Thread: Daily Goals and Accomplishments

Man, you and the State. But I'm not going to meddle you with questions

I have a few dreams I need to write down. Have probably 5days worth over the last 2wks maybe. Haven't been dreaming much. That and I've been super lazy to even write the key words down, so I'm missing a few coz I never wrote them down

Truck's hangers are welded on, yes! I need to tighten up the Ubolts, and refill the shocks with gas, gas tank back in, bed bolted down and I'm good! That and I still have my boots to polish, a dessert to get, and reading to do... ugh

The State can go to bloody Hell.
My daughter spent the summer with cousins. A neighbor at the nearby trailer park was mad at the man of Cousins house and reported he was having sex with my daughter. An investigation followed AND WAS DROPPED. Now I'm being investigated because of an unfounded case? I don't bloody think so.
I have never been served with papers, though the worker is always happy to read the charges off to me.
SERVE ME WITH SOMETHING or leave me the hell alone!
The case was dropped. I don't know how much I can stress that.

But their kids were taken anyhow. I left my daughter there yesterday for support. Now the bloody State tells me I'm not allowed to do that.
Suck it.

My house is clean and it will stay that way. But they're not coming in without a warrant and I told her that earlier when she called.

Thank God I took a Lortab, or I'd be enraged right now.

My goal today is to doing absolutely freagin nothing.
Tomorrow I get ZZChild Child Support (i.e. money lol) and I'll get more time for my phone and actually call my lawyer.

Let the dance begin.

**Edit**
My youngest daughter got the instigator on secret recording saying she made the whole thing up which is why it was dropped.

Copied/pasted from the Health forum:

"Just got back from the Dr.'s and my arm is a lot worse than I thought. Dr. said I had multiple breaks which were in pieces. The X-Ray was okay today but he wants to see me again on Monday to take another X-Ray. He's worried that things will become out of place because I can move my fingers now.
AND the meds were causing my bathroom troubles.

I dont know how long I'll last with this blasted cast. It, in itself hurts. And I'm a chronic knuckle popper, but I cant pop the ones in the cast which is causing cramps in my fingers.
Yeah, yeah... wahhhh... I'm a big baby lol

And to think, we're moving back up to the Farm this weekend *sigh*
What fun, what fun... "

Yep... that's my goals for this weekend. The State doesn't harass us when it takes them almost an hour to drive to our house. Hubby also agreed to get trash service and Satellite internet up there, which is a MAJOR plus. He's bringing up a washer and dryer this weekend and there's a leak in the bathroom that needs fixed. And the dogs can roam free, which they'll love. They hate being tied up outside.

Ugh... I never did call my lawyer. I took a Lortab, though and am ready for sleep. I guess it can wait until Monday. I couldn' sleep last night so I'n exhausted.

Truck is back together, yah! Rides a little better and a little higher as well. Funny how moving a pivot point 2" forward makes a good difference. I need to get the shocks charged, but rode prett well to the gas station despite being empty, lol. I'm glad I'm driving it. I love driving our 91 Camaro, but it was getting a tad annoying, lol

Fire Academy starts tomorrow! Today I polished 2 sets of boots, ironed my shirts, and got everything else in order (going to make my sandwiches for tomorrow). Then up at 5am to get ready and pick up my buddy at 6am so we can get to school and start at 7am. I'm excited

WOOHOO *dances with Armistice*

Today, I took my 16 year old to an eye appointment to get new glasses; I picked up a prescription for Celexa (anxiety med). I cleaned my bedroom some then ate some Ramen.

I'm having a VERY bad day today. I didn't wake up until noon and I've been having (no exaggeration) constant freagin adrenaline surges. They've subsided since I've eaten, but flair if I move or think or pretty much do anything at all except type. Scratching my freagin head causes a surge. This is ridiculous!
If it's still happening tomorrow, I'm going to drop in and see my pdoc.

I saw my hubby earlier and he said I looked 10 years older. I told him he wouldn't believe how exhausting constant adrenaline rushes are. I'm ready to go back to bed.

Oh yeah... we're probably not moving back to the Farm after all.
We've heard nothing else from the State yet.

