Originally Posted by buriedmonsters
I have had the same dream, at least once a month, for the past 7 years. Recently I've begun to get concerned because I don't think it's normal, and I feel like my subconcious is trying to tell me something. I've even been considering going to a therapist about it, but for now I'm hoping one of you lovely people will have some ideas as to what the hell it could mean.
My advice is not to judge whether or not it is "normal". Accept it. Often when the subconscious is trying to get a message across it uses drastic measures. It is as if you are speaking to someone and they ignore you, you start yelling. Judging it won't help. Accepting it will.
I am a little girl, maybe 7 or 8, and I am living in a big victorian style house with my family. My sister, who is about 11 or 12 in the dream, is the only one of my family members I interact with during the dream.
I see some very common themes in this dream. When interpreting dreams it is important to realize that usually every character represents a part of yourself, whether or not it is somebody else you know or not. Also, usually a mansion or a big building represents your psyche, or your inner feeling of who you are. The attic or the top floor often represents what people call the soul, or the superconscious. The basement often represents the subconscious.
And another important point: nobody can tell you what it means, you have to figure it out for yourself by finding out which interpretation feels right. That being said, other people can give you ideas and bring insight into meanings that you may not have thought of.
So here are my ideas:
What were you like as a child, 7 or 8? How did you feel then? Can you still feel that part of you in yourself now that you were back then? Get in touch with your inner child. How did/do you feel about your sister? Is she older than you in waking life? Remember that she may represent a part of you, a part that is more mature or older. A part of you that you look up to perhaps, IDK.Can you feel that part of yourself within you? Think about this.
We are always in whitish dresses, looking about early 1900's style.
White dresses and victorian mansions and early 1900's all speaks to me of imagery of purity yet naivete, innocence that needs to be lost and grown through, maybe slightly stifling and restrictive. Maybe being raised in a restrictive religious household?
Me and my sister Sarah are always in the attic of this house, looking down at children playing in a yard below. And then the scenery abruptly changes. It is suddenly night time, and I am killing people with a sharp tool. Sometimes it is an axe, sometimes it is a large knife, but I am always stabbing and slashing them to death. I am still a small child, but somehow I am able to kill both adults and children, and sometimes it also includes animals. After I am done killing them, I take them back to the attic, where Sarah is waiting for me.
Suddenly you are not so innocent and the scene is dark and you are doing horrible things. These people you are killing also represent yourself, and animals also, represent your vital energy. You may be trying to empower yourself instead of being a innocent little child, you may be trying to grow or demanding to be recognized as an equal to adults. Perhaps people think that you are more childish than you feel inside yourself and they dismiss you. Maybe trying to assert yourself against some 'pure' pollyana religious household. I don't know.
It changes to daylight again, and Sarah and I begin to dismember and skin everyone that I brought. We then take big needles and thick black thread and sew all of the dismembered parts back together, creating what looks like huge zombie dolls.
After destroying you are trying to create again. After finding out what you are not and what you don't agree with from your upbringing you need to put together the energy you have liberated and integrate it again within you. This is a common theme of nightmares. Many times when someone has recurring dreams of killing they end when the person understands the message and turns the dead back to life, for example if one kills a tiger then one can eat it and take back the energy, or burn it and sprinkle the ashes on a garden and eat the vegetables. In this case you are putting together the pieces you have destroyed. You are rearranging who you are.
Once we are done, we feel bad and are afraid someone is going to catch us, so we hide these "dolls" in cardboard boxes that appear in the corner of the attic. The dream always ends with the "dolls" starting to rot, and I become very afraid and anxious about my other family members downstairs smelling the rotting flesh.
Maybe you don't feel like your family will accept who you really are and feel they may be ashamed of the new you. So you don't let them know you truly, you are not yourself around them. You hide who you really are in your private attic. But you cannot hide who you really are because then who you really are will start rotting. The rotting is a symptom that you are hiding who you really are. The dolls are trying to get your attention. The dream is trying to get your attention. The rotting and the dream are both the same thing. Be yourself around your family. Or else leave your family so you can be yourself.
This is all just my ideas, if it were my dream what it would mean to me. Think about it, at the very least I hope it brings insight. You know who was a master lucid dreamer? Edgar Allen Poe. Have you read any of his stories? They were all inspired by dreams he had. This dream reminds me of an Edgar Allen Poe story.
You are not crazy. People call crazy what they are unwilling to accept. Don't be afraid to be crazy. It is just a message, it is not a sign of insanity. If you try to be sane and are afraid of being crazy then you are locking yourself in a box labeled "sanity" in the attic. Be outside the box! Be yourself.
Is any of this relevant? Am I close? I love to interpret dreams, I find all the symbolism fascinating. It is the language of the subconscious. This is how tarot cards work.
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