Hi, I'm Monster. I'm new, and I really need some help.

I have had the same dream, at least once a month, for the past 7 years. Recently I've begun to get concerned because I don't think it's normal, and I feel like my subconcious is trying to tell me something. I've even been considering going to a therapist about it, but for now I'm hoping one of you lovely people will have some ideas as to what the hell it could mean.

The dream is this, with only very slight variation each time...

I am a little girl, maybe 7 or 8, and I am living in a big victorian style house with my family. My sister, who is about 11 or 12 in the dream, is the only one of my family members I interact with during the dream. We are always in whitish dresses, looking about early 1900's style. Me and my sister Sarah are always in the attic of this house, looking down at children playing in a yard below. And then the scenery abruptly changes. It is suddenly night time, and I am killing people with a sharp tool. Sometimes it is an axe, sometimes it is a large knife, but I am always stabbing and slashing them to death. I am still a small child, but somehow I am able to kill both adults and children, and sometimes it also includes animals. After I am done killing them, I take them back to the attic, where Sarah is waiting for me. It changes to daylight again, and Sarah and I begin to dismember and skin everyone that I brought. We then take big needles and thick black thread and sew all of the dismembered parts back together, creating what looks like huge zombie dolls. Once we are done, we feel bad and are afraid someone is going to catch us, so we hide these "dolls" in cardboard boxes that appear in the corner of the attic. The dream always ends with the "dolls" starting to rot, and I become very afraid and anxious about my other family members downstairs smelling the rotting flesh.

I always awake feeling very anxious and strange...I don't really know how to describe it, except that it really bothers me and the feeling often lingers for hours after. I would really like to understand what my brain is trying to tell me, because I feel like it's some kind of message that I'm not getting. I know this is a really long post, but I'm begging someone to help me. I'm beginning to feel like I'm crazy...

-Monster