I wish I could type more. I miss it here and have a PM to respond to (I'm sorry Noogah).
I've been running a fever, my arm hurts, my OCD is flaring and I want to saw this damnable cast off (instead, I sawed off the part that goes under my fingers and over my thumb).
Because I'm feverish, I'm sweating, and the cast smells like something dead.

Hubby came over tonight and finally replaced the dryer unit. We'll have to make due with our washer for a while yet... but when it dies, the dryer is a stackable unit with washer beneath and we'll use it. I hekped him a tiny bit. All I've been doing is sleeping a reading.

Tomorrow, I need to clean my room again and lecture my daughter. She was staying the night with one friend, then sent me a message saying she's staying with another one (in Town, the first girl is a neighbor!)
I also need to due a ton of laundry.

tomorrow i plan on helping my aunt with her yard work. if i have any strength left i'll probably just go to a movie, i'm simple like that

yard is taking care of, no movie though

In wk 2 of academy. Did some SCBA donning training yesterday and tested today. 2 guys got sent home unfortunatley because they didn't pass the SCBA donning test

We then did a course where you see how long a full bottle will last you. COurse consisted of a 3story tower and do 15 jumping jacks, then to the 4 story tower and yell our class moto from the roof, then to the second floor and back down, repeat. Go until the vibrating alert comes on, lay on your face, and control your breathing. I just started my 3rd lap and had to lay down, but lasted for 38mins and was the last person to run out of air, yah!

Also, vid of me donning my turnouts and SCBA (vid from last night)

WOOT WOOT! Way to go Armistice!
Impressive video!

Hope you get to a movie GreenHavoc.

I sawed off some more of my cast. My thumb is completely free, but it angles upwards so that some cast is under my pinky. I scratch it inside with a cat and and my wrist still feels swollen and a little lumpy/bumpy in a wrong sort of way and my wrist (which was only dislocated if I understand correctly) hurts. My arm doesn't hurt at all. Ugh... and to think I don't see the Dr. until Oct. 06. I honestly don't think I'll last that long.
I'm a chronic knuckle popper and when I pull on my left thumb (the broken side) my wrist feels like it wants to slide out of place. If I brace my arm against me that doesn't happen. When I'm asleep is the hardest. But I discovered that taking 10 mg Valium with 100 mg Seroquel knocks me right out (by themselves I get groggy but nothing else) and I get the best sleep I've known in years.

Tomorrow I see my pdoc.
Other than that, it's laundry, laundry and more laundry.

I ended up sawing off my cast completely... after having it on for only 2 weeks and 3 days. I'm an idiot. But at least (for now) I'm a MUCH more comfortable idiot. Hot baths are HEAVEN
If I'm going out, I keep it in a splint and a sling. If I'm bumming around the house, I keep it free but usually wrapped in "Bengay" sticky patch. It's hardly swollen but it does hurt a bit... but on a scale from 1-10, it's usually only a 2-4.
I take Tylenol and now Naproxen.

I saw my p-doc yesterday. He was displeased about my self-medicating with Valium, so we agreed that I would throw away half of what I have (when I told him I've had the stuff for about 10 years he convinced me but telling me about deterioration being a possible problem). He also convinced me to see my Bone Dr.
I went to the office to make an appointment, but he's unavailable unil Oct. 06 lol.

I went shopping this morning around midnight, been getting laundry done and folding clothes. I've had no appetite but my son cooks. He asks if I want anything and I shrug and say a little. Then I scarf it down lol. It's weird for me. I don't realize I'm hungry until I start eating. Must be the meds.
I slept pretty okay NOT wearing the splint and taking no meds. But I'm definitely not as well rested (and my dreams were boring unlike the epic ones I've been having of late).

Tomorrow it will be a slow day until around 4PM. Either my folks or my sister (ugh) are coming over to the house to pick up my youngest daughter for a weekend with them.
This weekend, I need to light a fire under hubby's rear and get that drywall and paint picked up.
And because my kids are mostly physically useless, I need to crawl under the trailer to cut some of the duct work off and do some measuring so we can buy more and get the duct work fixed. It's already getting cold enough to turn the heat on at night.
Then I need to light another fire under hubby and have him call the furnace repair people.

