every time I do it leads to . Not really news (it's been that way for around a year), but I'm still unhappy about it. >:/

I know that feel, bro. Just wait a couple of years, then start back in to it slowly, every one in a while. You might get stoned really easily.
I only have to smoke like one hit off a joint and I'm fucked now. Same think happens to my friend. But maybe that's just us.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I can't smoke weed anymore, and it makes me mad. Every time I do it leads to

Yeah, same thing happened to me after a few years, I had to quit.

Originally Posted by Erii

And changing moods completely within like 2 seconds.

Well, your avatar is a prefect illustration of that then!

Originally Posted by tommo

Just wait a couple of years, then start back in to it slowly, every one in a while. You might get stoned really easily.
I only have to smoke like one hit off a joint and I'm fucked now. Same think happens to my friend. But maybe that's just us.

Nah, I'm the same way. I was anyway, when I still smoked every once in a while.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Oooooo Ouch!!! Ok, here's a belated rant from when I was about 15 (and no, there were NOT dinosaurs then! ). Me and a friend were running through the woods being dumbasses, picking stuff up and throwing it for reasons I don't remember. I saw a beer bottle that was half submerged in the dirt, picked it up by the neck and threw it all in one fast motion. Turned out it was more like half of a beer bottle, and it was partially filled with dirt to make things worse. Well, a jagged spike of glass ripped a huge gash across the palm of my hand and it had dirt all caked up into it (which grossed me out pretty bad) but what was worse - there was something hanging out of the cut that I thought was an earthworm. I almost threw up, then tried to pull it out of the cut, but it would not come out no matter how hard I pulled. Turned out it was actually a muscle that had been severed.

After my mom cleaned it all up she took me to the hospital, and the doctor asked me if I could touch my pinkie to my thumb. I was all like 'well of course I can' and tried, and I couldn't even move them that way at all. It really freaked me out, cause I felt like if I just tried a little harder I'd be able to do it, and I sat there straining. He told me to stop and then they fixed me all up. Did a good job too - I don't even seem to have a scar from it.

Ok Solar - look what you started now!

Ahh.. how long was it before you could move the fingers? Something similar happened to my brother once, except he was unable to use his entire right hand for like half a year.

Finally finished my Chemistry Online Homework.

Most likely going to get a bad grade since I did most of the work that required clicking instead of using my brain (spam click True or False)...I hope I get a C...I've never looked forward to C's in my LIFE.

College, I really can't procrastinate anymore, it's not fun like it was in High School.

Originally Posted by tommo

I know that feel, bro. Just wait a couple of years, then start back in to it slowly, every one in a while. You might get stoned really easily.
I only have to smoke like one hit off a joint and I'm fucked now. Same think happens to my friend. But maybe that's just us.

That's pretty much the plan. :/ I still don't have high hopes though. I know other people who've had this happen to them from just smoking weed for long enough, but mine was pushed on by tripping way too frequently and in too high doses, and in a terrible state of mind for it, I was just trying to escape. It was all good at first but eventually I started having really negative trips, so I upped the doses even more so I'd be too far gone to even have experiences that could be called positive or negative. >_< I eventually stopped that incredibly destructive behavior, but by then whenever I smoked weed I would start tripping really hard again, and I'd be back in the terrible mindset. It took about seven or eight months of sobriety for my residual visuals to finally go away, but even after that smoking just sends me straight back to that mindset. It's obviously not the end of the world if I can't go back, I've become a much happier and healthier person since I moved out of the lifestyle, but is a pity that I can't enjoy something so awesome and harmless anymore. :/ But oh well, clearly it's a common enough occurrence.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Yeah, same thing happened to me after a few years, I had to quit.

That's pretty much where I'm expecting this to go. *sigh* It's not a huge loss, just an annoying one.

Hmmmm, could try smoking some good Indica, if you can get it. Like if you're in a place with medical marijuana. It should stop the visuals.

Originally Posted by tommo

Hmmmm, could try smoking some good Indica, if you can get it. Like if you're in a place with medical marijuana. It should stop the visuals.

