I've wanted to post this for a few weeks now. It's challenging to find the motivation to type.

I'm not looking for sympathy or solutions. And I'm not looking for inane comments. I thought maybe people who are currently depressed could share their experiences so that those reading don't feel so isolated and alone. I have this theory that the most depressed people are the ones who reach out the least. I very rarely post about this topic, though it consumes much of my daily thought.

I feel selfish typing this out. Seeing so many I's in this post is not helping.

Anyways, feeling low here.. Been to the hospital many times. Cut too many times to count. Live alone. Don't work. Leave house about once a week. I've had a decent childhood and feel that I've lived a decent life.

The song Lull by Blindspott is a song that perhaps best describes how I think I feel:
Blindspott - Lull - YouTube

If there are any lurkers who feel the same, you are not alone.