It's not going to be an enjoyable weekend. And I really hope y folks don't come over just yet. But it's inevitable seeing how they drove up from Florida (to WV) to visit family. They tend to trigger me into a very bad place emotionally and I'm already anxious that I'll start self-injury again because of something they'll say or do. I've been behaving myself for over a month now and don't need a relapse!!!

Ugh... tomorrow is going to be a hectic day. It's going to be a hectic weekend and up-coming week.
We are moving back to the Farm.

There's just too much freagin drama on the local level. A gang of kids (and a few 19 year olds) want to beat up my 14 year old daughter for supposedly having sex with a 30 some odd year old man who happens to be her cousin. The person who started that rumor also had the State called on my cousins and their children taken away.
The drama and allegations are out of control and it's only a matter of time before the State's back up my butt.

BUT- one for the little people- I had stood my ground and I didn't let the State inside without a warrant and a couple days ago I received a letter saying that the allegations of me abusing my 14 year old were unfounded and the case against me was dropped.
*WOOT WOOT!*

But it's only a matter of time.
Especially in light of one of the phone calls I have to make tomorrow.

One is to the Board of Education in which I am going to TELL them, my 14 year old will no longer be attending public school unless they can assure her protection. She is harassed both at the bus stop, on the bus and at school, physically, verbally, emotionally.
Enough is enough.

I also need to call and have trash service, phone and satellite internet connected.

Even though my oldest son is now 18 years old and legally old enough to watch his siblings for extended periods of time, I will most likely NOT be going to Chicago with my hubby on the 14-21. Knowing the State, that's when they'd strike.

My parents are playing nice. They came over and the house was messy (but not trashed), and they didn't even raise an eyebrow.
WHICH IS NOT LIKE THEM AT ALL.
I'm in major paranoid mode.
My folks are planning on moving to WV from FL if pops can find a job. Perhaps they're playing nice so they can be more a part of our lives.
But I don't think so. My gut tells me they have ulterior motivations of the bad kind.

Blah... I called the satellite internet people and they said they don't recommend internet phoning because there'd be too much lag and it would sound like a walkie talkie. Same for gaming like EQ2 or WOW. They also require a 2 year commitment which my hubby automatically nixed.
I couldn't get through to ComCast.

But I got trash service started *WOOT WOOT*
And I called a neighbor who helps as a handiman and I told him about the bathroom leak which he'll fix on Sunday.
I drove behind hubby to a nearby tire place for new tires, but they ordered the wrong ones, so I have to take his car in on Monday.
I'm NOT going with hubby on his trip. There's just too much BS going on.

After taking 2 Tylenol PM's, 1 1/2 valiums (15 mg total) and then 1/2 a Seroquel (all spaced out over 6 hours) I finally fell asleep by 4AM *sigh* I was up by noon. I slept fitfully.
I don't handle stress very well.

*Edit*
Oh yeah... I also called the head for the Board of Education to inform her about the troubles my girls have been having and to discuss alternatives and solutions but she wont be in until Monday. I left a long message on her machine and will call her back at the first of the week.

**Edit**
Looks like we wont be getting internet. Which means no more DV or any number of things I enjoy.
I'll be able to check in occasionally though because the nearby library has wireless internet, so I can always go there.

Ugh... I can't believe we're moving again. And so soon since the last time.
I took a load of stuff to the Farm earlier and on my way I dropped off my 14 year old at the cousin's house. CPS knocked on their door right after I drove away. My daughter freaked and jumped out the window. This was at 10 PM.
Neither of us have received anything in writing saying my daughter is not aloud over there. What freagin business is it of theirs?! CPS mentioned they knew the man of the house was at the grocery store the other night with my daughter.
Yeah. I was there too. So was his ex-wife. They invited us to dinner. But how do they know that?
Simple: they have the family illegally under surveilence (sp!)

Anyhow, I was going to pick up my daughter when I was done running back and forth to the Farm. I was going to make 2 trips. When I returned home after the first trip, she was home. A friend of the cousin drove her back.

Now I'm VERY TICKED!!!!!!!

I'm going to appear at their Court Hearing on Tuesday.