If and when I try it again, that's probably what I'll do. I don't think it's worth trying right now though, I am a little prone to anxiety at the moment, I could definitely use some more time off. I don't know though. Part of me thinks I really only want to smoke it because I remember how it is when you first start, but not because I actually really have any strong desire to be high, if you know what I mean. I would actually love to trip again now that I'm in a good place in my life, but if I can't even handle a bowl of weed I don't think I'll be able to take a journey like that.

Although, I think these days I would probably prefer something shorter anyway.... It's not my favorite psychedelic, but I suppose I could probably try DMT again one of these days. I mean, it's quick so even if I do freak out it won't last very long.... *poor excuse*

<.<

>.>

I just miss tripping lol. Eeeh, I can't do it though. :/ Psychedelics are an addiction to me, and I'm not done working on my new, better life yet. Gotta keep my head in the game. *sigh* /End rant....

I drink a lot.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I drink a lot.

Take consolation in that there is always worse than you .

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I just miss tripping lol. Eeeh, I can't do it though. :/ Psychedelics are an addiction to me, and I'm not done working on my new, better life yet. Gotta keep my head in the game. *sigh* /End rant....

Just remember that bit. When you're happy, comfortable and content with this reality, you will be able to trip much more safely and happily.

i need a password to view a post i made yesterday that didn't require one?
wtf dv

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I drink a lot.

Same here. And actually, I am currently 4 days sober, and I WANT A FUCKING BEER!

That being said, I quit drinking on the weekdays. Weekends are still fine. So.... 1 more night without beer, and tomorrow night. I play the wonderful game of drinks.

I finally decided to open the jar again...

and....

I DID IT!

I was sweating so much by the time it was over.... I dont take pain very well

I was going to make a meme for that, but I decided that the smiley you used was funny enough xD

Congratulations!

New Signature quote:

"Life is like a jar that has a sharp top filled with expensive chocolates. Diabetics can't enjoy either."

excessive use of the meme, and unnecessary use of the thumbs up option has ruined the significance behind their meaning

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I was going to make a meme for that, but I decided that the smiley you used was funny enough xD

Congratulations!

New Signature quote:

"Life is like a jar that has a sharp top filled with expensive chocolates. Diabetics can't enjoy either."

and.... done

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Ahh.. how long was it before you could move the fingers? Something similar happened to my brother once, except he was unable to use his entire right hand for like half a year.

I honestly don't remember how long it took. It's been so long all I can recall now are the highlights.

I told my youngest boy about your story, Darkmatters and he majorly cringed as did I. Pulling on your muscle?

Glad to here you finally beat the jar, SolarFlare I hate difficult containers!

My rant of the day, so far, is that my anxiety is a little crazy. I had "court" with my boy today and they want him to take a GED pre-test before placing him anywhere on the 10th of next month. The meeting went really well.
But the Prosecuting Attorney wasn't there so I still don't know if my oldest daughter is coming home for their Christmas break. Which means, I have to go to her function at the facility today. I have to leave in less than an hour and I'm not looking forward to it in the least. There are way too many people there and WAY too much chaos.
It will be nice to see her though

I've been feeling fine except to look down. But I'm trying to catch a cold and I've been extra sleepy these last couple days (probably anxiety in anticipation of today).

**EDIT**
Just re-read the letter. The shindig doesn't start until 4, so I don't have to leave until 3:15. *Whew*
Now I can take a nap until 3

So, canceling out my windfall, I've discovered my new-ish roommate is a reverse-acclimater. For the past 2-3 months, he's been keeping his room 80+ degrees with an electric space heater. Something should have clicked from the fact that he's never wearing more than a wife beater around the house. I include utilities in his rent, and didn't catch it until now, so I'm kind of back and forth on whether to ask him to kick in extra on the bills. I figured from the start that I'd come out ahead in some months and behind in others.

We've taken measures to rein it in (cranking the furnace, which is cheaper with my gas plan, but less comfortable for me), but the electric bill is already at least $100 higher than it needed to be :/

I could see a 14-year-old girl thinking it's okay to maintain tank-top temperatures in December, but a dude my age? C'mon.