THEN, hubby gets ticked off that I'm helping them and he told me how uncomfortable he was and that it would cause problems between the 2 of us if I continue associating with them and especially if I appear at Court for them.
*sigh*
I reasoned with him and told him he has a hard time with me having any friends outside our relationship and that it's due to insecurities and paranoia (some rightfully placed- he's afraid I'm going to get pulled down with my Cousins). I pointed out that he's always been that way and it's usually not a problem because I'm a natural hermit. I have no friends. He tries to control me and I'm usually okay with that (I don't want a "life")
But I further explained how passionate I feel about at least trying to help my cousin on Tuesday because the State is trying to railroad them without just cause. I further said I would be done with the family after that and he reluctantly relented.

I know he's right. I know I'm making unnecessary enemies. But I can't sit on my hands and watch 3 kids be kidnapped. It's just not right.

I can't wait to be back at the Farm and away from all this drama.

i'm going to hastings to rent the new 30 days of night. hope i make it

i made it, though it was a worthless accomplishment. movie was balls

Sorry it wasn't as good as you hoped, GreenHavoc.

I couldn't fall asleep until about 5AM, woke up at 3:30 PM
I ate and have been watching Rescue Me.

At around 6, I'm going to help load some smaller stuff into the car for another Farm run. I must remember to bring the hammer and some nails so I can hang up a few pictures.
Tomorrow, I'll start bringing the animals up.

I'm slowly starting to use my broken wrist more. It aches, but I'm down from 3,000 mg of Tylenol and 440 of Naproxen daily to 1,000 and 220.

Right now, I've been trying to foster some orphaned (?) kittens to one of our cats who just lost her litter. The orphans are about 2 1/2 weeks old and one of them is taking its last breaths
Now my daughter's mad at me because I'm not doing anything. I can't place it with the other kittens for fear the smell of death will scare the foster mom away. The one is having its death rattles. It's too far gone except to make as comfortable as possible.

I've been driving all day. We got the dogs to the Farm and one of my boys is up there tending house. The others are going to school tomorrow, then it's up to the Farm for all of us.

Tomorrow, I still have to make phone calls to get loose ends tied up and I have to take hubby's car in to have its tires changed.
My right leg aches from all the driving being done.

We got the washer/dryer up the Farm today, but hubby lacked some socket wrenches to switch power plates between the broken one and the good one.

It's been a long and hectic day but we got MUCH done.

2 of the 5 kittens died and another one may soon follow. They're now being successfully fostered, so hopefully the others have a fighting chance.

I made most of my phone calls today (still have to get the phone hooked up) and all of the important stuff is on its last trip. I'm leaving my computer here until Wednesday which is when our final trip will be made. We'll bring most of the cats up today as well as the bunny
This is going to be an interesting car ride!

Hoping to hear some interesting stories about it! Checking in here not because there's something I need to do (that's a lie, get to that in a moment) but because I wanted to see how everyone else is keeping up on their goals and accomplishments.

Here's mine, since I lied.

Need a box big enough to put a backpack in by Sunday night.
Need to get candy to put in the backpack by Monday night.
Need to put other objects into backpack and pack the box by Tuesday night.
Need to mailout box by Thursday night, or at the very least have it ready to send for another date.

Things for a very special girl.

Sounds very interesting Clyde!
I hope to hear an interesting story from you soon

The cats did surprisingly well. I think it's because they were the young ones and I took them only 3 at a time (fear being contagious and all).
I need to bring Laushes, RoRoshka, Buttercup and the 2 Scroungies on Monday. I'll probably leave RoRo because I think she has a mess of kittens somewhere.
Our male Bucky Boy is MIA (out Tomming) as is the cat of my cousin, Garfield
I'll keep leaving food out for them.

I got the phone hooked up which was a major hassle. Verison sold out to some small company and they needed the "911 address" for our Farm. A lot of people around here just have Rural Route addresses. The Post Office didn't even know it, but they suggested going to the Court House and they finally hunted down the residence and gave me the address. And now that they did I have to display it lol
*sigh*

A friend (cousins ex-hubby) hiked to our Farm and stayed the night. He found out his daughter had been molested by a former friend and he needed the 30+ some odd mile hike to vent his rage. My hubby would flip out if he learned of it. He's somewhat controlling and doesn't like me having friends (especially of the opposite sex). The friend cleaned our kitchen and did the dishes though when everyone was sleeping. He's a nice guy going through hell (his kids are still in Foster Care), and he's completely not my type. I wish hubby would learn I'm loyal to a fault.

I flushed some more Valium *cries*. I found some more though lol and flushed most of them as well. Like any true addict, I kept 10 or so "for emergencies".

I need to Pawn my PS3 on Monday so I can get more gas to get back to the Farm and my kids. Hubby's out of State until at least Wednesday.
At the Farm, I still need to call Gary (handiman) to fix the water leak. I tried replacing the power cord to the dryer but one of the nuts is cross threaded AND stripped, so I could do nothing. Perhaps Gary has some trick up his sleeve.
I turned on the Furnace before I left so the kids could use it as their dryer. It takes forever, but works fine if the clothes are hung up properly.

I need to put more oil in Nona (the car) and while I'm stuck in Town, I'll clean the trailer some.

All the Fostered kittens died. The last one passed just yesterday I still haven't seen their mom (Akira) so I think she's dead too.

The only things I've accomplished today is sleeping and catching up on Hulu.
I went to Wal-mart and bought a frozen Chicken Fried Rice meal and some chips as well as Acid Reducer. Went to Sheetz for a coke.
I've been headachy all day. Think it's because of the weather. In any case, I feel very *blah*.

The Pawn Shop opens at 9:30. I call hubby at 11 and after that, it's back to the Farm with me until Wednesday or Thursday (depending on when hubby comes home)

I have dropped from 1,500- 3,000 mg daily Tylenol to 0-500 mg. My arm wakes me up at night A LOT, so I'll try taking a Tylenol PM seeing how I'm now Valium free.
My arm is permanently deformed (hardly noticeable though) and I'm able to use it more and more every day. Unless I want to hold something heavy (like my 52 oz cup of soda) or roll the window in the car UP. Rolling it down is no problem.
I see my Shrink on Tuesday... CRAP.. which means I need the gas for ANOTHER trip to Town. He had me give some blood at the hospital to run some basics. I see my bone Dr. on Wednesday...

*whew* Never mind. That's NEXT week. The 26, 27.

I'm about to leave for the Farm. I couldn't pawn my PS3 because I couldn't find the controller. So I pawned my beloved iPad and told the owner I would definitely be back for it this Wednesday or Thursday.
She knows my hubby and asked if I was going to get in trouble lol. I told her, as long as I pick it back up, he'd be none the wiser... that he was out of State and I needed gas money.
I only wanted $50. so it will cost me $60. to pick it up.
I do wish hubby would give me a bigger allowance sometimes.

My hand killed me most of the night. I took 1,000 mg Tylenol before sleeping (forgot the PM stuff at the Farm). When I was unplugging the PS3 I lost my balance and leaned onto my injured hand and I felt it right away. I took some Naproxen and all is well for now. I'm sure it will bother me more later on though.

I'll be back on Wednesday.

Change of plans regarding the box! Preparing it (I have a couple boxes to choose from, actually, need to clean one out to use) for shipping before our three-year anniversary so it'll arrive day-of.

I never do anything as a surprise because one way or another, she finds out or I can't keep it a secret, so I want to do something romantic. Being told "you're not romantic at all" about a month ago has driven me to an odd point I'm not used to being at - feeling like a bad boyfriend, like I haven't been doing enough. Trying to do something extra special with whatever I can find (both in material object and in outside-the-box thinking, the latter of which I could use more of), this idea with the box being what I've come up with.

I've had her backpack for a while and have been meaning to send it to her, but now I can use it to do something special for her. I'll be packing it with candy - need to learn what she prefers - and an 80GB external harddrive which I plan to have packed with music she'll like by the time I ship it. She's been asking for a replacement promise ring for a while since the one I got for her has started to turn black (much to our dismay), but I haven't got enough money to buy a new ring and without a job I can't make any more (still applying, waiting for calls).

So back to the original intent of this post, I was planning on shipping the box out this Thursday so it'd appear to her out of the blue, but I have no other plans for our anniversary. Thus, I'll be taking extra time to make it better than it would have been.

Goals:
Get candy information, get candy for box. [before Oct23,or Oct30 if problems arise/if need more]
Get harddrive loaded with music, learn more about her musical interests. [progressively]
Pack items into backpack. [progressively]
Get special card. [before Oct30]
Ship out package at least three days in advance. [ideally Nov9]